Guest guest Posted November 22, 2006 Report Share Posted November 22, 2006 You are getting these dreams because it is your duty to warn them, to encourage them to finish anything pending, to find a way to tell them you love them and they should evaluate all of their life and fix anything that is in need of repair like a strained relationship etc. This very year, I dreamt that a very beautiful singer would be taken up into heaven soon. I would wake up to the singing. I thought it was my high school girlfriend because she crossed my mind a few times and I tried calling her but no avail. Then I " heard a feeling/voice say no, its your mother. " I immediately froze, freaked out and banished the thought from my presence. This happened not once but twice. I spoke to her a couple of times, but there was this one time that she said she wanted to talk to me and I must call her...and make sure that I did. I tried, I forgot to try, ultimately...I did'nt. Mommy had diabetes, parkinsons and I now know for sure, post partum depression (from me). I know that her suffering was great. Daddy said she never was the same after I came, and they split as a result. No one really understood ppd back then in the early 70's so it never was treated. Can you imagine ppd for over 34 years? I am trying to handle this knowledge as best as I can. She went into the hospital in and out of diabetic coma unable to speak. I begged God through previous years to let me hear her last words whenever he would take her. I also begged him that if he saw where she would be in danger of not making it, he should please save her then take her. I guess thats what he did, even though while she was in the hospital I begged for her life. Mommy died and I never got to hear her last words. I have my entire life to face that hurtful fact. I loved my mother and I know she loved me too. She was a wonderful singer with a range you would never believe. Mariah Carey has nothing compared to her! Strangest thing is we were somewhat a musical family and ever so often I would hear strains of that line from the Dolly Parton song... " or do I ever cross your mind... " Mom realises now that the best way to get a message to me is through a song or music, so when That song pops into my head 'for no reason', I stop and say " Mommy, I love you so much, I will never never ever forget you, ever...and I won't. Anyway, let me stop here because I don't want to bore you or your the other readers, but use your gift responsibly and wisely. Anyway let me stop here since I dont want to bore you or everyone. Take comfort in your gift and proceed responsibly. Sponsored Link Get an Online or Campus degree - Associate's, Bachelor's, or Master's -in less than one year. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 23, 2006 Report Share Posted November 23, 2006 Chaise, Thank you for sharing that painful story. I am working as part of the support team of a Parkinson's patient. It is a horrid disease. Your mother is well off on the other side, and you are wise to thank her the way you do. Ien in the Kootenays http://profiles./free_green_living Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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