crossing to a more evolved level leaves old friends behind

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Hi Doc, all,

 

 

I recently experienced some things that I am still digesting and

would appreciate some insight, feedback, suggestions, etc. either in private

or on list, if you think it could help others or start and interesting thread...

 

 

Due to the personal nature of these experiences I will be

artfully vague------enough detail to get some

good advice, etc.

 

 

This is related to TRAPS and ROLES, which is ironic because I have been

enjoying re-reading HARRY BROWNE's

"How I Found Freedom in an Unfree World" ( Awesome book !!!!

 

 

I probably have to re-read it even more clearly and take better notes.

 

 

It seems that there have been quite a few people over the last year or so that have been

treating me like a "guru" while others more recently

have been treating me like a leper. And as far as I know I am still being Me.

 

 

Most recently because I simply did what I felt was right in a Potentially Disastrous situation

and responded

faster and more efficiently than others and "saved the day" I

am now a "hero" to the 20 people who witnessed various stages of this event.

 

 

However, at least a few people that are close to me or SHOULD be ? reacted

strangely to this, even to the point of dis-respect ( "showing off" "bragging" )

 

 

Also, I helped someone close to me out of THEIR Mess and rather than appreciation

I get snide remarks relating to one of my jobs, which deals with people.

Sort of

( 'oh, thanks a lot for reminding me why you were able to do this so smoothly-----because of your job which I hate

and which makes me

think you are doing Z when you should be doing Y and I can't trust you, etc. ' )

 

 

Meanwhile, most who witnessed this event agreed with me NOT to tell

a certain person what happened because :

 

 

1. She is older, questionable health ? and it would upset her tremendously, even though I did X and there was a happy ending.

 

2. Someone else's negligence ? sloppiness ? almost cost a life ( or at least a limb )

 

3. Her own extreme lateness and ( water ? element ? ) flakiness concerning time was a

direct cause of the Potential Disaster.

 

4. And somewhat disturbing to me, I did not feel comfortable in this "hero role" ( nor the "guru" role, etc. ) even though it felt

totally natural for me to do what I did and I would do it again. I was glad it worked out well

yet didn't need or even want praise ( and at the same time I certainly did not want or expect dis-respect ! )

 

 

Thanks for reading and I'm looking forward to some insight,

Michael Twomey

 

 

P.s. Within the last few months I have also been cast as the "asshole" role quite often and

even though innocent of "false attacks" "slander" and "accusations"

these Traps and Roles can be bothersome.

I almost feel as if my "good deeds" are biting me in the ass and I might as well have some fun.