Chat, Personal: A Cry For Help

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Merry Meet,

 

Sorry that I am not an active member on most of my lists. I have

'ooodles' of things that I tend to take on and thus prevent myself from

becoming active in most of my email groups, but I do read almost every post

that I recieve (or at least save them to read at one of my lull periods.)

But I am sending this to most all of my groups since there are so many

intelligent and intuitive people out there that may be able to help me or

give me some advice on this subject.

I am agoraphobic which is a recent happening. I evidently had several

repressed memories from my childhood and when I checked into a rehab for drug

use (its my one year anniv. Sept. 30, btw ) - yes I am proud of myself) and

I sobbered up, all of these memories came flooding back. Im talking huge

amounts of memories ranging from being 5 years old and being thrown down a

flight of stairs all the way to my 15th year and lots of sexual and emotional

and physical abuse. I left home at 15 and didnt look back. I have learned

that your mind does certian things to keep you 'alive' so that the traumatic

experiences dont throw you into a complete shock. I have been dealing with

the events that I have remembered and I dont expect any sympathy for these.

(I'm trying to deal with them and then move past them, if that makes sense)

But my reason for stating this is b/c it may help you understand my confusion

at my current dilemna.

As of about 6 months ago, I started having 'night terrors' (not sure if

everyone is aware of this, Iknow I wasn't, but there is a difference between

actual nightmares and night terrors. ) I wasnt even aware they had a term

for these. I just thought I was having nightmares because of a change in

diet/whatever. After I consulted my pshycholigist, he ran a few tests, etc

and came to that conclusion. I dont remember the actual 'dream' all I know

is I let out blood curdling screams in the middle of the night and that

usually wakes me, and when I do come to, I am so afraid and my heart rate is

so fast and all I can do is shake and cry. I mean, I am so afraid at the

time of waking, I dont even want to put my foot down off of the bed for fear

of 'the boogieman' grabbing my ankle. I know its not rational when I am

coherant. But at the time the fear is undescribable.

Now, what is bothering me is this; if this is another repressed memory

that is trying to surface, can it be THAT horrible? I mean, I have

remembered some pretty horrific events, and it scares me that this one memory

could be 'worse'.

I have talked to a hypnotist that said she could do a regression with me

and make it as I am in the memory as a third party, watching the event rather

than reliving it. But I am kind of afraid of that as well. I have heard some

good and some bad things about childhood regressions.

Bascially, I was wondering if anyone had any advice or information on

this that could help me. I would really love to be able to come to terms

with this so that I may attempt to live a 'normal' life. Needless to say, I

dont sleep until I am so exhausted that I literally pass out wherever I

stand. And I know that I cant continue like this.

I apologize for the cross post if you have to read this more than once, I

am just desperate. I am sorry for burdening you with my problems but if I

wasnt at my wits ends then I wouldnt ask.

 

Thank you in advance.

 

Blessings,

 

Shadow

 

 

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In Love & Light,

 

Shadow SpiritWolf

 

 

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Shadow....

When my son was 5 or 6 he started having night terrors. They were just awful. We werent able to awaken him and I felt so sorry for him. I just happened to run across an article on the subject at the time. It said they could be brought on by an infection causing a low grade fever. Sure enough that is what it was and as soon as it was cleared up they stopped. At the time we opted for traditional meds. I wasn't that versed in alternatives but I would have tried just about anything to get relief for him. I hope this helps and I am sure you will get lots of wonderful advice from this group. Good luck, Norma

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Love,

Doc

 

Ian "Doc" Shillington N.D.505-772-5889Dr.IanShillington

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Sorry that I am not an active member on most of my lists. I have 'ooodles' of things that I tend to take on and thus prevent myself from becoming active in most of my email groups, but I do read almost every post that I recieve (or at least save them to read at one of my lull periods.) But I am sending this to most all of my groups since there are so many intelligent and intuitive people out there that may be able to help me or give me some advice on this subject. I am agoraphobic which is a recent happening. I evidently had several repressed memories from my childhood and when I checked into a rehab for drug use (its my one year anniv. Sept. 30, btw ) - yes I am proud of myself) and I sobbered up, all of these memories came flooding back. Im talking huge amounts of memories ranging from being 5 years old and being thrown down a flight of stairs all the way to my 15th year and lots of sexual and emotional and physical abuse. I left home at 15 and didnt look back. I have learned that your mind does certian things to keep you 'alive' so that the traumatic experiences dont throw you into a complete shock. I have been dealing with the events that I have remembered and I dont expect any sympathy for these. (I'm trying to deal with them and then move past them, if that makes sense) But my reason for stating this is b/c it may help you understand my confusion at my current dilemna. As of about 6 months ago, I started having 'night terrors' (not sure if everyone is aware of this, Iknow I wasn't, but there is a difference between actual nightmares and night terrors. ) I wasnt even aware they had a term for these. I just thought I was having nightmares because of a change in diet/whatever. After I consulted my pshycholigist, he ran a few tests, etc and came to that conclusion. I dont remember the actual 'dream' all I know is I let out blood curdling screams in the middle of the night and that usually wakes me, and when I do come to, I am so afraid and my heart rate is so fast and all I can do is shake and cry. I mean, I am so afraid at the time of waking, I dont even want to put my foot down off of the bed for fear of 'the boogieman' grabbing my ankle. I know its not rational when I am coherant. But at the time the fear is undescribable. Now, what is bothering me is this; if this is another repressed memory that is trying to surface, can it be THAT horrible? I mean, I have remembered some pretty horrific events, and it scares me that this one memory could be 'worse'. I have talked to a hypnotist that said she could do a regression with me and make it as I am in the memory as a third party, watching the event rather than reliving it. But I am kind of afraid of that as well. I have heard some good and some bad things about childhood regressions. Bascially, I was wondering if anyone had any advice or information on this that could help me. I would really love to be able to come to terms with this so that I may attempt to live a 'normal' life. Needless to say, I dont sleep until I am so exhausted that I literally pass out wherever I stand. And I know that I cant continue like this. I apologize for the cross post if you have to read this more than once, I am just desperate. I am sorry for burdening you with my problems but if I wasnt at my wits ends then I wouldnt ask. Thank you in advance. Blessings, Shadow

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In your post you asked if anyone had any experience with hypnosis or

regression. I have had both on 3 different occasions. I have to say

it was a positive thing for me. It helped me to come to terms with

certain issues I had going on and I'm glad I did it although it was

intense. This was only my experience.

I am not giving advice here or suggesting anything. Just telling

because you asked. You have to do what you feel is right for you.

Probably a professional would be able to tell if you were ready to

handle such an experience. good luck. Cathy

 

 

 

 

 

herbal remedies, wolfof7hues@a... wrote:

> Merry Meet,

>

> Sorry that I am not an active member on most of my lists. I

have

> 'ooodles' of things that I tend to take on and thus prevent myself

from

> becoming active in most of my email groups, but I do read almost

every post

> that I recieve (or at least save them to read at one of my lull

periods.)

> But I am sending this to most all of my groups since there are so

many

> intelligent and intuitive people out there that may be able to help

me or

> give me some advice on this subject.

> I am agoraphobic which is a recent happening. I evidently had

several

> repressed memories from my childhood and when I checked into a

rehab for drug

> use (its my one year anniv. Sept. 30, btw ) - yes I am proud of

myself) and

> I sobbered up, all of these memories came flooding back. Im

talking huge

> amounts of memories ranging from being 5 years old and being thrown

down a

> flight of stairs all the way to my 15th year and lots of sexual and

emotional

> and physical abuse. I left home at 15 and didnt look back. I have

learned

> that your mind does certian things to keep you 'alive' so that the

traumatic

> experiences dont throw you into a complete shock. I have been

dealing with

> the events that I have remembered and I dont expect any sympathy

for these.

> (I'm trying to deal with them and then move past them, if that

makes sense)

> But my reason for stating this is b/c it may help you understand my

confusion

> at my current dilemna.

> As of about 6 months ago, I started having 'night terrors' (not

sure if

> everyone is aware of this, Iknow I wasn't, but there is a

difference between

> actual nightmares and night terrors. ) I wasnt even aware they had

a term

> for these. I just thought I was having nightmares because of a

change in

> diet/whatever. After I consulted my pshycholigist, he ran a few

tests, etc

> and came to that conclusion. I dont remember the actual 'dream'

all I know

> is I let out blood curdling screams in the middle of the night and

that

> usually wakes me, and when I do come to, I am so afraid and my

heart rate is

> so fast and all I can do is shake and cry. I mean, I am so afraid

at the

> time of waking, I dont even want to put my foot down off of the bed

for fear

> of 'the boogieman' grabbing my ankle. I know its not rational when

I am

> coherant. But at the time the fear is undescribable.

> Now, what is bothering me is this; if this is another repressed

memory

> that is trying to surface, can it be THAT horrible? I mean, I have

> remembered some pretty horrific events, and it scares me that this

one memory

> could be 'worse'.

> I have talked to a hypnotist that said she could do a

regression with me

> and make it as I am in the memory as a third party, watching the

event rather

> than reliving it. But I am kind of afraid of that as well. I have

heard some

> good and some bad things about childhood regressions.

> Bascially, I was wondering if anyone had any advice or

information on

> this that could help me. I would really love to be able to come to

terms

> with this so that I may attempt to live a 'normal' life. Needless

to say, I

> dont sleep until I am so exhausted that I literally pass out

wherever I

> stand. And I know that I cant continue like this.

> I apologize for the cross post if you have to read this more

than once, I

> am just desperate. I am sorry for burdening you with my problems

but if I

> wasnt at my wits ends then I wouldnt ask.

>

> Thank you in advance.

>

> Blessings,

>

> Shadow

>

>

> ,¸¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤øø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,

> Brightest Blessings;

> In Love & Light,

>

> Shadow SpiritWolf

>

>

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> " If life is a waste of time, and time is a waste of life, then

let's all get

> wasted together and have the time of our lives. "

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