Thank-You!! -- (Also, A letter about Loss, Illness & Spirits)

[Guest guest]

Hi Diane . . .

 

No words can say how sad I was for you to learn about your loss.

 

I lost both of my Parents over the past 5 years, and I miss them so very

much. My Mother and I were, Mother & Daughter, Sisters & Best friends all

rolled in one. She was also a Councilor & Hypnotherapist and so She was

actually everything to me. I have my Husband & our two grown daughters, but

sadly it just isn't the same, I could tell my Mother ANYTHING, and she still

loved me unconditionally no matter what!!

 

(Just like a Mother!! - Right??)

 

My Mother was unable to fly and so I had driven her from Oregon back to

Georgia to her home (In which my husband & I inherited) to begin her in home

Hospice care. The Doctors had given her 6 to 10 months to live. -- 3 months

after I brought her home - (May 25th, 2004) - She literally died in my arms

as I was carrying her to the living room to give her CPR. -- We couldn't get

to her in her Hospital bed & my husband could Not get 911 to realize that NO

she is Not having Just a heart attack, her lungs are filling up with fluid

and she was drowning. When the paramedic's finally got here, she was gone

and I miss her more and more every day. She passed 2 years after her husband

.. . .

 

My Step-Father was a great joker, always had to be picking on you about

something and trying to either get you mad or make you laugh. You just never

knew with him, but you never had to be afraid to tell him anything either.

He was a retired Florida Sheriff & retired Army MP. Some times (the last 2

years of his life) he just drove us literally crazy, but most of the time .

. Even tho he was only in our lives for 13 years . . . He was the best

thing that happened to our lives.

 

NO-ONE, not his (Military) Doctors, no-one . . . Knew that he was passing.

(Until 2/9/01) He had to wear pain patches for 6 months before they

diagnosed him. They kept telling him he had just hurt his shoulder. -- When

we all finally found out and we were told it was due to the fact that his

entire body & brain were riddled with more than 7 different cancer's. We

watched him literally cry in pain some days. He passed away a little more

than a month later on the first day of Spring, March 2001. He worked 6 days

a week until 2/9/02!!

 

God, he was so strong!!

 

I didn't know very much about my Biological Father or anything about that

part of my family. All I know about that side is they are mostly

German--Cherokee--Scotch--Irish, there is a history of Stroke and a couple

of different types of cancer . . . Nothing else so far.

 

In the past 5 years, I have lost more than 27 Friends & Family. -- And

people ask me at times, How do I do it?? How do you 'live' through so much

loss?? And the other times, they ask . . . Why are you so sad/depressed?? --

Most of the time, I am ok, but I have to admit that some days it is very

hard to handle. Especially since right now, one of our good friends (31 year

old Brian Hatton) in is a coma in the Hospital after a skateboarding

accident that happened 9/30/06 and another (older) friend David Urbay, is in

the Hospital going through Chemo for lung cancer. -- Brian has a 6 year old

daughter to support and no health Ins. -- David's children are all adults &

he has excellent Ins.

 

Brian Hatton " blog " page: http://brianhattonupdates.blogspot.com/

 

 

 

And now, my health is messing up ... (And we can't find any place to cover

us with Health Ins.) We found out that my husband has cataracts behind his

eye's and is slowly going blind. Then last month I ended up in the hospital

with Gall Stones. I have had 3 more attacks since. I've also had a colon

problem for almost a year. - Severe pain when defecating and I have to take

both prescription laxatives & over the counter " Vegilax " . I'm very lucky if

I am able to at least defecate one time a week!! -- It's crazy and painful!!

 

 

As far as we can tell, no-one in the family history has ever had Gall

Bladder or Colon trouble?? So I' am starting to think this has something to

do with not being able to " eliminate toxins through defecation " ?? I am not a

medical expert and so I have no idea, but it kind of makes sense, at least

to me. My stomach has been severely and painfully bloated for the past year

and I've gained about 30 lbs.

 

 

ANYWAY ................... Off that subject!! - I'm getting a bit tired.

 

I did not in any way mean to make this letter so long and wordy. And I did

not mean to make it sound depressing in any way. -- I apologize.

I don't know why, but I've told you more than I've told anyone in a VERY

long time. I hope that I have not bored you to badly.

 

And Thank-You so much for sharing your stories. I sincerily appreciate that

It makes me feel like I a not so alone. I don't write often, but as you can

tell . . . Some times when I do write . . . I say way to much!! {blush}

 

Take Care & God Bless!!

Hugs & Prayers Always . . .

Jo'Ann Z. -- (Georgia)

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Jo'Ann Z: I am so sorry for your loss. Your parents sound like

wonderful people and you appear to be a very kind and compassionate

person. Have you tried Acidophilis for your colon problem? Do you

live in US - do you or your husband qualify for disability or social

security -- or if you are younger -- social services? In some states

there are programs to help you even if you are still working

(depending on your income). There are also free clinics. I don't mean

to insult you - (I'be been there) - but if you are going thru a rough

time there are also pharmaceutical companies that you can get free

precriptions thru if your Dr. will help you and fill out a form

stating that you are " indigant " (don't have the resources to pay).

Even if you do not qualify for social services - go to your social

service office and ask them for a listing of free clinics and

programs available to you. Good luck to you and god bless. Helen

 

, " Mystisch " <Mystisch

wrote:

>

>

> Hi Diane . . .

>

> No words can say how sad I was for you to learn about your loss.

>

> I lost both of my Parents over the past 5 years, and I miss them so

very

> much. My Mother and I were, Mother & Daughter, Sisters & Best

friends all

> rolled in one. She was also a Councilor & Hypnotherapist and so She

was

> actually everything to me. I have my Husband & our two grown

daughters, but

> sadly it just isn't the same, I could tell my Mother ANYTHING, and

she still

> loved me unconditionally no matter what!!

>

> (Just like a Mother!! - Right??)

>

> My Mother was unable to fly and so I had driven her from Oregon

back to

> Georgia to her home (In which my husband & I inherited) to begin

her in home

> Hospice care. The Doctors had given her 6 to 10 months to live. --

3 months

> after I brought her home - (May 25th, 2004) - She literally died in

my arms

> as I was carrying her to the living room to give her CPR. -- We

couldn't get

> to her in her Hospital bed & my husband could Not get 911 to

realize that NO

> she is Not having Just a heart attack, her lungs are filling up

with fluid

> and she was drowning. When the paramedic's finally got here, she

was gone

> and I miss her more and more every day. She passed 2 years after

her husband

> . . .

>

> My Step-Father was a great joker, always had to be picking on you

about

> something and trying to either get you mad or make you laugh. You

just never

> knew with him, but you never had to be afraid to tell him anything

either.

> He was a retired Florida Sheriff & retired Army MP. Some times (the

last 2

> years of his life) he just drove us literally crazy, but most of

the time .

> . Even tho he was only in our lives for 13 years . . . He was the

best

> thing that happened to our lives.

>

> NO-ONE, not his (Military) Doctors, no-one . . . Knew that he was

passing.

> (Until 2/9/01) He had to wear pain patches for 6 months before they

> diagnosed him. They kept telling him he had just hurt his

shoulder. -- When

> we all finally found out and we were told it was due to the fact

that his

> entire body & brain were riddled with more than 7 different

cancer's. We

> watched him literally cry in pain some days. He passed away a

little more

> than a month later on the first day of Spring, March 2001. He

worked 6 days

> a week until 2/9/02!!

>

> God, he was so strong!!

>

> I didn't know very much about my Biological Father or anything

about that

> part of my family. All I know about that side is they are mostly

> German--Cherokee--Scotch--Irish, there is a history of Stroke and a

couple

> of different types of cancer . . . Nothing else so far.

>

> In the past 5 years, I have lost more than 27 Friends & Family. --

And

> people ask me at times, How do I do it?? How do you 'live' through

so much

> loss?? And the other times, they ask . . . Why are you so

sad/depressed?? --

> Most of the time, I am ok, but I have to admit that some days it is

very

> hard to handle. Especially since right now, one of our good friends

(31 year

> old Brian Hatton) in is a coma in the Hospital after a skateboarding

> accident that happened 9/30/06 and another (older) friend David

Urbay, is in

> the Hospital going through Chemo for lung cancer. -- Brian has a 6

year old

> daughter to support and no health Ins. -- David's children are all

adults &

> he has excellent Ins.

>

> Brian Hatton " blog " page: http://brianhattonupdates.blogspot.com/

>

>

>

> And now, my health is messing up ... (And we can't find any place

to cover

> us with Health Ins.) We found out that my husband has cataracts

behind his

> eye's and is slowly going blind. Then last month I ended up in the

hospital

> with Gall Stones. I have had 3 more attacks since. I've also had a

colon

> problem for almost a year. - Severe pain when defecating and I have

to take

> both prescription laxatives & over the counter " Vegilax " . I'm very

lucky if

> I am able to at least defecate one time a week!! -- It's crazy and

painful!!

>

>

> As far as we can tell, no-one in the family history has ever had

Gall

> Bladder or Colon trouble?? So I' am starting to think this has

something to

> do with not being able to " eliminate toxins through defecation " ?? I

am not a

> medical expert and so I have no idea, but it kind of makes sense,

at least

> to me. My stomach has been severely and painfully bloated for the

past year

> and I've gained about 30 lbs.

>

>

> ANYWAY ................... Off that subject!! - I'm getting a bit

tired.

>

> I did not in any way mean to make this letter so long and wordy.

And I did

> not mean to make it sound depressing in any way. -- I apologize.

> I don't know why, but I've told you more than I've told anyone in a

VERY

> long time. I hope that I have not bored you to badly.

>

> And Thank-You so much for sharing your stories. I sincerily

appreciate that

> It makes me feel like I a not so alone. I don't write often, but

as you can

> tell . . . Some times when I do write . . . I say way to much!!

{blush}

>

> Take Care & God Bless!!

> Hugs & Prayers Always . . .

> Jo'Ann Z. -- (Georgia)

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hello Jo'Ann;

 

What a wonderful letter you shared with us. Don't ever feel bad

about unloading or sharing your life with this group. I'm very new

here but have read a lot already. As you can tell I'm a bit

behind. Drats that life gets in the way of our reading and sharing

eh? lol

 

You released some very powerful stuff from your mind, body and

spirit and you took a huge step in healing yourself in doing so when

you wrote this group. I'm far from an expert but I'll share with

you my thoughts.

 

First off...have you ever read or heard of Lousie L. Haye? She is

someone you should look into reading. She tells how dis-ease starts

in a body because of pent up emotions and hurts that you've

experience in your life time. She is quite the amazing lady. I've

also down loaded some of her audio books from a site called

bearshare. They are positive affirmations that I fall asleep to at

night and they play through my sleep.

 

You are keeping so much in side and not letting the world around you

see your pain. You are the tough gal and you don't want to make

others around you feel bad for you. Am I close?

 

I can't imagine how much you must miss your Mother. She was the one

person you could share and like you said...still love you no matter

what. You were (and are) such a blessed woman. You sound like you

carry the world on your shoulders. Perhaps it's time to let someone

carry you for a little while?

 

I'm positive this group will help you. They all seem to be loving

and tender hearted. I know that doors open for a reason and that I

was personally lead to this group.

 

I'm a reflexologist so I do know a little bit about getting out the

toxins. There are a gazillion ways to help detox and you really

need to find one or more that you are most comfortable with.

 

I wish you only the very best with all you are dealing with. You

sound to me like a little angel. Any time you wish to chit chat

personally I would be more then happy. Send me a personal email if

you wish.

 

Take care,

God Bless,

 

Always ~ Kim

 

 

, " Mystisch " <Mystisch

wrote:

>

>

> Hi Diane . . .

>

> No words can say how sad I was for you to learn about your loss.

>

> I lost both of my Parents over the past 5 years, and I miss them

so very

> much. My Mother and I were, Mother & Daughter, Sisters & Best

friends all

> rolled in one. She was also a Councilor & Hypnotherapist and so

She was