Failure to thrive/Pam

[Guest guest]

I'm 37 and know that if I do have a child my

heart right now tells me I would birth at home w/ no help and I would

homeschool and all that nurturing stuff that the best attentive moms must

do. I'm scared to death tho that I may be kidding myself and would have

that seperation syndrome that is being discussed in this topic.

 

Hm Pam, I never thought about this. I hate to say anything really, as like I really think, you can never tell. Me, for example. I dont consider myself selfish - in fact I always live too much for others I think. I helped raise my brother from the time he was a baby so was used to kids and we always got along. I also was used to taking care of the house. And I had animals under my responsibility. For 7 year had several indoor rabbits that I would clean up and feed everyday, slept with me, etc. We also had a dog that was mean - when Josh and I were together out of the house - and did diarrhea on the floor daily on purpose, bit, etc - we had to get rid of him after 6 mos. BUT he was more work than the baby was!!! LOL My mother told me that the baby would be easier than he would be to take care of and she was right lOL! So it wasn't really that I had never taken care of people before.

 

The birth was planned. I always wanted children. Had help during the pregnancy AND afterwards. Mother came over everyday the first 2 weeks. Grandparents on weekends. Ex hubby at night (was hubby then) . When I gave birth I was planning on feeling something (all through pregnancy I was very excited ). When I did deliver I Didnt feel what I saw mothers talk about and feel on TV. So I asked a friend who has had children and is older. She said you dont feel like on TV lol because of hormones during the first week. I verified this with my mom and mother in law. They said hromones will make it hard the first week or so. My best friend went through a phase where she was jealous of her newborn babiy and hated the emotions but it was hormones. You cry easily, ect, for about a week and sometimes a little more. Anyway, so I thought it was that. And I waited, and waited, and waiterd..lol, you get the picture.

 

But NO I dont want you to worry about that because I dont regret Gage, it's not that, it just makes it a little harder I think. It is hard to describe....am I the only freak on the list here????

 

Erin