Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 Freedom From The System of Selling Sickness By Pamela April 15, 2006 Many of you may remember years ago when I shared with you how I went through several years of complete disability following a car accident. For those who were not with me then I am sharing again because my story is not unique but it can shed some serious light on what many of you or your loved ones could be experiencing today with a health care crisis. Our minds can make us think many things, and in a controlled environment (that solely believes in treating us " one way " ) we will get that message over, and over again, that THEY want us to get. That message will be that these dangerous surgeries, and these toxic drugs, and the invasive seed planting psychological therapies, are our only answers for so-called help. More then anything they will fight to convince us that their failing methods work, even when they are repeatedly proven to not work. When we protest that these measures are not working, and that we are getting worse, our genes are blamed, we are blamed, our past is blamed, and even our parents are blamed, but rarely will the invasive procedures, or the dangerous medications, be blamed. After my car accident, the doctors put me on many drugs and later I endured several operations that ranged from nerve burning (that left a permanent numb area on the right side of my neck) to disk removal in my neck (that did not reduce the pain-eventually increased it) to which they then fused that part of my neck with the adjacent disk inserting bone in between. Along with that I went through therapy, and a lot of it, with far more invasive procedures like cervical steroid injections right into my neck, a stint of many days they put me in traction erroneously for the wrong part of my body causing more damage, near electrocution from therapy applied wrongly, and boot camp like therapy. Finally when all that was done they sent me to see a head doctor because not surprising I was NO better, I was much worse, and they then blamed it on me. I am not a conformist and you all know that. Far from it. Like I said, after all the cutting, therapies, and medication I was no better in the end. I was actually worse and in constant, nonstop, pain. Their answer for me after all this and thousands of dollars worth of garbage conventional choices? They said I was permanently disabled. They said I would never be able to lift more then 5 pounds again. I would never be able to run again. I would never be able to dance with my husband again. I would have to learn to live with the constant pain I was in. I would probably face more surgeries later on due to other neck injuries that were getting worse. Of course to try and " deal " with the pain they offered a lifetime supply of drugs that left me nauseas, disoriented, feeling like I had the energy of an 80 year old woman, and depressed more then I had ever been in my life. I was in my mid twenties. The prime of life that should have been filled with growing and a lot of experiences. The sad thing is that I was a very willing participant in all of this. I was willing to take whatever pill they had to offer just to stop the pain. I was willing to be the sacrificial lamb on the operating table if I thought it would make me so-called normal again. I can remember when they shared of a new experimental surgery to which I was BEGGING them to let me participate in. Good grief. I believed in mainstream medicine blindly back then. As my mental, and physical stability weakened, and my pain increased, I grew more depressed and suicidal. I did not know the anti- depressants could cause suicidal tendencies. I only knew I had tried several of them and the side affects were so severe I had to BEG them to get me off them. They of course would say I had to suffer through more WEEKS of each one to give the DRUG a CHANCE and that I was at a higher risk of suicide without them. Forget what I was suffering through- give the DRUG a chance. Then onto another I would go to only experience a different set of serious side affects and remain severely depressed. I can remember doing as I have seen loved ones do when they were put on all these drugs for similar issues- I would watch the clock until my next pain pill, and anti-inflammatory could be taken. Even though I felt like death warmed over from what those drugs were doing to me, (I didn't know it was the drugs because my doctors kept saying it was MY injuries) I still could not wait for the next dose. I was hooked. They never told me the drugs could cause those reactions and debilitate my body and mental health that way. The final blow for me was when a well respected Neurologist here in Dallas told me he thought all my pain stemmed from coming from a home with an alcoholic parent. Huh? Did I hear this well respected doctor just blame my disability on my parents and my past from YEARS ago? Yep, I did. Here's the catch when they see they have done all they can to us, and we refuse to say we are better (because we are NOT better) they will put the blame of NON-sucessful toxic treatments on us. The sick thing is that when they blame us, and we react " angrily, " as most people would react when they KNOW they didn't do this to themselves, there is a catch 22. The more angry we get- the more mental we LOOK to them. How convenient for them. I of course did not think about that then. I KNEW I was in constant pain. I couyld barely function because of the pain. I knew this was not a figment of my imagination. I knew that however my parents were in my past had nothing to do with the very real medical disability I was facing years later. So yes, I fell right into that trap of emotions they wanted me in. I did get angry, very angry, when he blamed what happened years ago on what I was trying to live through years later. Then this " lovely " doctor ever so carefully continues with his self condescending whispered tone toward me (you know that tone-it is the tone a parent uses when they are talking down to a child when they think the CHILD is just not getting their words of wisdom) he proceeds to tell me that children of alcoholics often exaggerate symptoms. Really?? Wow, so now I am exaggerating symptoms and these knife like pains in my neck, and extremities, are all here because I came from a home with an alcoholic parent? Gee, it's so simple now. Why didn't I think of that? If I just didn't come from a home like that when I was a kid this would have never happened years later. Gee-Thanks Doc, how much do I owe you? By the way does this mean that all this pain will " magically " disappear now that you have blamed my past and thanks to your wisdom I now know where it really comes from? Because I need to know what you think here Doc-Did I imagine these injuries that you just boringly, and painstakingly pointed out to me on my MRI and films? Was I imagining all this non stop intense pain that kept me paralyzed from living, and doing even simple tasks, all because I was a child of an alcoholic? WOW what a bombshell. I feel so empowered now. I have so many more choices when my injuries today are blamed on something from years ago that I can never change. Thank you oh wise one! At that point I wondered if I was really losing my mind? Wouldn't you? Wouldn't anyone think they had lost their minds if they had gone through several YEARS of a being disabled only to be told after all the damage that was done to them that they were in this shape now because of their parents? How can I do a thing about that? Let's talk about who's nuts here please because now that I look back on these events I cannot believe I didn't just laugh at that idiot so- called expert and just walk out. But when we are filled with toxins that DO affect our body, and mind, we are not thinking clearly. Nor do we have the will power and mental strength to help us see through garbage like this. What do we normally do when we are lambasted while at our lowest? We will blame ourselves. Few in my famiily know that I did feel like going home and just taking a large overdose after that appointment. As much as I was against suicide and doing that to my loved ones I felt I was then pushed to the brink of no hope at all after that. The truth is that this has nothing to do with our parents or our childhood. These drugs can, and WILL, debilitate our minds, and they can and DO make healthy thinking, and reactions, next to impossible. Not to forget that we go to these nuts because we THINK we can trust them (we SHOULD be able to) and we make the mistake when we THINK they do know far more about what WE are feeling and experiencing then we do. They have trained us to look at these doctors who think they are God like all knowing saviors and they are far from it. I came to this doctor because he was the head of neurology in a respected hospital in Dallas (You may remember it because it is the same hospital they took President Kennedy to when he was shot- Parkland) because I was at my wits end. Every time they did something to me that didn't work they placed the guilt on me for the failure when I would tell them it did not work. They would say this drug, or this procedure ,has helped a majority of people. Really? Well it made me worse. They would then become more stern like a parent with a child who refuses to conform and say, " This has worked for MANY people. " While completely ignoring how I just told them I was NO better. Like there was something wrong with ME because MANY other people were so-called help by these invasive procedures. Where have we heard this before? When vaccine manufacturers were being called all the time for vaccine injuries by parents-they told those parents NO one had ever called them to tell them of these kinds of vaccine injuries before. augh. As of that makes what happened to their child mean nothing? We know that's not true, but even if it were, the injuries to that ONE child meant a lot to those parents who called them to tell them about it. This is KEY here folks because that is just how this mainstream medical system works. We see it over and over again, and yes our MIND set does play a big role in this. But not the way they want us to believe. If we are dictated by them on HOW we should feel, what level of pain WE should be having, and how THEY want us to think WE should be feeling, how does that help US improve if that is NOT how we really feel? We need to ask ourselves Is this how WE were REALLY feeling then, or was it how they WANTED to brainwash us into " saying we felt like " so they could remain disillusioned and continue to believe in their barbaric practices? I did not see it back then. I only know that I refused to play the game. I refused to say these things worked, and that I was better, when I knew I was only getting worse. I was their worst nightmare for a patient because I refused to conform to what they tried to brainwash me into thinking, and believing, when my own body was telling me the opposite. This is brainwashing at it's finest. If anything I can see now how a child of an any abuse would be a major threat to them. Because a child of abuse has seen all the lies and fake portrayals. They know how the family or the abuser can portray one image to the public while home life is completely the opposite. They are not easily fooled by appearances and they do know people can be VERY different to others from who they really are. God forbid they walked away from those painful life lessons to be more careful to not believe everything people say and to actually take up the task to look further into things people try to make them believe. Ok Doc, how about that? I am sure we wouldn't want to go there right? The last thing any of these doctors want is for people to REALLY look into the truths of these drugs that they want to put them on or to see there are SAFER choices but they themselves have zero training in offering them. They definitely do not want anyone who would dare question them, and make them accountable for obvious damages rendered from their choices they offered that hurt others. How do they control it? By telling us what to feel, by telling us how better we are, (even when we are not better) and by discounting the truth of obvious damages when we try to tell them. Besides that, being a child of " anything " does not define who I am today. Nor should it define anyone who has had a past of less then desirable circumstances. " I' define who I am today. If I survived abuse, alcoholism, trauma, or whatever the label of the week is, that still does not define who I am today. I can let that baggage dictate who I am today from things that transpired years ago when out of my control, or I can learn from it when I do have control as an adult, so not to pass those damages down to my future generations. But that is the truth in psychology today. It is designed to control us through labels. To define us and make us believe that we are all cookie cutter people and show us that all these other people who believed their cookie cutter theories are like " this " today as adults, so WE should be that way too. If we show them we are not that way, they fight to make us be that way. How are we helped when they try to strip individuality from us and define us only by negatives and not seeing ANY positives that can come from learning from those bad experiences instead of living futures lives controlled by them? If psychology today were helping us to rise UP it would be one thing. But more times, then not, it is the weight that continues to hold people down so they can continue to not change or learn at all. Every day we see the New Labels they design for another set of people they searched diligently for to fit a " common " profile. The next thing we know they are telling all those people in that new group they created that they cannot be anything more then what that new label says they can be. They give them the excuse to blame for remaining stagnant in their lives. When they should have helped them see that now they are adults THEY are the only obstacles they really have to healing and having a better life. Has this form of brainwashing in psychiatry worked to create many more stagnant people stuck in a rut in our society today? You tell me? How many more people who came from dysfunction are passing dysfunction down to their kids today? Haven't we heard it throughout many years that all these kids who were abused are at a high risk for abusing when they get older? Do you see that message to society still going strong today? More importantly has that seed planting message deterred more abuse or has it given the excuse for more abuse? I can tell you right now I have NEVER thought about abusing one precious child in my life. Talking to many other survivors of abuse I can tell you THEY say the same exact thing. I have yet to talk to ANY survivor who said the abuse in their past made them feel like abusing in their future. If anything the opposite is true. We remember that pain and we would never dream of doling that kind of pain on our loved ones. So where are they finding all these people that they profile on TV every week? The people who say they sexually abused that kid because they were abused? More importantly did these people think this way, or think of abusing, " before " they were told that victims of abuse will behave this way as adults? Think about that because the exact methodology they use to try and prove abuse is creating abusers can be used against them when they constantly tell people they are at a higher risk of abusing because they were abused. I am not saying that victims of abuse do not abuse here. Nor am I saying you should ever trust your child to be around an abuser later in life. I am saying they CAN be creating far more abusers by planting these seeds and telling them they will become abusers. I cannot tell you how many times I heard those types of messages being drilled into my head in therapy. I was told I was at a higher risk for this, or that, in adult life because of my past. That is the core of selling sickness in psychiatry today. They continue to plant the seeds to encourage dysfunctional thinking, to focus on hypothetical negatives, when they could be showing people how they ARE in complete control as adults now, how they are no longer a powerless child, and how they do not have to make those choices today that they know cause damage and harm. Yet they continue to broadcast those messages across our nation everyday that we see a new crime committed against a child. They continue to plant those seeds to others out there who may have never dreamed of thinking that way. People can become what they create if they hear it enough and allow themselves to believe it. The proof of that can be seen in the massive amounts of abusers we have today. The inexcusable part is that society has bought the entire political correct package of giving excuses for people who cause harm based upon their past experiences. They look for the abusers past to try and desperately give them an excuse for what they do as an adult, instead of seeing the victims lives they destroyed. They see the adult who is doing nothing with their life and they see how they use that past as an excuse to allow them off scott free for not taking charge of their own life when they have the power to do so. Folks, here's the wake up call. Once you leave those doors of your parents home and you become an adult, the choices YOU make will dictate how YOUR life turns out. Mom wasn't there to tell you to drink and drive. Dad wasn't there to tell you to steal instead of getting a job. YOU made those choices and as soon as people get how seriously they have been duped into being dependent upon this system through the lies of these labels, with no real hope of a fruitful life to show for it, the better off they will be. The two best things I got out of all that therapy for my " mind " were these. Just because God picks our family it does not mean we cannot pick our friends for a surrogate family. Nor does it mean we have to tolerate abuse, or dysfunction, just for the sake of family. Is family important? You bet. But if you have certain members who are a mess in your family, and you know they are not good for you, or your family, then you have to be the adult and make the healthy decision to get the heck away from them until THEY finally take responsibility for where their life is. Can you help them? Only if they want help. But NO, you do not have to sacrifice yourself in the name of family. The next thing I learned was that WE had the power all along. Read this and remember it well please because it applies to almost all situations in our lives. NO one can do anything to us " as adults " that we do not allow. Read that again because it is a powerfully true statement and I remember the first time I heard it I was playing the victim role and it made me angry. It's true. NO one can do anything to us that we do not allow. Here is what they are really saying to us when they hear from us what they do not like to hear and when we point blank tell them their toxic treatments and mind controlling therapies do not work. They are really saying we don't care if these things don't work. We don't believe you when you say you are worse because we have managed to get many other people to go against what THEY were REALLY feeling after we butchered them, and damaged them with toxic drugs, and mind controlling therapies, to make them tell us they were better after we told them how they should feel. So now I had a doctor who saw the massive files in my thick medical records, a doctor who scrutinized the films of my injuries for me, and a doctor who saw the long list of drugs they had me on. He is seeing the proof of what they did to me and he was seeing the results of how I still was far worse off, and yet he had the nerve to try and tell me I was this way NOW because I had an alcoholic parent. Good grief. It was then that " I " decided I am not going to be disabled ANY more. I am fed up with being so sick all the time that I don't even want to get out of bed. I am tired of feeling suicidal and I want to LIVE. I decided I CAN live with this pain and I am not going to let it stop me from living one more day. One by one I started to get off the drugs. By this time they had sent me off to a pain specialist. These guys should be regarded as your hard core drug dealers for mainstream medicine. Because that is all they do- they regulate your drugs, and make sure the dosages are high enough to keep you a lifetime patient. They are called to come in after the first doctors got you hooked on the drugs and then want to distance themselves from what they did to you. Of course the pain specialist would terrify me when I shared with him that I was DONE with these garbage anti-depressants that made me feel like I have bugs crawling all over me How I could not sleep and I needed some SLEEP. When I told him I was sick of the pain pills that made me feel like I was going to throw up all the time. When I said I was tired of the anti inflammatories etc, etc, etc. I wanted to have kids too and I did not want to place a child in danger because of all the toxins I was on at the time. Even though back then I really didn't have a CLUE as to how toxic they really were. Of course I didn't make the connection back then that getting off all the drugs meant I wouldn't need HIM anymore. Why the need for a drug regulating doctor when I was off all drugs? Indeed. I want to caution that many of these drugs are MORE dangerous when you try to get off of them. I did make some ill-informed decisions when I went cold turkey with some of these and believe me I am lucky to be here today. Can only say that God must have been looking after my ignorant self because we didn't have the internet for me to see what I was doing and I sure as heck was not seeing any doctor at the time who would really help me do it safely. Each time I mentioned it they would go into a tail spin about how I could get " suicidal " if I got off the anti-depressants, how I could feel MORE pain off the other drugs etc. Never once getting it that I was dead serious about getting off them with, or without, their help. So I went it alone and it was NOT easy by a long shot. But I was determined to gain back my life and I knew the road I was on would lead to me taking my life to end the pain for organ failure due to toxic buildup from the chemicals. What is sad to me when I look back at that part of my life is that the closest they got to anything natural for healing was offering bio- feedback therapy and a TENS unit. I say it is sad because the mainstream medical professionals they sent me to didn't have a clue how to really implement those therapies and because of that I did not get the help I could ahve gotten nor did I have any more faith in those choices. If anything the opposite was true and I had more distrust in those choices. The TENs therapy they sent me to get (this was done in an office -not the small type they send home with us) rendered a lot more pain because they didn't know what the heck they were doing and they were completely negligent in monitoring the device after they hooked me up to it. They left the voltage up way too high, then just left the room. My body was shaking in convulsions from so much energy surging through my injuries that they increased the pain many times. The chiropractor they sent me to forced my neck to be adjusted right after my accident and my neck swelled up to three times it's size on the right. Come to find out later he was not very experienced nor did he truly understand how to adjust people properly or the crucial timing of allowing initial swelling from injuries to subside first. I met several others of his victims in the boot camp like therapy center they sent me to for a week. The God awful experiences with those choices, and meeting other victims of that doctor, left me terrified of any non-invasive alternative therapies. I now know that initial experiences in these alternative therapies can mean all the difference in the world. If we want TRUE alternative care we will go to a highly trained alternative doctor. We will also not go to any MD's that are playing with things they have little training and education in. Anyway it was a life long learning experience that left a much warranted distrust of mainstream medicine in my mind. Sadly it did not leave enough distrust for me to prevent my son from being injured by vaccines years later. All I can say is we can learn from these tragedies and help others to not walk in those same shoes. These experiences can help me with my future patients. I have been there and done that. I will know what it's like to go through the shakes and sweats of getting off these mind altering drugs. I do know what it's like to force a body that has gone through serious atrophy to make it just start to move. I understand only too well the true depression that comes when we are placed on these chemicals that alter our minds, and the nightmare of what it's like when we are surrounded by people who refuse to listen to us, and only want to tell us how we should be feeling, or blame us for not feeling how their text books say we should feel. We are all wonderful unique individuals. There is no textbook therapy or procedure for everyone. As such we need individualized treatment for our very unique set of ailments. The first thing in healing does start with our mind. If we allow them to make us believe there is no hope, we will never heal, and there will be no hope. Even the best of nutrients are not stronger then serious negativisms our minds can believe once they hear them over and over again. We have to push out the negatives and take control of our real thoughts again and NEVER allow anyone to tell us how WE feel. How absurd it is when we really see that no one else can know how WE feel and yet mainstream medicine is centrally focused on telling people how they should feel and what is working for them. If we allow them to tell us we are tainted, and damaged goods, due to a childhood out of our control, or nonrelated issues, we will manifest that stereotype and become just what they predicted. If we allow them to make us think we can only do " this list of things " and never " those things " we will only be able to do what they said we could do. We are the only limits to ourselves and as soon as people realize they do have the power to take charge of their health the sooner we will see some real healing. I saw this again when healing our son from the vaccine injuries. If we would have listened to everything they said our son would never do again, he would be no better today. If we would have believed he could only do certain things and never many other things, that's all he could do today. It is time to put these labels that control us in the trash where they belong. What is a child of an alcoholic? What is a child who is autistic? Who is a victim of abuse? What do any of these labels do FOR us? Think about that seriously please. If you come to the conclusion I have come to you will see that these labels will only do one thing if we believe them-they will prevent us from seeing who we could have been. The choices are yours. You can take the reins and decide when you have had enough and you are sick of being sick or you can allow the diagnosis, label, and drugs to control your future and set your destiny. This is really the defining moment between those who die from serious illnesses and those who don't. This is the defining moment between those who succeed and those who don't. People who win listen to their inner voice and what their mind is telling them. They do not let outside interferences steer their destiny. Is it easy? No, sadly it is much harder when you start to buck this system of selling sickness. They will do all they can to reel you back in and terrify you with nothing but negatives. They are no different then dysfunctional families who feel threatened when you start to get your act together. They will do all they can to pull you back into that sickness because the better you get the more they feel threatened to change and improve their lives. If you stay in that sickness with them no one gets better. Alas, you can only save yourself. They all have to find their own way. Think about that for a moment too. How are doctors like this ever going to heal you if they are keeping you under control through constant fear? It's really sick when you see it for what it is and it is not the patients who need the head doctors here, it is the doctors who create the crisis with the toxins then dole out the negatives to blame the patients for what they did to them. These doctors DO need their heads checked. Nonetheless, the rewards will come to you in trifold because YOU will be in charge and you will gain your life back in the end. Am I healed today? I would say I am. Do I still have problems from time to time with my previous injuries? Sure. When I do not take care of myself my body will let me know just like anyone else's would that I am hurting myself. Sleep, diet, exercise, and feeding my mind has been my key to freedom from disability. Supplements have indeed helped me too and when I have made bad choices in my environment I have paid again. We are only human and when we fall we can only get up and try to do better next time. The key is to remember that we are in control and NO one can do anything to us that we do not allow. Take back your power! See that the only doctors you should be going to are ones who value working with YOU for your health and start to fire all the ones who want to belittle your pain, cover the root cause with drugs, and act like God above you while leaving you out of all the decisions that will affect YOUR health. You deserve better and no one can give you this power but you. I can never discount the power of God to help me heal and help He did. Without God in my life and my loving husband who stood by me I am not sure how my life would have turned out. That is proof again in how we have the power for they way our lives will be because it is " who " we chose for our partners that dictates the support we will have when faced with crisis. A crisis should not measure the real support we have in our lives but it really does. It's easy to be there for people when things are going great. But when your chips are down and you feel the odds are against you, see those people still in that room with you, and you will have the answers for who is really in your circle of support. I still remember everyone who was still there for me even when I pushed them away while on all the drugs, even when I was hating myself and who I had become. They are the true support I had in my life who helped me make it to the light again of positives. Even so, it was " I " who had to do all the work to get here and that was something none of them could do for me no matter how bad they wanted to and no matter how much they loved me. I had to want to live. I had to want to heal. I had to do all the work to make it happen. Their suppoort helped me along the way and that is a true measure for us to see who we have that we can really count on in our lives. Now more then ever people need to get back to caring for each other instead of looking to this system of selling sickness as the answer. Do you have the support you can call on at any time of the day or night? If not, make it so. If not, be that person for someone else and they will be that person for you. If a majority of your relationships are one sided and you are always the one who is there for others in your life while few of them have time for you. Then it is time to re-evaluate just " who " you have surrounded yourself with in your life. You need to form that support now, not try to find it after you are hit with a crisis. This is just as important as deciding how to create your will and who will care for you if your are ever incapacitated. Because your life could someday come down to needing that support when you are surrounded by a medical system designed to gang up against you. Will they fight for you? Will they know what your true wishes are and really follow through? More importantly, will they be strong enough to stand up to this system and refuse to allow them to harm you? Please share this with anyone you see trapped in this system of selling sickness. We do have choices always. No matter how bleak they paint the picture when you are facing a health crisis there is an equal safe choices in healing for each and every toxic choice they offer. No matter what label they try to attach to us- It will only define who we are, and control who we become, IF we allow it. The only limits we will have in healing, and growing, will the ones we allow to place before us. Take care, be well, and stay informed God Bless Pamela PS: This may be the article I share for Mike Adams new site to expose mainstrem medicine. I plan to also write a complete summory about Alex's vaccine injuries and recovery with detailed descriptions of how the vaccine scam system works and how their " choices " for so- called vaccine injury treatments leave these children disabled. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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