UCSD Center for AIDS Research

June 20, 2004

Michael Geiger

csussman

Dear Carol,

This letter is of my true concern. I do hope that you will read it with an open mind, as I send it to you from my heart with best wishes to you and yours.

As a member of the local San Diego gay community, I am and have been very concerned about the gay community and HIV/AIDS. I understand that you work with Dr. Douglas Richman whom was just honored for his work in HIV/AIDS and AZT research. My concern is that with my 20 years here in San Diego, I have seen many of my friends die, supposedly from HIV/AIDS. But as I look back, I see that the only ones whom died were the ones that took medications, especially AZT, and/or those whom had been in extremely intense emotional pain. I also personally know many, many very long term HIV positive people right here in the San Diego Community, whom have always refused to take medications or have anything to do with the AIDS medical community, and all of the ones I know, are still alive and well and want nothing to do with the medications. Not a one of them has as yet died from AIDS. I even know personally several people that had tested positive for years and without ever having taken any type of HIV/AIDS drugs, suddenly no longer even test positive to HIV! As such, I really just end up believing that very possibly, and even most probably, the medical profession, in its very sincere and best efforts to help and do no harm, and zealousness to defeat HIV, has ended up killing more people than ever with deadly medications and is also most probably on the wrong track in pursuing the mysterious and elusive HIV retrovirus as the cause of AIDS. Also, with the help of the media and a fear filled mass hysteria driven public, and also driven by studies underwritten by pharmaceutical companies that stood to make fortunes by selling their drugs and gaining research money, people that have tested HIV positive have been filled with fear and despair that their immune systems would not function and would give out in the coming years. The never ending stress of even having that kind of belief is enough to kill anyone! These deadly medications, along with depression, fear, and despair that all people that test positive have succumbed to, has more than anything, in my opinion, caused their deaths. Do you know that none of the people that I personally know that have ever tested positive, has even been told that there are quite a number of PROVEN things that could be in their blood that would also cause a positive test? They go to UCSD and other doctors and are simply told to HIT HARD and HIT EARLY with expensive and toxic drugs. To this day, the supposed HIV retrovirus has never even been isolated. And to this day, there is still no proven connection that HIV even causes AIDS. I am sure that no one in the medical community wants to be wrong, and none wish to lose the jobs that they have all truly believed in for so long, and all involved would feel absolutely awful if it were to be found that the community is off track and has been since early on, but I see it as a very very strong possibility. Can you imagine how Dr. Richman himself would feel if it were to be found out that his drug trials had killed many many people? I truly doubt that He could allow himself to believe or even conceive it as it would be such a blow to him that he could not even live with himself.

And what the medical community has NOT looked into, and never will, is the effects of long term ongoing intense stress, depression, negative thinking, death wishes, rejection from families, friends, lovers, alcoholism and drug addiction of parents or of themselves, along with physical and sexual and emotional abuse suffered by them as children and adults, deaths of partners, self loathing and self rejection, and a multitude of other emotional pain that many many gay men suffer from tremendously, has had upon their immune system. Is this because there are no drugs to make money from that will remove the emotional pain and self rejection from someone gay whom has been told by his father and mother to never never call them again once they find out their son is gay? Do you have any idea of the intense emotional pain felt by many people in the gay community that have experienced such rejection. Do you realize how many have suffered from this rejection? Do you have any idea of the intensity of emotional pain that is felt for a lifetime by those that have been physically, sexually, or emotionally abused by family members or others. If you came from a good and loving home, and I hope you did, there is no way that you can know how deeply so many of these people in the gay community as well as the community at large, have felt and suffered emotionally during their lives, or know how many of them, even though they may laugh and smile when they see you, have or have had personal death wishes even to the point of very vocally telling those that get close to them that they wish they were dead. And how many have felt that way and never said a word to anyone of the intensity of their emotional pain? I have known many. It is no surprise to me that they finally found their way off of the planet by coming down with HIV, taking deadly drugs, and bit by bit, day by day, killing themselves.

I do hope that one day the gay community will come to focus their resources more on their emotional health and the emotional health of the community at large, and stop escaping into the "Death By Doctor" syndrome that seems to be permeating the community. May we all be truly more loving and compassionate to each other, and turn to these pain filled souls and offer our encouragement with the emotional and spiritual help that they truly need.

Thanks for listening,Michael

Thanks for understanding.

June 27, 2004

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Your letter was a real eye opener for me. I use to know a lot of people in Las Vegas that had been diagnosed with HIV taking the so called cocktails and dying in several years. I had always thought that this was part of the so called trusty AMA regime. I finally have wakened up to the truth. this is getting relaly ugly when AMerican medicine doctors you to death.

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Saturday, June 19, 2004 9:06 PM

UCSD Center for AIDS Research

Michael Geiger

csussman

Dear Carol,

This letter is of my true concern. I do hope that you will read it with an open mind, as I send it to you from my heart with best wishes to you and yours.

As a member of the local San Diego gay community, I am and have been very concerned about the gay community and HIV/AIDS. I understand that you work with Dr. Douglas Richman whom was just honored for his work in HIV/AIDS and AZT research. My concern is that with my 20 years here in San Diego, I have seen many of my friends die, supposedly from HIV/AIDS. But as I look back, I see that the only ones whom died were the ones that took medications, especially AZT, and/or those whom had been in extremely intense emotional pain. I also personally know many, many very long term HIV positive people right here in the San Diego Community, whom have always refused to take medications or have anything to do with the AIDS medical community, and all of the ones I know, are still alive and well and want nothing to do with the medications. Not a one of them has as yet died from AIDS. I even know personally several people that had tested positive for years and without ever having taken any type of HIV/AIDS drugs, suddenly no longer even test positive to HIV! As such, I really just end up believing that very possibly, and even most probably, the medical profession, in its very sincere and best efforts to help and do no harm, and zealousness to defeat HIV, has ended up killing more people than ever with deadly medications and is also most probably on the wrong track in pursuing the mysterious and elusive HIV retrovirus as the cause of AIDS. Also, with the help of the media and a fear filled mass hysteria driven public, and also driven by studies underwritten by pharmaceutical companies that stood to make fortunes by selling their drugs and gaining research money, people that have tested HIV positive have been filled with fear and despair that their immune systems would not function and would give out in the coming years. The never ending stress of even having that kind of belief is enough to kill anyone! These deadly medications, along with depression, fear, and despair that all people that test positive have succumbed to, has more than anything, in my opinion, caused their deaths. Do you know that none of the people that I personally know that have ever tested positive, has even been told that there are quite a number of PROVEN things that could be in their blood that would also cause a positive test? They go to UCSD and other doctors and are simply told to HIT HARD and HIT EARLY with expensive and toxic drugs. To this day, the supposed HIV retrovirus has never even been isolated. And to this day, there is still no proven connection that HIV even causes AIDS. I am sure that no one in the medical community wants to be wrong, and none wish to lose the jobs that they have all truly believed in for so long, and all involved would feel absolutely awful if it were to be found that the community is off track and has been since early on, but I see it as a very very strong possibility. Can you imagine how Dr. Richman himself would feel if it were to be found out that his drug trials had killed many many people? I truly doubt that He could allow himself to believe or even conceive it as it would be such a blow to him that he could not even live with himself.

And what the medical community has NOT looked into, and never will, is the effects of long term ongoing intense stress, depression, negative thinking, death wishes, rejection from families, friends, lovers, alcoholism and drug addiction of parents or of themselves, along with physical and sexual and emotional abuse suffered by them as children and adults, deaths of partners, self loathing and self rejection, and a multitude of other emotional pain that many many gay men suffer from tremendously, has had upon their immune system. Is this because there are no drugs to make money from that will remove the emotional pain and self rejection from someone gay whom has been told by his father and mother to never never call them again once they find out their son is gay? Do you have any idea of the intense emotional pain felt by many people in the gay community that have experienced such rejection. Do you realize how many have suffered from this rejection? Do you have any idea of the intensity of emotional pain that is felt for a lifetime by those that have been physically, sexually, or emotionally abused by family members or others. If you came from a good and loving home, and I hope you did, there is no way that you can know how deeply so many of these people in the gay community as well as the community at large, have felt and suffered emotionally during their lives, or know how many of them, even though they may laugh and smile when they see you, have or have had personal death wishes even to the point of very vocally telling those that get close to them that they wish they were dead. And how many have felt that way and never said a word to anyone of the intensity of their emotional pain? I have known many. It is no surprise to me that they finally found their way off of the planet by coming down with HIV, taking deadly drugs, and bit by bit, day by day, killing themselves.

I do hope that one day the gay community will come to focus their resources more on their emotional health and the emotional health of the community at large, and stop escaping into the "Death By Doctor" syndrome that seems to be permeating the community. May we all be truly more loving and compassionate to each other, and turn to these pain filled souls and offer our encouragement with the emotional and spiritual help that they truly need.

Thanks for listening,Michael

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