Hi all is fasting getting harder or am i just xtra toxic?

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I kind of understand how important it is to sift through

associations while attempting a fast! There¡¦s this saying in

narcotics anonymous called, People, Places and Things! What that

means is that depending on the choice you make concerning any one of

the three things; it will influence your will and you may take a

turn for the worst , well not really the worst but in an direction

that contradicts your efforts, this goes with fasting and every

thing else in life I guess! Hi everyone! Stay strong! I notice

there¡¦s a zone for everything, whether its school work, your job,

eating habits; you have to do things that edify your efforts.

Condition your mind, read, pray, meditate maybe even practice

breathing techniques. Some how when I'm not on a fast I always

approach it with contempt, and its not until I¡¦m on the 13hr that I

realize how much of a discomfort it is mentally, emotionally and

physically. It¡¦s like your will is at war with your habit! I know I

need to approach the fast with more reverence, stop perceiving it as

something just mundane that I do occasionally to refocus myself. I'm

realizing that it¡¦s something sacred and it should be approach with

reverence and esteem, along with understanding and humility! Last

year I went on a fast and the first week and a half set the tone for

the rest of the month. When I think back I realize that the first 4

to 5 days was hard, lonely and occupied with silence and solitude. I

had to make my mind up days before I started and attempt it daily

until 1 day became 2 and 3 became 4 and so on until my 31day! I

remember I couldn¡¦t cloud my mind thinking of the next day, I had to

be present in the moment, not giving myself to much to focus on

tomorrow, I just needed to keep my intentions in mind, and that

built so much momentum that I began to be carried thru as appose to

when I first started it occurred to me like I was pushing thru a

brick wall! Ok I get it I have to make my mind up and then, cause my

environment to reflect my choice! When I have an inspired thought I

have to trust it and act on it! Fasting to me is taking time to

build myself up to fullness so I can overflow in giving! Its crazy

but it seems that when I¡¦m on my fast my thought and emotions go

haywire for the first week, and I know its just correcting it self

but its like a rollercoaster . But that renewed emotional stability

is a necessity in my life because we all know that it¡¦s our thoughts

and emotions that continually reassembling, reorganizing and

recreating our body and life! Any way thanks for lisening any

positive and constructive comments are welcome! ļ