Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was

[Guest guest]

Run, don't walk to your nearest mental health facility.

Peace, Thyme

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was

married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would

express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming

from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they

would, most of the time, come back for a while.

At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run

on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill

pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has

brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any

of them; even though my own mother tried to force such a woman whom I

only connect with my personal research—induced life—long (to

continue) disaster. I chose to let her live – why to murder?

I need help: both in stopping all and any research run on me.

Afterwards, I need a shrink and an ethical guide; I think about

joining a mosque or Masjid. Why I have not done so? As long as any

research is going on – seeing a shrink or joining a religious

organization would go to waste; if anything it would only deepen my

feeling that doctors are useless and only cause harm to people as

well as could bring me into the Godless world of atheism.

With help that I have received many before me were lucky to avoid

jail or being fired. I hope to achieve the same; although some were

not so lucky: some got jailed or fired because of the help.

 

Sincerely,

Robert Kolakowski son of Stanislaw, born 28 DEC 1973

e-mail: dekolak

at present in Bavaria, Germany

permanent address:

138 Ripley Place, Apt. 2, Elizabeth, NJ, 07206-2121,

my mother's phone numbers: 908-353-2808 and 908-351-2858; she lives

in the same city: 1093 Sheridan Avenue, Apt. B, Elizabeth, NJ 07208

 

I have two choices:

1. Let them destroy me; since government cannot help me: the

pharmaceutical industry is very powerful, so are their brethren

working for research units within the government. All—the government

can do most of the time is to ask " How high " when they tell them to

jump; except for rare and short—lived, useless in a long run,

publicity stunts that major governments can afford from time to time

to make us doubt, if they are corporate.

This is why, any spare cent, in spite of debt that has multiplied

since about 7—seven years ago when I still had 8 K in dollars of my

own savings and no debt at all, that I can manage I do invest into

the true decision makers, the true statesmen, the pharmaceutical

companies.

2. I can, after released from the obligation, hid, as I am planning

to, for one full year, in the wood—lines of Idaho, Washington, and

Oregon. This would make my oppressors leave me alone because any

restart of research would become pointless.