Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they would, most of the time, come back for a while. At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any of them; even though my own mother tried to force such a woman whom I only connect with my personal research—induced life—long (to continue) disaster. I chose to let her live – why to murder? I need help: both in stopping all and any research run on me. Afterwards, I need a shrink and an ethical guide; I think about joining a mosque or Masjid. Why I have not done so? As long as any research is going on – seeing a shrink or joining a religious organization would go to waste; if anything it would only deepen my feeling that doctors are useless and only cause harm to people as well as could bring me into the Godless world of atheism. With help that I have received many before me were lucky to avoid jail or being fired. I hope to achieve the same; although some were not so lucky: some got jailed or fired because of the help. Sincerely, Robert Kolakowski son of Stanislaw, born 28 DEC 1973 e-mail: dekolak at present in Bavaria, Germany permanent address: 138 Ripley Place, Apt. 2, Elizabeth, NJ, 07206-2121, my mother's phone numbers: 908-353-2808 and 908-351-2858; she lives in the same city: 1093 Sheridan Avenue, Apt. B, Elizabeth, NJ 07208. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 It seems – when they argue – that the sole purpose of their arguments is to discredit any religion in any form or shape to present it as, but an excuse for all evil. If one truly listened to them, he or she would end up either as an atheist or a Satanist. , " Robert Kolakowski " <dekolak wrote: > > Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was > married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would > express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming > from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they > would, most of the time, come back for a while. > At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run > on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill > pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has > brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any > of them; even though my own mother tried to force such a woman whom I > only connect with my personal research—induced life—long (to > continue) disaster. I chose to let her live – why to murder? > I need help: both in stopping all and any research run on me. > Afterwards, I need a shrink and an ethical guide; I think about > joining a mosque or Masjid. Why I have not done so? As long as any > research is going on – seeing a shrink or joining a religious > organization would go to waste; if anything it would only deepen my > feeling that doctors are useless and only cause harm to people as > well as could bring me into the Godless world of atheism. > With help that I have received many before me were lucky to avoid > jail or being fired. I hope to achieve the same; although some were > not so lucky: some got jailed or fired because of the help. > > Sincerely, > Robert Kolakowski son of Stanislaw, born 28 DEC 1973 > e-mail: dekolak > at present in Bavaria, Germany > permanent address: > 138 Ripley Place, Apt. 2, Elizabeth, NJ, 07206-2121, > my mother's phone numbers: 908-353-2808 and 908-351-2858; she lives > in the same city: 1093 Sheridan Avenue, Apt. B, Elizabeth, NJ 07208. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 I can't help you, but you need to go ahead and talk to somebody before you hurt people. A shrink might be a good place to start, if not, find some *man* who has real life somewhat figured out, and can maybe help you sort things out. Wouldn't there be a [non-fundamentalist] mosque near you that would have somebody to talk to you? Do it now, please. , " Robert Kolakowski " <dekolak wrote: > > Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was > married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would > express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming > from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they > would, most of the time, come back for a while. > At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run > on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill > pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has > brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any > of them; even though my own mother tried to force such a woman whom I > only connect with my personal research—induced life—long (to > continue) disaster. I chose to let her live – why to murder? > I need help: both in stopping all and any research run on me. > Afterwards, I need a shrink and an ethical guide; I think about > joining a mosque or Masjid. Why I have not done so? As long as any > research is going on – seeing a shrink or joining a religious > organization would go to waste; if anything it would only deepen my > feeling that doctors are useless and only cause harm to people as > well as could bring me into the Godless world of atheism. > With help that I have received many before me were lucky to avoid > jail or being fired. I hope to achieve the same; although some were > not so lucky: some got jailed or fired because of the help. > > Sincerely, > Robert Kolakowski son of Stanislaw, born 28 DEC 1973 > e-mail: dekolak > at present in Bavaria, Germany > permanent address: > 138 Ripley Place, Apt. 2, Elizabeth, NJ, 07206-2121, > my mother's phone numbers: 908-353-2808 and 908-351-2858; she lives > in the same city: 1093 Sheridan Avenue, Apt. B, Elizabeth, NJ 07208. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 This is a list on alternative health. Please leave religious debate out of it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 Robert, I think we are having trouble understanding what you mean by 'research.' In our language, research usually means a study carried out to find truthful answers. When you say " research done on me " it sounds as if the research is done by others who have control of you, as if you are like a mouse used in a laboratory. I'm sure that is not what you mean. Can you explain what you mean by this? Do you feel that others are controlling you? If you are having trouble with your emotions as you explained about your anger problems, or you feel that something is trying to control you, then you do need someone to help you. First, make sure there is not some medical reason for your problem. See a medical doctor & explain your problem to him. He may be able to find if you need help he can give to you. If he does not believe in religion, that does not matter. He can still help you. For instance, if you have a broken leg, a doctor can fix it even if he does not share your religion. A dentist can pull your bad tooth even if he does not believe in God. If you are a religious person, you know that it is God who has made all of creation, whether you call him God, Allah, Jehovah, Yahweh or some other name. You should know that to destroy something God created will not please him. Would YOU be happy if you built a house & someone tore it down? Would you not be angry if someone kicked YOUR dog? God will feel the same way & will not be happy if we destroy things or people he made. He put women on this earth to help man. He values them highly & he made them wonderfully so that they have the gift of nurturing new life. He wanted these things or people to be here on earth or he would not have put them here. So if you find you want to destroy God's creatures, then you are in danger of being used by Satan or others who oppose God. So we must not let ourselves be put into the position where we would be working against God's will. He has a plan & nothing we can do will alter it. J , " Robert Kolakowski " <dekolak wrote: > > > It seems – when they argue – that the sole purpose of their arguments > is to discredit any religion in any form or shape to present it as, > but an excuse for all evil. If one truly listened to them, he or she > would end up either as an atheist or a Satanist. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 Hi Robert, This attitude toward women is going to get you in serious trouble if it hasn't already. Find a male therapist with whom you can speak. NOW!!! Do not wait. Or speak with a minister. Get help outside of work and they will not know about this and cannot fire you. Stay in control or you will end up in jail if you get caught. You should also get yourself into an anger management group, in Germany and in NJ. This type of group is likely to be of more help than an individual therapist and may provide you with the support that you need until you get through this. David In , " Robert Kolakowski " <dekolak wrote: > > Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was > married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would > express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming > from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they > would, most of the time, come back for a while. > At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run > on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill > pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has > brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any > of them; even though my own mother tried to force such a woman whom I > only connect with my personal research—induced life—long (to > continue) disaster. I chose to let her live – why to murder? > I need help: both in stopping all and any research run on me. > Afterwards, I need a shrink and an ethical guide; I think about > joining a mosque or Masjid. Why I have not done so? As long as any > research is going on – seeing a shrink or joining a religious > organization would go to waste; if anything it would only deepen my > feeling that doctors are useless and only cause harm to people as > well as could bring me into the Godless world of atheism. > With help that I have received many before me were lucky to avoid > jail or being fired. I hope to achieve the same; although some were > not so lucky: some got jailed or fired because of the help. > > Sincerely, > Robert Kolakowski son of Stanislaw, born 28 DEC 1973 > e-mail: dekolak > at present in Bavaria, Germany > permanent address: > 138 Ripley Place, Apt. 2, Elizabeth, NJ, 07206-2121, > my mother's phone numbers: 908-353-2808 and 908-351-2858; she lives > in the same city: 1093 Sheridan Avenue, Apt. B, Elizabeth, NJ 07208. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 > In , " Robert Kolakowski " <dekolak wrote: > > Well before I become a really bad Muslim and long before I was > married, I used to have casual sex with women. Sometimes, I would > express my sexuality mixing it with hatred towards women stemming > from my relationship with my mother: I would be a mean, but they > would, most of the time, come back for a while. > At present, any woman involved, even remotely, with any research run > on me is guilty to me. I would have to kill such a woman just to kill > pain of being reminded of the life disaster that the research has > brought on me. This is why I stay away from any relationship with any > of them; ........ Robert, please seek Anger Management Training. Also, please consider finding a Therapist who specializes in " Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing " (EMDR) and/or " Emotional Freedom Technique " (EFT) and/or " Thought Field Therapy " (TFT) and/or possibly " Neuro- Linguistic Programing (NLP). These therapies can help to jump you out of the rut in your mind. ~SL~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2007 Report Share Posted January 5, 2007 robert................you have already started helping..........you have asked for help and that is more than..most of us biggoted male specimens can admitt too............all of the systems in yr replies work...and they work fine...shari's list is excellent.......lenecke reply..most compassionate............there is something inside of you that has brought you to asking for help...that is greater than..the hate or anger that is paralizing yr ability to live..............if you can do nothing else.....sit and hold yr middle fingers...hold them if it takes an hour.......hold them..firmly then relax...if you cant relax....hold them until you do......do this every 4 hours...for a few minutes...you will get to know when.......there is much help here...very much........{.this is why praying 5 times a day works...and i know..it is one of the things i cannot tell you about....force you to do...or mislead you}...only you can experience the result.....................and seek out thecouncil of those therapies listed....not a one will blame you..........and everyone will help you to live rod helfenstein; crescentwrench2003 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 6, 2007 Report Share Posted January 6, 2007 , " Ieneke van Houten " <ienvan wrote: > > This is a list on alternative health. > Please leave religious debate out > of it. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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