Rhadika from the heart

[Guest guest]

>Dear Martha,

>Thank you for writing me back today. Of course you may post my

letter. No problem. I feel good finally being out of the closet! And

with that, able to reach out and ask questions, feel the support of

the group. Not feel so isolated. Ayurveda in a vacuum.

>You had also mentioned the Ayurvedaonline group, and I have joined

that too. With this cyber-community, I already feel more confident to

practise, and feel more connected.

>Thank you from the bottom of my heart, for opening these inner and

outer doors.

>Much love, Radhika

 

Wow! That was easy! Must be time. PS, Jupiter, just yesterday, moved

out of Leo and out of the 2.5 year I think pull drag of Saturn.

Should be gaining oomph to fly for the next 10 years, as I recall.

YEA! for all of us.

Love,

Martha

 

So with Radhika's above permission, I wanted to share our previous

conversation, not only as extended intro but more as I said below, so

many of us experience many such things ... and it bears discussion!

 

Hi Martha,

>> I have been contemplating introducing myself to the group soon(

maybe today).

>>Right now the only practice I have to speak of is on myself and my

son. But, slowly I am making room for more. I have some get togethers

coming up, and I think I am finally gaining the confidence to say

what I do with pride, and be open to recieving clients.

>>Part of my lagging is general self doubt ( I'm not a good enough

practitioner, dont know enough, havent been to India, am not great at

the pulse to name a few obstacles that run through my mind!!!), and

the other part has been my on going struggle with faith in Ayurveda.

And my feeling of not deserving of the good things in this world!

>>Although, I think I have helped myself prevent or cure things some

of the time, it seems that more of the time, what I have done hasnt

worked! And it has shaken my faith quite a bit.

>> I am going to have to look past that though, and hope that the

people that I find coming to me are coming to me because Ayurveda CAN

help them in some way. Also, I think I have relied too heavily on the

use of diagnosing, looking the problem up, and doling out my neat

little formulas, rather than as a true holistic practioner should,

understanding the whole process. How Vatta Pitta and Kapha relate to

our bodies as a whole, and not just representation of symptoms. Or

even worse, just using the herbs for symptomatic relief!

>>Anyway, it is an ongoing learning experience for me, but like I

said, am opening myself up to find clients. Having first to find

faith in myself, then faith in Ayurveda, then faith in the Universe!

Maybe that is the wrong order!

>>My journey is long, and doensnt seem so obvious all the time.My

mind grasps on to the surface of things, but is unable to reach the

center, like I feel about my own heart. So, I have to start with that

first. And I am, in my own way, the way that is making itself

available to me right now.

>>Well, that is it for now, sorry if this was long!

>> I send love, Radhika

 

>Dear Radhika;

>Your letter tells the story I think we all go thru to some extent or

another. And tells the need in my opinion for a living spiritual

master/s tradition. Without that grace to show us back to the center

(repeatedly, repeatedly, it is a lifelong process for us all!)

without it we are always in our own way. To see it as you do is truly

to stand on the brink of well begun is half way there, and is a sign

of much wisdom growing. To let the neg overshadow the perceptions is

the place to clear among first, yes the big picture is certainly

invaluable to keep vision clean. As the ceremony for initiation into

my practice of Transcendental Meditation says in the start, Whether

there is Purity or Impurity, whether purity or impurity is pervading

everywhere; whoever opens him/herself to the expanded vision of

unbounded awareness gains inner and outer purity. It is so much

about process, not product, this life.

 

>Thanks for coming out of the closet

>Many Blessings,

>Martha