Some addional comments on worrying

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Worrying about something can become a substitute for really facing it and

for action. I know this sounds like a contradiction, but the reason the

person continues to worry is because there's something about the situation

that the person doesn't want to face and/or the person doesn't want to take

action.

 

I went through something like this in TCM. For a long time I was content to

just borrow books through the local library and read. Then ,over time,

something got to pressing on me more and stronger from the inside. I was

irritable, vaguely dissastisfied. The moment I took the step of ordering

two text books in preparation for a formal course of study, it was like a

rock had been lifted off me. Something deep inside of me which is me at the

most basic was being allowed to flow freely and naturally. It wasn't being

chained.

 

Why do people chain themselves sometimes? They've been conditioned to do so

and are too lazy and/or fearful to face the fact of conditioning and fight

it. In my case the excuses offered were the expense, the time, and my poor

health. While it's true my health still isn't good, though vastly improved

and improving, I was well enough to embark on limited formal studies. And

my inner self knew this.

 

Some of the other excuses people give themselves are family expectations and

responsibilities, smart/ nice/ acceptable people don't do things like that

(like a business person walking away from a lucrative career to become an

artist), I lack the ability (never mind that it's the identify of the inner

self), I lack the intelligence and/or schooling, nothing ever goes my way

(never mind the fact that the reason nothing ever goes the person's way is

the person is never true to him/herself), etc.

 

Victoria

 

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