Guest guest Posted July 14, 2006 Report Share Posted July 14, 2006 It seems everytime I get close to getting what I want, it leaps out of my hand...eg. the person on the phone agrees and then someone else says no.... the boss knows the supervisor is singling me out--but won't help me... then I beg and when nothing happens--everyone stands on their point even though it is not logical... I tell myself it is never going to happen....and when I look in the mirror--I hear myself saying " you're so fat, ...so ugly....who would want to marry you...etc. " and then I am hurt because of the breakup...all these voices are involuntary....they come up from nowhere....it seems whatever I can say to belittle myself...beat myself up-punish myself...where does this need originate from and how can I stop it....why do I torture myself....--and then I am worse than when I started...so I try harder to go to level/program--- And when I am at level, I am so exhausted, I fall asleep.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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