Foolish and frightened - suggestions welcome

May 21, 2008

Two huge decisions to make: first some personal history. I've had ovarian cancer for nearly five years. When my second course of chemo ended, the blood markers for cancer

started to rise the following month, so I searched the Internet and

found Budwig. I've been doing the Budwig Protocol for two years. I was stable for nearly a year, and felt truly well and in good spirits, although my CA-125 didn't drop. Then I developed a tooth abscess, which resulted in a root canal followed by a bridge. My tumor marker shot up, and I could feel a large soft tumor like balloon in my belly. I did some thinking, and realized that my cancer was dx a few months after I had the first root canal of my life. With difficulty, I found a biological dentist who extracted both teeth with root canals.

Unfortunately, I think he was a fake, and allowed a lot of mercury and nickel to leach into my body. Although my ovarian marker plummeted immediately and I could no longer feel the tumor , the blood test for breast cancer began to slowly rise. My husband became extremely ill, and eventually died. In that time, my ovarian marker continued to drop and is nearly normal, while a large solid-feeling tumor developed in my abdomen and my breast cancer marker zoomed. It's not zooming now, but I'm on the horns of a dilemma.

I did have several amalgam fillings replaced by a good biological dentist. I don't have the money for biological replacement of three crowns, nor biological extraction .I could go to a dental school for extractions, but am concerned that they would simply allow leaching of more mercury and nickel into my body. I built an infrared and far infrared sauna in a closet after research, in the belief that it can remove both heavy metals and many additional toxins. Also, it's less expensive in the long run than oral chelation.

CHOICES; can anyone find alternative solutions to my dental problems?Next problem: I've been doing Budwig for two years, and it never gave me more than Stable. Now, not even that. So I've been adding; oleander (4 days), LDN (2 months), enzymes, beta-glucan, iodine, several detox pathways (enemas, zapper, sauna, herbs). A month ago, I read Jane Plant's story on the Internet. She was in China, where breast and prostate cancer were virtually unknown until recently. After breast cancer metastases, she and her husband had an epiphany. The Chinese refused all forms of dairy. She stopped all dairy, and within two weeks could feel her tumor shrink, using calipers. She said that the natural hormones in all dairy products were promoting hormone-related cancers. I decided that I'm saturated with FOCC and could experiment for two weeks. I took three tbs of flax oil and three tbs of ground flax daily. My tumor didn't shrink, but I stopped having any sensations in my abdomen, and felt subtly better. Several days ago, I became scared that I really need the FOCC, and returned. I can feel the edges of my tumor, and in general, can feel unpleasant sensations.

Of course, life happens. My two sisters came to visit from across the continent. And I began OPC three days ago, two days after I went back on FOCC. CHOICE: Back to FOCC or NOT?Are the sensations positive or negative? Could the sensations be due to OPC, one cap a day? Too soon. This is the fourth day. I was having sensations before I stopped FOCC, and now they are back. I wish the data on omegasentials were conclusive? I feel truly stuck on the horns of a dilemma. I will be having a blood test in two weeks. I just wish I had a dipstick so I could tell what's helping and what's hindering in this life and death experiment with my body.

All discussion will be very welcome. Rhoda

May 21, 2008

Hi Rhoda,

I'm a member of the oleander group, although I'm posting seldom. But

when I read your post I felt that I should respond.

Your fight to become healthy is impressive, but there is something

essential missing.

Isn't the body the battlefield on which disease is the symptom that

manifests the fight on another (higher) level? You are stuck on the

horns of a dilemma? It seems you can't find the 'dipstick' because

your measurements are too limited. Might it be that you need to change

your attitude about what disease really is? Isn't it a challenge as a

part of our growing process? The fact that you are looking for

alternative ways of treating disease shows that you have made steps to

get out of dependencies and you are critical enough to have doubts

about what is offered by the established health system. But that's not

enough, like it is not enough to take all kind of remedies and actions

to fight a disease. We know and you know that disease has reasons

beside the outside influences and these might be even more important

to address. Don't you think so? What you are doing in this aspect?

A discussion about this side of 'healing' can be done? Who is interested?

BeiYin

PS: I went to a similar experience and I have written a protocol about

my healing process.

If you want to read it you can find it at: http://falconblanco.com

oleander soup , " Rhoda Mead " <firefly541 wrote:

Rhoda Mead wrote:

> Two huge decisions to make: first some personal history.

> I've had ovarian cancer for nearly five years. I'm on the horns of a

dilemma.

> I did have several amalgam fillings replaced by a good biological

dentist.

> I don't have the money for biological replacement of three crowns,

nor biological extraction .can anyone find alternative solutions to my

dental problems?

> I feel truly stuck on the horns of a dilemma.

> I just wish I had a dipstick so I could tell what's helping and

what's hindering in this life and death experiment with my body.

> All discussion will be very welcome. Rhoda