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I would be very interested in anyone's coments on this narrative

 

Jane

 

 

 

When Kundalini Breaks the Last Block

Kundalini activity made the author happy and healthy for over a year -- until the night it broke through the last block and entered his head, causing a devastating neurological illness.

By A.D.

 

FOR OVER A YEAR before the terrible event I was happy and content. For physical health, I was doing regular yoga postures and relaxation. I also did Ba Gua exercises and meditation. This helped me gain a tremendous sense of vitality and high energy. Sleep was deep and invigorating. I had a large appetite and great digestion; food was organic and vegetarian. I also had great concentration and memory. I had a strong awareness of people, the universe, and myself. I was also very aware of my emotions; I felt sensitive and sensual. My mind and body were working extremely well. I was doing really well at university. No doubt, I was having a great time; I was conquering the world.

Kundalini Was Blocked

I believe my great health was partly due to Kundalini activity that occurred once or twice a week in the middle of the night. Typically a feeling of warmth and movement at the base of my spine would wake me from sleep. After a few split seconds it would erupt as a strong ball of electrical energy and then speed quickly along nerves in a manner that could be directed by thought. At the same time I would lose perception of space and time, and enter a distorted sense of reality with extremely loud rushing noises. As this occurred, I would become paralyzed, unable to move a muscle. I would feel the Kundalini energy encounter and push hard against what I would call resistance or blocks or knots in the nerve it was travelling along. This would often cause strong or extreme pain. If I concentrated on the block that was being "burnt" the pain would intensify. The only way to exit this state and make the energy return to its dormant condition was to move some muscle -- any muscle -- in my body. This was very difficult as I would have to gather up and use all possible will power. When I managed to do this, the energy would rapidly return to its home. After this, I wouldn't be able to feel any part of my body, so I would twiddle my toes to regain awareness of it. I suppose the nerves had to re-establish their connections. After this happened, I could fall back asleep as if nothing had happened, and the energy would not erupt again that night.

I did much reading and spoke to a few people on the subject and came to the conclusion that what was happening to me was just one of the body's natural ways of eliminating blocks in the nervous system. This was confirmed by the fact that my overall health was improving and I was achieving a great nerve sensitivity and awareness of my body. I also came to understand that Kundalini is just one element for personal growth and that cultivation of virtues is also important.

However, two things worried me. Firstly, on several occasions, the energy seemed to enter the spinal channel and extend vertically instead of moving in a compact ball as it usually did in the nighttime experiences. To use serpent imagery, it was like a snake stretching out and standing up instead of a snake that moves while remaining coiled. This would lead to a completely different experience characterized by chakric expansion and mystical awareness, usually accompanied by bliss depending on the position reached by the top of the snake's head. On these occasions I experienced heart orgasms generating compassion, prologed genital orgasms without ejaculation, brain orgasms causing intuition of spiritual laws, and sensations of the body becoming gigantic whilst the point of consciousness became tiny.

Most if not all of the literature I encountered referred to Kundalini activity occurring in this way and so did my Yoga teacher. However, what seemed to be happening to me in the nighttime experiences was that the energy would try to enter the spinal channel but be blocked because the channel was closed. Instead it would force itself out through a different nerve or channel. I couldn't find any information on this type of occurrence, but I did discover in Feuerstein's acclaimed book Tantra that when the energy took the form of a snake standing on its tail in the central channel, it would be harmless.

The other worry was that after a period of months, the energy seemed to have dissolved most blocks in my body. This meant that when it awakened it would usually rush straight to my head unimpeded. When it did this, it would reach a block or knot in the middle of my head that seemed to be protecting the brain from the energy. It felt as though the ball of energy was pushing against this block very forcefully, and this was extremely painful. I finally decided that this was potentially dangerous because the energy might enter the brain and cause some kind of brain injury. However I wasn't too sure; maybe the energy was meant to "burn" through this block like the rest of the blocks in the body. One time when the pain became unbearable, it suddenly dissipated in the strange form of an orgasmic wave of pleasure starting from feet to head.

I didn't know what to do. There was not much I could do. It's not as if I was playing with Kundalini. It would just awaken naturally in my sleep. I did realise that I could stop the awakening altogether if I rapidly and deliberately moved my body in the split second after the Kundalini woke up just before it erupted. This would stifle the energy but was difficult to do as I would be just waking up and be in a slow-reacting, lethargic state. I also realised that the more power the Kundalini had, the more speed it had, the more easily it woke me up, and the more pain it caused when it reached my head or any other block. This seemed to be regulated by the amount of semen in my body, for when there was a lot of it the energy would stir frequently in the sacrum throughout the day and usually erupt at night. If I masturbated, then there would be no fuel for the Kundalini and it would stir less and erupt at night only after one or two days when the semen had built up again. However, I didn't want to emit semen all the time because it drained me mentally and physically.

What was I supposed to do? Was I in danger? Did I need to masturbate to stop the energy from erupting or from having too much power? If so, how should I determine when the Kundalini had too much power? My attempts to answer these questions were fruitless, and, just as I got to the stage where answering these questions became really, really important to me, something terrible happened.

Something Terrible Happens

On May 5, 1999 the energy woke me up. I did nothing to stop it and with a great amount of energy and power it rocketed straight up to the brain where it broke the block in the middle of my head. I felt it explode in the frontal lobe and I lost consciousness for a split second. Then it went to another part of the body and came back to the brain exploding there two more times. As it sped around my body, I somehow managed to move a muscle and break the paralysis so the energy returned to the base of the spine. As usual, I couldn't feel any part of my body but this time the lack of sensation felt much more serious, as if my whole body had disappeared. I twiddled my toes and regained awareness of my body, but it felt strange and different, a little numbed, as if the signals weren't coming in as strongly as usual. I felt as though the whole central part of my chest and torso had lost a lot of their presence, particularly the sensations coming from within my body -- the stomach and intestines. My penis became limp and dead. I noticed that both my nostrils were wide open and extremely dilated. Not only did my body feel different, but as I stood up and looked at the world around me, external things seemed different, strange, unreal, foreign, weird, and dreamlike. This was a big shock to me. I became frantic and had a panic attack.

Still in a frantic state, I had breakfast and went to university. In the lecture I couldn't concentrate My thoughts were racing, the world was strange and disturbing. I tried a Yoga class but that was hopeless. I tried talking to a few people but I couldn't think properly and could only articulate simple phrases. I bought some lunch even though I had no appetite. I couldn't finish it because my stomach gave no feedback on how full or hungry it was. That night I got only three hours sleep with nightmares and because my nose was so dilated, I had a couple of bloody noses. The next day, still in a frantic state, I saw a doctor who sent me to a youth psychiatric hospital for assessment. There I realised that I couldn't cry because I wasn't producing any tears. I also realised that my whole body had lost its responsiveness to sensitive touch; even my feet and armpits weren't ticklish anymore. Also, I tried to do some running but got hit with sudden tiredness; all my stamina was gone because my metabolism had been affected. I realized that food was taking longer to move through my intestines because bowel movements were less powerful and of lower volume. Food started building up in the intestines because I was eating more than excreting. After about one or two months my abdomen reached its current level of distension. Associated with this was frequent smelly wind. Indeed I had slow transit constipation. After three weeks I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication, Risperidone. I stayed on this medication for 10 months which stabilised me mentally.

Persisting Symptoms

There were many more symptoms. I will list all of them and their status as of Friday, 28 April 2000.

The following symptoms still exist:

 

Decrease of skin's responsiveness to sensitive touch, a slight numbness.

The body feels dull and sluggish.

Yoga, Tai Chi, and dancing have lost their appeal.

No ticklishness in feet, and little in armpits.

Tendency to develop dark patches under the eyes.

Face not smooth anymore; tendency to develop small bumps and pimples.

Loss of even skin tone on face and body.

Inability to feel hungry or full; lack of appetite.

Inability to feel thirst.

Slow transit constipation with major bloating and frequent wind.

Swollen lips.

Bad breath.

Increased fat even though I'm eating much less.

Depersonalisation and derealisation. The environment constantly seems unreal and spaced-out; it feels like being stuck in a dream.

Sense of time feels awkward. No sense of moving forward or accomplishment, even after sleeping. No sense that a new day has arrived when I wake up.

Inability to feel tiredness, fatigue, or differing energy levels. Just a constant flat dull feeling, even when walking, yawning, waking up, or going to sleep.

The body acts like a robot separated from the mind.

Constant yawning, even after sleep.

Emotions are less intense.

Frequent sneezing.

Occasional throbbing pains on soles of feet and palms.

Frequent anxious dreams.

Fidgeting and restlessness in hands (dyskinetic movements caused by medication).

Improved Symptoms

Thankfully, the following symptoms have improved or gone away:

 

Difficulty thinking, tracking words while reading, concentrating.

Difficulty thinking of jokes and being humorous.

Simultaneous dilation of both nostrils.

Obsessive thoughts..

Inability to perform cardiovascular exercise.

Feeling of detachment from mouth and voice.

Loss of power to most major muscles. (Restored with chiropractic.)

Limp penis.

Racing thoughts.

Panic attacks.

Insomnia.

A feeling that all actions were difficult and required deliberate effort.

Greatly diminished bodily sweat, even under armpits..

Lack of tears.

Lack of moisture and mucus in nose.

Lack of semen production.

As anyone would imagine, my life has dramatically changed since the terrible event. I don't socialise anymore because it's not as rewarding and it's more difficult. I've lost all enthusiasm, momentum, and vision in my life. Exercise is difficult and less enjoyable. I'm only studying one subject but even that is less enjoyable and is still a struggle. Unless my mind and body heals, I doubt I'll ever do and be the things I wanted from my professional, personal, social, economic, physical, and spiritual life. This is a major blow since I was ambitious and a high achiever. I'm not depressed, although it can be a little upsetting that things aren't happening the way I would have liked them to be. However, I somewhat accept my new reality.

The Kundalini still erupts occasionally, but it doesn't have as much power now as it did before and is therefore unable to enter my brain again.

[Guest guest]

Yes. Motoyama studied this process and his works throw light on this. In such cases, where there is problem in raising Kundalini, the Guru, if he is an elevated Yogi, can help. Praying to Mother Kundalini with the kundalini stotra may also help but this may not be considered a substitute for an experienced yogic teacher. If one wants to practice without any outside help it is advisable that one meditates on the tip of the nose or between the eyebrows as Lord Krishna had advised Arjuna or alternatively one concentrates on the heart, as Lord Buddha did. The important thing to remember is that do not play with the raising of Kundalini from the Root chakra without the help of an experienced yogic-teacher.SKB Jane MacRoss <highfield1 wrote: I would be very interested in anyone's coments on this narrative Jane When Kundalini Breaks the Last Block Kundalini activity made the author happy and healthy for over a year -- until the night it broke through the last block and entered his head, causing a devastating neurological illness. By A.D. FOR OVER A YEAR before the terrible event I was happy and content. For physical health, I was doing regular yoga postures and relaxation. I also did Ba Gua exercises and meditation. This helped me gain a tremendous sense of vitality and high energy. Sleep was deep and invigorating. I had a large appetite and great digestion; food was organic and vegetarian. I also had great concentration and memory. I had a strong awareness of people, the universe, and myself. I was also very aware of my emotions; I felt sensitive and sensual. My mind and body were working extremely well. I was doing really well at university. No doubt, I was having a great time; I was conquering the world. Kundalini Was Blocked I believe my great health was partly due to Kundalini activity that occurred once or twice a week in the middle of the night. Typically a feeling of warmth and movement at the base of my spine would wake me from sleep. After a few split seconds it would erupt as a strong ball of electrical energy and then speed quickly along nerves in a manner that could be directed by thought. At the same time I would lose perception of space and time, and enter a distorted sense of reality with extremely loud rushing noises. As this occurred, I would become

paralyzed, unable to move a muscle. I would feel the Kundalini energy encounter and push hard against what I would call resistance or blocks or knots in the nerve it was travelling along. This would often cause strong or extreme pain. If I concentrated on the block that was being "burnt" the pain would intensify. The only way to exit this state and make the energy return to its dormant condition was to move some muscle -- any muscle -- in my body. This was very difficult as I would have to gather up and use all possible will power. When I managed to do this, the energy would rapidly return to its home. After this, I wouldn't be able to feel any part of my body, so I would twiddle my toes to regain awareness of it. I suppose the nerves had to re-establish their connections. After this happened, I could fall back asleep as if nothing had happened, and the energy would not erupt again that night. I did much reading and spoke to a few people on the subject and came to the conclusion that what was happening to me was just one of the body's natural ways of eliminating blocks in the nervous system. This was confirmed by the fact that my overall health was improving and I was achieving a great nerve sensitivity and awareness of my body. I also came to understand that Kundalini is just one element for personal growth and that cultivation of virtues is also important. However, two things worried me. Firstly, on several occasions, the energy seemed to enter the spinal channel and extend vertically instead of moving in a compact ball as it usually did in the nighttime experiences. To use serpent imagery, it was like a snake stretching out and standing up instead of a snake that moves while remaining coiled. This would lead to a completely different experience characterized by chakric

expansion and mystical awareness, usually accompanied by bliss depending on the position reached by the top of the snake's head. On these occasions I experienced heart orgasms generating compassion, prologed genital orgasms without ejaculation, brain orgasms causing intuition of spiritual laws, and sensations of the body becoming gigantic whilst the point of consciousness became tiny. Most if not all of the literature I encountered referred to Kundalini activity occurring in this way and so did my Yoga teacher. However, what seemed to be happening to me in the nighttime experiences was that the energy would try to enter the spinal channel but be blocked because the channel was closed. Instead it would force itself out through a different nerve or channel. I couldn't find any information on this type of occurrence, but I did discover in Feuerstein's acclaimed book Tantra that when the

energy took the form of a snake standing on its tail in the central channel, it would be harmless. The other worry was that after a period of months, the energy seemed to have dissolved most blocks in my body. This meant that when it awakened it would usually rush straight to my head unimpeded. When it did this, it would reach a block or knot in the middle of my head that seemed to be protecting the brain from the energy. It felt as though the ball of energy was pushing against this block very forcefully, and this was extremely painful. I finally decided that this was potentially dangerous because the energy might enter the brain and cause some kind of brain injury. However I wasn't too sure; maybe the energy was meant to "burn" through this block like the rest of the blocks in the body. One time when the pain became unbearable, it suddenly dissipated in the strange form of an orgasmic wave

of pleasure starting from feet to head. I didn't know what to do. There was not much I could do. It's not as if I was playing with Kundalini. It would just awaken naturally in my sleep. I did realise that I could stop the awakening altogether if I rapidly and deliberately moved my body in the split second after the Kundalini woke up just before it erupted. This would stifle the energy but was difficult to do as I would be just waking up and be in a slow-reacting, lethargic state. I also realised that the more power the Kundalini had, the more speed it had, the more easily it woke me up, and the more pain it caused when it reached my head or any other block. This seemed to be regulated by the amount of semen in my body, for when there was a lot of it the energy would stir frequently in the sacrum throughout the day and usually erupt at night. If I masturbated, then there would be no fuel for

the Kundalini and it would stir less and erupt at night only after one or two days when the semen had built up again. However, I didn't want to emit semen all the time because it drained me mentally and physically. What was I supposed to do? Was I in danger? Did I need to masturbate to stop the energy from erupting or from having too much power? If so, how should I determine when the Kundalini had too much power? My attempts to answer these questions were fruitless, and, just as I got to the stage where answering these questions became really, really important to me, something terrible happened. Something Terrible Happens On May 5, 1999 the energy woke me up. I did nothing to stop

it and with a great amount of energy and power it rocketed straight up to the brain where it broke the block in the middle of my head. I felt it explode in the frontal lobe and I lost consciousness for a split second. Then it went to another part of the body and came back to the brain exploding there two more times. As it sped around my body, I somehow managed to move a muscle and break the paralysis so the energy returned to the base of the spine. As usual, I couldn't feel any part of my body but this time the lack of sensation felt much more serious, as if my whole body had disappeared. I twiddled my toes and regained awareness of my body, but it felt strange and different, a little numbed, as if the signals weren't coming in as strongly as usual. I felt as though the whole central part of my chest and torso had lost a lot of their presence, particularly the sensations coming from within my body -- the stomach and intestines. My penis became limp and dead. I

noticed that both my nostrils were wide open and extremely dilated. Not only did my body feel different, but as I stood up and looked at the world around me, external things seemed different, strange, unreal, foreign, weird, and dreamlike. This was a big shock to me. I became frantic and had a panic attack. Still in a frantic state, I had breakfast and went to university. In the lecture I couldn't concentrate My thoughts were racing, the world was strange and disturbing. I tried a Yoga class but that was hopeless. I tried talking to a few people but I couldn't think properly and could only articulate simple phrases. I bought some lunch even though I had no appetite. I couldn't finish it because my stomach gave no feedback on how full or hungry it was. That night I got only three hours sleep with nightmares and because my nose was so dilated, I had a couple of bloody noses. The next day, still

in a frantic state, I saw a doctor who sent me to a youth psychiatric hospital for assessment. There I realised that I couldn't cry because I wasn't producing any tears. I also realised that my whole body had lost its responsiveness to sensitive touch; even my feet and armpits weren't ticklish anymore. Also, I tried to do some running but got hit with sudden tiredness; all my stamina was gone because my metabolism had been affected. I realized that food was taking longer to move through my intestines because bowel movements were less powerful and of lower volume. Food started building up in the intestines because I was eating more than excreting. After about one or two months my abdomen reached its current level of distension. Associated with this was frequent smelly wind. Indeed I had slow transit constipation. After three weeks I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication, Risperidone. I stayed on this medication for 10 months which stabilised me

mentally. Persisting Symptoms There were many more symptoms. I will list all of them and their status as of Friday, 28 April 2000. The following symptoms still exist: Decrease of skin's responsiveness to sensitive touch, a slight numbness. The body feels dull and sluggish. Yoga, Tai Chi, and dancing have lost their appeal. No ticklishness in feet, and little in armpits. Tendency to develop dark patches under the eyes. Face not smooth anymore; tendency to develop small bumps and pimples. Loss of even skin tone on face and body. Inability to feel hungry or full; lack of appetite. Inability to feel thirst. Slow transit constipation with major bloating and frequent wind. Swollen lips. Bad breath. Increased fat even though I'm eating much less. Depersonalisation and derealisation. The environment constantly seems unreal and spaced-out; it feels like being stuck in a dream. Sense of time feels awkward. No sense of moving forward or accomplishment, even after sleeping. No sense that a new day has arrived when I wake up. Inability to feel tiredness, fatigue, or differing energy levels. Just a constant flat dull feeling, even when walking, yawning, waking up, or going to sleep. The body acts like a robot separated from the mind. Constant

yawning, even after sleep. Emotions are less intense. Frequent sneezing. Occasional throbbing pains on soles of feet and palms. Frequent anxious dreams. Fidgeting and restlessness in hands (dyskinetic movements caused by medication). Improved Symptoms Thankfully, the following symptoms have improved or gone away: Difficulty

thinking, tracking words while reading, concentrating. Difficulty thinking of jokes and being humorous. Simultaneous dilation of both nostrils. Obsessive thoughts.. Inability to perform cardiovascular exercise. Feeling of detachment from mouth and voice. Loss of power to most major muscles. (Restored with chiropractic.) Limp penis. Racing thoughts. Panic attacks. Insomnia. A feeling that all actions were difficult and required deliberate effort. Greatly diminished bodily sweat, even under armpits.. Lack of tears. Lack of moisture and mucus in nose. Lack of semen production. As anyone would imagine, my life has

dramatically changed since the terrible event. I don't socialise anymore because it's not as rewarding and it's more difficult. I've lost all enthusiasm, momentum, and vision in my life. Exercise is difficult and less enjoyable. I'm only studying one subject but even that is less enjoyable and is still a struggle. Unless my mind and body heals, I doubt I'll ever do and be the things I wanted from my professional, personal, social, economic, physical, and spiritual life. This is a major blow since I was ambitious and a high achiever. I'm not depressed, although it can be a little upsetting that things aren't happening the way I would have liked them to be. However, I somewhat accept my new reality. The Kundalini still erupts occasionally, but it doesn't have as much power now as it did before and is therefore unable to enter my brain again.

Don't pick lemons.

See all the new 2007 cars at Autos.

[Guest guest]

Not being able to imagine a life with the Guru I found it difficult to comment myself on this man's predicament - and as inner guidance is so safe I was not sure where he was coming from as I am aware that the vibration from the brow chakra is infinitely different from the vibrations from the lower chakras

 

thanks SKB

for your comments

 

Best,

 

Jane

 

-

Sunil Bhattacharjya

Friday, May 18, 2007 1:54 AM

Re: [HealthyIndia] Fw: Long - for your perusal at your convenience

Yes. Motoyama studied this process and his works throw light on this. In such cases, where there is problem in raising Kundalini, the Guru, if he is an elevated Yogi, can help. Praying to Mother Kundalini with the kundalini stotra may also help but this may not be considered a substitute for an experienced yogic teacher. If one wants to practice without any outside help it is advisable that one meditates on the tip of the nose or between the eyebrows as Lord Krishna had advised Arjuna or alternatively one concentrates on the heart, as Lord Buddha did. The important thing to remember is that do not play with the raising of Kundalini from the Root chakra without the help of an experienced yogic-teacher.SKB Jane MacRoss <highfield1 wrote:

 

 

 

 

I would be very interested in anyone's coments on this narrative

 

Jane

 

 

 

When Kundalini Breaks the Last Block

Kundalini activity made the author happy and healthy for over a year -- until the night it broke through the last block and entered his head, causing a devastating neurological illness.

By A.D.

 

FOR OVER A YEAR before the terrible event I was happy and content. For physical health, I was doing regular yoga postures and relaxation. I also did Ba Gua exercises and meditation. This helped me gain a tremendous sense of vitality and high energy. Sleep was deep and invigorating. I had a large appetite and great digestion; food was organic and vegetarian. I also had great concentration and memory. I had a strong awareness of people, the universe, and myself. I was also very aware of my emotions; I felt sensitive and sensual. My mind and body were working extremely well. I was doing really well at university. No doubt, I was having a great time; I was conquering the world.

Kundalini Was Blocked

I believe my great health was partly due to Kundalini activity that occurred once or twice a week in the middle of the night. Typically a feeling of warmth and movement at the base of my spine would wake me from sleep. After a few split seconds it would erupt as a strong ball of electrical energy and then speed quickly along nerves in a manner that could be directed by thought. At the same time I would lose perception of space and time, and enter a distorted sense of reality with extremely loud rushing noises. As this occurred, I would become paralyzed, unable to move a muscle. I would feel the Kundalini energy encounter and push hard against what I would call resistance or blocks or knots in the nerve it was travelling along. This would often cause strong or extreme pain. If I concentrated on the block that was being "burnt" the pain would intensify. The only way to exit this state and make the energy return to its dormant condition was to move some muscle -- any muscle -- in my body. This was very difficult as I would have to gather up and use all possible will power. When I managed to do this, the energy would rapidly return to its home. After this, I wouldn't be able to feel any part of my body, so I would twiddle my toes to regain awareness of it. I suppose the nerves had to re-establish their connections. After this happened, I could fall back asleep as if nothing had happened, and the energy would not erupt again that night.

I did much reading and spoke to a few people on the subject and came to the conclusion that what was happening to me was just one of the body's natural ways of eliminating blocks in the nervous system. This was confirmed by the fact that my overall health was improving and I was achieving a great nerve sensitivity and awareness of my body. I also came to understand that Kundalini is just one element for personal growth and that cultivation of virtues is also important.

However, two things worried me. Firstly, on several occasions, the energy seemed to enter the spinal channel and extend vertically instead of moving in a compact ball as it usually did in the nighttime experiences. To use serpent imagery, it was like a snake stretching out and standing up instead of a snake that moves while remaining coiled. This would lead to a completely different experience characterized by chakric expansion and mystical awareness, usually accompanied by bliss depending on the position reached by the top of the snake's head. On these occasions I experienced heart orgasms generating compassion, prologed genital orgasms without ejaculation, brain orgasms causing intuition of spiritual laws, and sensations of the body becoming gigantic whilst the point of consciousness became tiny.

Most if not all of the literature I encountered referred to Kundalini activity occurring in this way and so did my Yoga teacher. However, what seemed to be happening to me in the nighttime experiences was that the energy would try to enter the spinal channel but be blocked because the channel was closed. Instead it would force itself out through a different nerve or channel. I couldn't find any information on this type of occurrence, but I did discover in Feuerstein's acclaimed book Tantra that when the energy took the form of a snake standing on its tail in the central channel, it would be harmless.

The other worry was that after a period of months, the energy seemed to have dissolved most blocks in my body. This meant that when it awakened it would usually rush straight to my head unimpeded. When it did this, it would reach a block or knot in the middle of my head that seemed to be protecting the brain from the energy. It felt as though the ball of energy was pushing against this block very forcefully, and this was extremely painful. I finally decided that this was potentially dangerous because the energy might enter the brain and cause some kind of brain injury. However I wasn't too sure; maybe the energy was meant to "burn" through this block like the rest of the blocks in the body. One time when the pain became unbearable, it suddenly dissipated in the strange form of an orgasmic wave of pleasure starting from feet to head.

I didn't know what to do. There was not much I could do. It's not as if I was playing with Kundalini. It would just awaken naturally in my sleep. I did realise that I could stop the awakening altogether if I rapidly and deliberately moved my body in the split second after the Kundalini woke up just before it erupted. This would stifle the energy but was difficult to do as I would be just waking up and be in a slow-reacting, lethargic state. I also realised that the more power the Kundalini had, the more speed it had, the more easily it woke me up, and the more pain it caused when it reached my head or any other block. This seemed to be regulated by the amount of semen in my body, for when there was a lot of it the energy would stir frequently in the sacrum throughout the day and usually erupt at night. If I masturbated, then there would be no fuel for the Kundalini and it would stir less and erupt at night only after one or two days when the semen had built up again. However, I didn't want to emit semen all the time because it drained me mentally and physically.

What was I supposed to do? Was I in danger? Did I need to masturbate to stop the energy from erupting or from having too much power? If so, how should I determine when the Kundalini had too much power? My attempts to answer these questions were fruitless, and, just as I got to the stage where answering these questions became really, really important to me, something terrible happened.

Something Terrible Happens

On May 5, 1999 the energy woke me up. I did nothing to stop it and with a great amount of energy and power it rocketed straight up to the brain where it broke the block in the middle of my head. I felt it explode in the frontal lobe and I lost consciousness for a split second. Then it went to another part of the body and came back to the brain exploding there two more times. As it sped around my body, I somehow managed to move a muscle and break the paralysis so the energy returned to the base of the spine. As usual, I couldn't feel any part of my body but this time the lack of sensation felt much more serious, as if my whole body had disappeared. I twiddled my toes and regained awareness of my body, but it felt strange and different, a little numbed, as if the signals weren't coming in as strongly as usual. I felt as though the whole central part of my chest and torso had lost a lot of their presence, particularly the sensations coming from within my body -- the stomach and intestines. My penis became limp and dead. I noticed that both my nostrils were wide open and extremely dilated. Not only did my body feel different, but as I stood up and looked at the world around me, external things seemed different, strange, unreal, foreign, weird, and dreamlike This was a big shock to me. I became frantic and had a panic attack.

Still in a frantic state, I had breakfast and went to university. In the lecture I couldn't concentrate My thoughts were racing, the world was strange and disturbing. I tried a Yoga class but that was hopeless. I tried talking to a few people but I couldn't think properly and could only articulate simple phrases. I bought some lunch even though I had no appetite. I couldn't finish it because my stomach gave no feedback on how full or hungry it was. That night I got only three hours sleep with nightmares and because my nose was so dilated, I had a couple of bloody noses. The next day, still in a frantic state, I saw a doctor who sent me to a youth psychiatric hospital for assessment. There I realised that I couldn't cry because I wasn't producing any tears. I also realised that my whole body had lost its responsiveness to sensitive touch; even my feet and armpits weren't ticklish anymore. Also, I tried to do some running but got hit with sudden tiredness; all my stamina was gone because my metabolism had been affected. I realized that food was taking longer to move through my intestines because bowel movements were less powerful and of lower volume. Food started building up in the intestines because I was eating more than excreting. After about one or two months my abdomen reached its current level of distension. Associated with this was frequent smelly wind. Indeed I had slow transit constipation. After three weeks I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication, Risperidone. I stayed on this medication for 10 months which stabilised me mentally.

Persisting Symptoms

There were many more symptoms. I will list all of them and their status as of Friday, 28 April 2000.

The following symptoms still exist:

 

Decrease of skin's responsiveness to sensitive touch, a slight numbness.

The body feels dull and sluggish.

Yoga, Tai Chi, and dancing have lost their appeal.

No ticklishness in feet, and little in armpits.

Tendency to develop dark patches under the eyes.

Face not smooth anymore; tendency to develop small bumps and pimples.

Loss of even skin tone on face and body.

Inability to feel hungry or full; lack of appetite.

Inability to feel thirst.

Slow transit constipation with major bloating and frequent wind.

Swollen lips.

Bad breath.

Increased fat even though I'm eating much less.

Depersonalisation and derealisation. The environment constantly seems unreal and spaced-out; it feels like being stuck in a dream.

Sense of time feels awkward. No sense of moving forward or accomplishment, even after sleeping. No sense that a new day has arrived when I wake up.

Inability to feel tiredness, fatigue, or differing energy levels. Just a constant flat dull feeling, even when walking, yawning, waking up, or going to sleep.

The body acts like a robot separated from the mind.

Constant yawning, even after sleep.

Emotions are less intense.

Frequent sneezing.

Occasional throbbing pains on soles of feet and palms.

Frequent anxious dreams.

Fidgeting and restlessness in hands (dyskinetic movements caused by medication).

Improved Symptoms

Thankfully, the following symptoms have improved or gone away:

 

Difficulty thinking, tracking words while reading, concentrating.

Difficulty thinking of jokes and being humorous.

Simultaneous dilation of both nostrils.

Obsessive thoughts..

Inability to perform cardiovascular exercise.

Feeling of detachment from mouth and voice.

Loss of power to most major muscles. (Restored with chiropractic.)

Limp penis.

Racing thoughts.

Panic attacks.

Insomnia.

A feeling that all actions were difficult and required deliberate effort.

Greatly diminished bodily sweat, even under armpits..

Lack of tears.

Lack of moisture and mucus in nose.

Lack of semen production.

As anyone would imagine, my life has dramatically changed since the terrible event. I don't socialise anymore because it's not as rewarding and it's more difficult I've lost all enthusiasm, momentum, and vision in my life. Exercise is difficult and less enjoyable. I'm only studying one subject but even that is less enjoyable and is still a struggle. Unless my mind and body heals, I doubt I'll ever do and be the things I wanted from my professional, personal, social, economic, physical, and spiritual life. This is a major blow since I was ambitious and a high achiever. I'm not depressed, although it can be a little upsetting that things aren't happening the way I would have liked them to be. However, I somewhat accept my new reality.

The Kundalini still erupts occasionally, but it doesn't have as much power now as it did before and is therefore unable to enter my brain again.

 

 

 

 

Don't pick lemons.See all the new 2007 cars at Autos.

[Guest guest]

Jane, several points. This narrative is quite old. Why are you posting it now? I hope you or some one you know is not suffering something like this. Also, there are things that need the guidance of a righteous guru. Too many of us think self help is everything. Yes to some extent. It appears the writer is a child expecting things will always be on the up and up. That's not the way the real life cookie crumbles. Also yoga practices need very strong spiritual grounding and social service to be useful. Otherwise they become just exercises or worse, make the person unbalanced. There are a lot of unscrupulous people who set themselves up as gurus and their students suffer for that.Jane MacRoss <highfield1 wrote: I would be very interested in anyone's coments on this narrative Jane When Kundalini Breaks the Last Block Kundalini activity made the author happy and healthy for over a year -- until the night it broke through the last block and entered his head, causing a devastating neurological illness. By A.D. FOR OVER A YEAR before the terrible event I was happy and content. For physical health, I was doing regular yoga postures and relaxation. I also did Ba Gua exercises and meditation. This helped me gain a tremendous sense

of vitality and high energy. Sleep was deep and invigorating. I had a large appetite and great digestion; food was organic and vegetarian. I also had great concentration and memory. I had a strong awareness of people, the universe, and myself. I was also very aware of my emotions; I felt sensitive and sensual. My mind and body were working extremely well. I was doing really well at university. No doubt, I was having a great time; I was conquering the world. Kundalini Was Blocked I believe my great health was partly due to Kundalini activity that occurred once or twice a week in the middle of the night. Typically a feeling of warmth and movement at the base of my spine would wake me from sleep. After a few split seconds it would erupt as a strong ball of electrical

energy and then speed quickly along nerves in a manner that could be directed by thought. At the same time I would lose perception of space and time, and enter a distorted sense of reality with extremely loud rushing noises. As this occurred, I would become paralyzed, unable to move a muscle. I would feel the Kundalini energy encounter and push hard against what I would call resistance or blocks or knots in the nerve it was travelling along. This would often cause strong or extreme pain. If I concentrated on the block that was being "burnt" the pain would intensify. The only way to exit this state and make the energy return to its dormant condition was to move some muscle -- any muscle -- in my body. This was very difficult as I would have to gather up and use all possible will power. When I managed to do this, the energy would rapidly return to its home. After this, I wouldn't be able to feel any part of my body, so I would twiddle my toes to regain awareness of it. I

suppose the nerves had to re-establish their connections. After this happened, I could fall back asleep as if nothing had happened, and the energy would not erupt again that night. I did much reading and spoke to a few people on the subject and came to the conclusion that what was happening to me was just one of the body's natural ways of eliminating blocks in the nervous system. This was confirmed by the fact that my overall health was improving and I was achieving a great nerve sensitivity and awareness of my body. I also came to understand that Kundalini is just one element for personal growth and that cultivation of virtues is also important. However, two things worried me. Firstly, on several occasions, the energy seemed to enter the spinal channel and extend vertically instead of moving in a compact ball as it usually did in the

nighttime experiences. To use serpent imagery, it was like a snake stretching out and standing up instead of a snake that moves while remaining coiled. This would lead to a completely different experience characterized by chakric expansion and mystical awareness, usually accompanied by bliss depending on the position reached by the top of the snake's head. On these occasions I experienced heart orgasms generating compassion, prologed genital orgasms without ejaculation, brain orgasms causing intuition of spiritual laws, and sensations of the body becoming gigantic whilst the point of consciousness became tiny. Most if not all of the literature I encountered referred to Kundalini activity occurring in this way and so did my Yoga teacher. However, what seemed to be happening to me in the nighttime experiences was that the energy would try to enter the spinal channel but be blocked because the channel was

closed. Instead it would force itself out through a different nerve or channel. I couldn't find any information on this type of occurrence, but I did discover in Feuerstein's acclaimed book Tantra that when the energy took the form of a snake standing on its tail in the central channel, it would be harmless. The other worry was that after a period of months, the energy seemed to have dissolved most blocks in my body. This meant that when it awakened it would usually rush straight to my head unimpeded. When it did this, it would reach a block or knot in the middle of my head that seemed to be protecting the brain from the energy. It felt as though the ball of energy was pushing against this block very forcefully, and this was extremely painful. I finally decided that this was potentially dangerous because the energy might enter the brain and cause some kind of brain injury. However I wasn't too

sure; maybe the energy was meant to "burn" through this block like the rest of the blocks in the body. One time when the pain became unbearable, it suddenly dissipated in the strange form of an orgasmic wave of pleasure starting from feet to head. I didn't know what to do. There was not much I could do. It's not as if I was playing with Kundalini. It would just awaken naturally in my sleep. I did realise that I could stop the awakening altogether if I rapidly and deliberately moved my body in the split second after the Kundalini woke up just before it erupted. This would stifle the energy but was difficult to do as I would be just waking up and be in a slow-reacting, lethargic state. I also realised that the more power the Kundalini had, the more speed it had, the more easily it woke me up, and the more pain it caused when it reached my head or any other block. This seemed to be regulated by the amount of

semen in my body, for when there was a lot of it the energy would stir frequently in the sacrum throughout the day and usually erupt at night. If I masturbated, then there would be no fuel for the Kundalini and it would stir less and erupt at night only after one or two days when the semen had built up again. However, I didn't want to emit semen all the time because it drained me mentally and physically. What was I supposed to do? Was I in danger? Did I need to masturbate to stop the energy from erupting or from having too much power? If so, how should I determine when the Kundalini had too much power? My attempts to answer these questions were fruitless, and, just as I got to the stage where answering these questions became really, really important to me, something terrible happened. Something Terrible Happens On May 5, 1999 the energy woke me up. I did nothing to stop it and with a great amount of energy and power it rocketed straight up to the brain where it broke the block in the middle of my head. I felt it explode in the frontal lobe and I lost consciousness for a split second. Then it went to another part of the body and came back to the brain exploding there two more times. As it sped around my body, I somehow managed to move a muscle and break the paralysis so the energy returned to the base of the spine. As usual, I couldn't feel any part of my body but this time the lack of sensation felt much more serious, as if my whole body had disappeared. I twiddled my toes and regained awareness of my body, but it felt strange and different, a little numbed, as if the signals weren't coming in as strongly as usual. I felt as though the whole central part of my

chest and torso had lost a lot of their presence, particularly the sensations coming from within my body -- the stomach and intestines. My penis became limp and dead. I noticed that both my nostrils were wide open and extremely dilated. Not only did my body feel different, but as I stood up and looked at the world around me, external things seemed different, strange, unreal, foreign, weird, and dreamlike. This was a big shock to me. I became frantic and had a panic attack. Still in a frantic state, I had breakfast and went to university. In the lecture I couldn't concentrate My thoughts were racing, the world was strange and disturbing. I tried a Yoga class but that was hopeless. I tried talking to a few people but I couldn't think properly and could only articulate simple phrases. I bought some lunch even though I had no appetite. I couldn't finish it because my stomach gave no feedback on how full or

hungry it was. That night I got only three hours sleep with nightmares and because my nose was so dilated, I had a couple of bloody noses. The next day, still in a frantic state, I saw a doctor who sent me to a youth psychiatric hospital for assessment. There I realised that I couldn't cry because I wasn't producing any tears. I also realised that my whole body had lost its responsiveness to sensitive touch; even my feet and armpits weren't ticklish anymore. Also, I tried to do some running but got hit with sudden tiredness; all my stamina was gone because my metabolism had been affected. I realized that food was taking longer to move through my intestines because bowel movements were less powerful and of lower volume. Food started building up in the intestines because I was eating more than excreting. After about one or two months my abdomen reached its current level of distension. Associated with this was frequent smelly wind. Indeed I had slow transit constipation.

After three weeks I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication, Risperidone. I stayed on this medication for 10 months which stabilised me mentally. Persisting Symptoms There were many more symptoms. I will list all of them and their status as of Friday, 28 April 2000. The following symptoms still exist: Decrease of skin's responsiveness to sensitive touch, a slight numbness. The body feels dull and sluggish. Yoga, Tai Chi, and dancing have lost their appeal. No

ticklishness in feet, and little in armpits. Tendency to develop dark patches under the eyes. Face not smooth anymore; tendency to develop small bumps and pimples. Loss of even skin tone on face and body. Inability to feel hungry or full; lack of appetite. Inability to feel thirst. Slow transit constipation with major bloating and frequent wind. Swollen lips. Bad breath. Increased fat even though I'm eating much less. Depersonalisation and derealisation. The environment constantly seems unreal and spaced-out; it feels like being stuck in a dream. Sense of time feels awkward. No sense of moving forward or accomplishment, even after sleeping. No sense that a new day has arrived when I wake up. Inability to feel tiredness, fatigue, or differing energy levels. Just a constant flat dull feeling, even when walking, yawning, waking up, or going to sleep. The body acts like a robot separated from the mind. Constant yawning, even after sleep. Emotions are less intense. Frequent sneezing. Occasional throbbing pains on soles of feet and palms. Frequent anxious dreams. Fidgeting and restlessness in hands (dyskinetic movements caused by medication). Improved Symptoms Thankfully, the following symptoms have improved or gone away: Difficulty thinking, tracking words while reading, concentrating. Difficulty thinking of jokes and being humorous. Simultaneous dilation of both nostrils. Obsessive thoughts.. Inability to perform cardiovascular exercise. Feeling of detachment from mouth and voice. Loss of power to most major muscles. (Restored with chiropractic.) Limp penis. Racing thoughts. Panic attacks. Insomnia. A feeling that all actions were difficult and required deliberate effort. Greatly diminished bodily sweat, even under armpits.. Lack of tears. Lack of moisture and mucus in nose. Lack of semen production. As anyone would imagine, my life has dramatically changed since the terrible event. I don't socialise anymore because it's not as rewarding and it's more difficult. I've lost all enthusiasm, momentum, and vision in my life. Exercise is difficult and less enjoyable. I'm only studying one subject but even that is less enjoyable and

is still a struggle. Unless my mind and body heals, I doubt I'll ever do and be the things I wanted from my professional, personal, social, economic, physical, and spiritual life. This is a major blow since I was ambitious and a high achiever. I'm not depressed, although it can be a little upsetting that things aren't happening the way I would have liked them to be. However, I somewhat accept my new reality. The Kundalini still erupts occasionally, but it doesn't have as much power now as it did before and is therefore unable to enter my brain again.

Here’s a new way to find what you're looking for - Answers

[Guest guest]

Sorry that should have read Life Without the Guru!

 

Freudian slip??

 

Jane

 

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Jane MacRoss

Friday, May 18, 2007 7:09 AM

Re: [HealthyIndia] Fw: Long - for your perusal at your convenience

 

Not being able to imagine a life with the Guru I found it difficult to comment myself on this man's predicament - and as inner guidance is so safe I was not sure where he was coming from as I am aware that the vibration from the brow chakra is infinitely different from the vibrations from the lower chakras

 

thanks SKB

for your comments

 

Best,

 

Jane

 

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Sunil Bhattacharjya

Friday, May 18, 2007 1:54 AM

Re: [HealthyIndia] Fw: Long - for your perusal at your convenience

Yes. Motoyama studied this process and his works throw light on this. In such cases, where there is problem in raising Kundalini, the Guru, if he is an elevated Yogi, can help. Praying to Mother Kundalini with the kundalini stotra may also help but this may not be considered a substitute for an experienced yogic teacher. If one wants to practice without any outside help it is advisable that one meditates on the tip of the nose or between the eyebrows as Lord Krishna had advised Arjuna or alternatively one concentrates on the heart, as Lord Buddha did. The important thing to remember is that do not play with the raising of Kundalini from the Root chakra without the help of an experienced yogic-teacher.SKB Jane MacRoss <highfield1 wrote:

 

 

 

I would be very interested in anyone's coments on this narrative

 

Jane

 

 

 

When Kundalini Breaks the Last Block

Kundalini activity made the author happy and healthy for over a year -- until the night it broke through the last block and entered his head, causing a devastating neurological illness.

By A.D.

 

FOR OVER A YEAR before the terrible event I was happy and content. For physical health, I was doing regular yoga postures and relaxation. I also did Ba Gua exercises and meditation. This helped me gain a tremendous sense of vitality and high energy. Sleep was deep and invigorating. I had a large appetite and great digestion; food was organic and vegetarian. I also had great concentration and memory. I had a strong awareness of people, the universe, and myself. I was also very aware of my emotions; I felt sensitive and sensual. My mind and body were working extremely well. I was doing really well at university. No doubt, I was having a great time; I was conquering the world.

Kundalini Was Blocked

I believe my great health was partly due to Kundalini activity that occurred once or twice a week in the middle of the night. Typically a feeling of warmth and movement at the base of my spine would wake me from sleep. After a few split seconds it would erupt as a strong ball of electrical energy and then speed quickly along nerves in a manner that could be directed by thought. At the same time I would lose perception of space and time, and enter a distorted sense of reality with extremely loud rushing noises As this occurred, I would become paralyzed, unable to move a muscle. I would feel the Kundalini energy encounter and push hard against what I would call resistance or blocks or knots in the nerve it was travelling along. This would often cause strong or extreme pain. If I concentrated on the block that was being "burnt" the pain would intensify. The only way to exit this state and make the energy return to its dormant condition was to move some muscle -- any muscle -- in my body. This was very difficult as I would have to gather up and use all possible will power. When I managed to do this, the energy would rapidly return to its home. After this, I wouldn't be able to feel any part of my body, so I would twiddle my toes to regain awareness of it. I suppose the nerves had to re-establish their connections. After this happened, I could fall back asleep as if nothing had happened, and the energy would not erupt again that night.

I did much reading and spoke to a few people on the subject and came to the conclusion that what was happening to me was just one of the body's natural ways of eliminating blocks in the nervous system. This was confirmed by the fact that my overall health was improving and I was achieving a great nerve sensitivity and awareness of my body. I also came to understand that Kundalini is just one element for personal growth and that cultivation of virtues is also important.

However, two things worried me. Firstly, on several occasions, the energy seemed to enter the spinal channel and extend vertically instead of moving in a compact ball as it usually did in the nighttime experiences. To use serpent imagery, it was like a snake stretching out and standing up instead of a snake that moves while remaining coiled. This would lead to a completely different experience characterized by chakric expansion and mystical awareness, usually accompanied by bliss depending on the position reached by the top of the snake's head. On these occasions I experienced heart orgasms generating compassion, prologed genital orgasms without ejaculation, brain orgasms causing intuition of spiritual laws, and sensations of the body becoming gigantic whilst the point of consciousness became tiny.

Most if not all of the literature I encountered referred to Kundalini activity occurring in this way and so did my Yoga teacher. However, what seemed to be happening to me in the nighttime experiences was that the energy would try to enter the spinal channel but be blocked because the channel was closed. Instead it would force itself out through a different nerve or channel. I couldn't find any information on this type of occurrence, but I did discover in Feuerstein's acclaimed book Tantra that when the energy took the form of a snake standing on its tail in the central channel, it would be harmless.

The other worry was that after a period of months, the energy seemed to have dissolved most blocks in my body. This meant that when it awakened it would usually rush straight to my head unimpeded. When it did this, it would reach a block or knot in the middle of my head that seemed to be protecting the brain from the energy. It felt as though the ball of energy was pushing against this block very forcefully, and this was extremely painful. I finally decided that this was potentially dangerous because the energy might enter the brain and cause some kind of brain injury. However I wasn't too sure; maybe the energy was meant to "burn" through this block like the rest of the blocks in the body. One time when the pain became unbearable, it suddenly dissipated in the strange form of an orgasmic wave of pleasure starting from feet to head.

I didn't know what to do. There was not much I could do. It's not as if I was playing with Kundalini. It would just awaken naturally in my sleep. I did realise that I could stop the awakening altogether if I rapidly and deliberately moved my body in the split second after the Kundalini woke up just before it erupted. This would stifle the energy but was difficult to do as I would be just waking up and be in a slow-reacting, lethargic state. I also realised that the more power the Kundalini had, the more speed it had, the more easily it woke me up, and the more pain it caused when it reached my head or any other block. This seemed to be regulated by the amount of semen in my body, for when there was a lot of it the energy would stir frequently in the sacrum throughout the day and usually erupt at night. If I masturbated, then there would be no fuel for the Kundalini and it would stir less and erupt at night only after one or two days when the semen had built up again. However, I didn't want to emit semen all the time because it drained me mentally and physically.

What was I supposed to do? Was I in danger? Did I need to masturbate to stop the energy from erupting or from having too much power? If so, how should I determine when the Kundalini had too much power? My attempts to answer these questions were fruitless, and, just as I got to the stage where answering these questions became really, really important to me, something terrible happened.

Something Terrible Happens

On May 5, 1999 the energy woke me up. I did nothing to stop it and with a great amount of energy and power it rocketed straight up to the brain where it broke the block in the middle of my head. I felt it explode in the frontal lobe and I lost consciousness for a split second. Then it went to another part of the body and came back to the brain exploding there two more times. As it sped around my body, I somehow managed to move a muscle and break the paralysis so the energy returned to the base of the spine. As usual, I couldn't feel any part of my body but this time the lack of sensation felt much more serious, as if my whole body had disappeared. I twiddled my toes and regained awareness of my body, but it felt strange and different, a little numbed, as if the signals weren't coming in as strongly as usual. I felt as though the whole central part of my chest and torso had lost a lot of their presence, particularly the sensations coming from within my body -- the stomach and intestines. My penis became limp and dead. I noticed that both my nostrils were wide open and extremely dilated. Not only did my body feel different, but as I stood up and looked at the world around me, external things seemed different, strange, unreal, foreign, weird, and dreamlike This was a big shock to me. I became frantic and had a panic attack.

Still in a frantic state, I had breakfast and went to university. In the lecture I couldn't concentrate My thoughts were racing, the world was strange and disturbing. I tried a Yoga class but that was hopeless. I tried talking to a few people but I couldn't think properly and could only articulate simple phrases. I bought some lunch even though I had no appetite. I couldn't finish it because my stomach gave no feedback on how full or hungry it was. That night I got only three hours sleep with nightmares and because my nose was so dilated, I had a couple of bloody noses. The next day, still in a frantic state, I saw a doctor who sent me to a youth psychiatric hospital for assessment. There I realised that I couldn't cry because I wasn't producing any tears. I also realised that my whole body had lost its responsiveness to sensitive touch; even my feet and armpits weren't ticklish anymore. Also, I tried to do some running but got hit with sudden tiredness; all my stamina was gone because my metabolism had been affected. I realized that food was taking longer to move through my intestines because bowel movements were less powerful and of lower volume. Food started building up in the intestines because I was eating more than excreting. After about one or two months my abdomen reached its current level of distension. Associated with this was frequent smelly wind. Indeed I had slow transit constipation. After three weeks I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication, Risperidone. I stayed on this medication for 10 months which stabilised me mentally.

Persisting Symptoms

There were many more symptoms. I will list all of them and their status as of Friday, 28 April 2000.

The following symptoms still exist:

 

Decrease of skin's responsiveness to sensitive touch, a slight numbness.

The body feels dull and sluggish.

Yoga, Tai Chi, and dancing have lost their appeal.

No ticklishness in feet, and little in armpits.

Tendency to develop dark patches under the eyes.

Face not smooth anymore; tendency to develop small bumps and pimples.

Loss of even skin tone on face and body.

Inability to feel hungry or full; lack of appetite.

Inability to feel thirst.

Slow transit constipation with major bloating and frequent wind.

Swollen lips.

Bad breath.

Increased fat even though I'm eating much less.

Depersonalisation and derealisation. The environment constantly seems unreal and spaced-out; it feels like being stuck in a dream.

Sense of time feels awkward. No sense of moving forward or accomplishment, even after sleeping. No sense that a new day has arrived when I wake up.

Inability to feel tiredness, fatigue, or differing energy levels. Just a constant flat dull feeling, even when walking, yawning, waking up, or going to sleep.

The body acts like a robot separated from the mind.

Constant yawning, even after sleep.

Emotions are less intense.

Frequent sneezing.

Occasional throbbing pains on soles of feet and palms.

Frequent anxious dreams.

Fidgeting and restlessness in hands (dyskinetic movements caused by medication).

Improved Symptoms

Thankfully, the following symptoms have improved or gone away:

 

Difficulty thinking, tracking words while reading, concentrating.

Difficulty thinking of jokes and being humorous.

Simultaneous dilation of both nostrils.

Obsessive thoughts..

Inability to perform cardiovascular exercise.

Feeling of detachment from mouth and voice.

Loss of power to most major muscles. (Restored with chiropractic.)

Limp penis.

Racing thoughts.

Panic attacks.

Insomnia.

A feeling that all actions were difficult and required deliberate effort.

Greatly diminished bodily sweat, even under armpits..

Lack of tears.

Lack of moisture and mucus in nose.

Lack of semen production.

As anyone would imagine, my life has dramatically changed since the terrible event. I don't socialise anymore because it's not as rewarding and it's more difficult I've lost all enthusiasm, momentum, and vision in my life. Exercise is difficult and less enjoyable. I'm only studying one subject but even that is less enjoyable and is still a struggle. Unless my mind and body heals, I doubt I'll ever do and be the things I wanted from my professional, personal, social, economic, physical, and spiritual life. This is a major blow since I was ambitious and a high achiever. I'm not depressed, although it can be a little upsetting that things aren't happening the way I would have liked them to be. However, I somewhat accept my new reality.

The Kundalini still erupts occasionally, but it doesn't have as much power now as it did before and is therefore unable to enter my brain again.

 

 

 

 

Don't pick lemons.See all the new 2007 cars at Autos.

[Guest guest]

It was posted on another list and I hadn't seen it before. As I had some similar experiences when i was much younger I was interested to know what it was all about.........

 

Jane

 

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Prabha Krishnan

Friday, May 18, 2007 11:11 AM

Re: [HealthyIndia] Fw: Long - for your perusal at your convenience

 

Jane, several points. This narrative is quite old. Why are you posting it now? I hope you or some one you know is not suffering something like this.

 

Also, there are things that need the guidance of a righteous guru.

 

Too many of us think self help is everything. Yes to some extent. It appears the writer is a child expecting things will always be on the up and up. That's not the way the real life cookie crumbles.

 

Also yoga practices need very strong spiritual grounding and social service to be useful. Otherwise they become just exercises or worse, make the person unbalanced.

 

There are a lot of unscrupulous people who set themselves up as gurus and their students suffer for that.

[Guest guest]

Probably the person concerned lost contact with his guru. Without casting any aspersions on his guru I wish to say that one should be careful in selecting one's guru. Swami Vivekananda accepted Ramakrishna Paramhamsa as guru only after the tests he carried out himself or in other words only after he was fully convinced about the latter's attainments.There are standard guidelines on choosing a guru. Brow Chakra is also called Guru Chakra. Meditating on that helps one attain spiritual knowledge and control the mind so that when the Kundalini rises from the Root Chakra the lower thoughts cannot create problems. Of course one has to observe discipline particularly one must follow 'Ahimsa' and 'Mitahara' so that there is no guilt-complex of any sort and the body is not lethargic. Meditation on the Heart controls the emotions and helps control the lower thoughts. One's own Transcendental Self or the Lord Himself resides in the

heart.

[Guest guest]

hello jane

 

i am not sure what it is all about but i think in life there are

always different ways of looking at things. he regrets the

disassociation from life that the rising of the kundalini incurred but

perhaps that is because he has not chosen to replace the

" worldly/sensual " pleasures with the looking for the more spiritual

pleasures... but has just left a gap there.

 

i agree life is not all on the up and up but if after his experience

he chooses to go back toward the physical/ego-sense pleasure then i

would guess that after a few years he will be back there and the whole

experience will be finished for him and he will be able to get on with

his daily life. he might, however, have taken the option to move

forward within the spiritual sphere, as frightening and unknown and

peculiar/possibly mad, as it was seeming to him --- perhaps, as

someone suggested, had he had a competent guru they could have guided

him through this but without that and with the memory and the lure of

past worldly pleasures he couldn't make it.

 

i think his ego could re-establish its dominance within the body if

that is what he believes he prefers to aim for - and if it is, then i

wish for his sake that it does not take long to do so and he can

return to what he perceives as his happy life. perhaps with a driven

person like that - the yoga exercises he was undertaking were building

up a spiritual strength but unfortunately, there was no corresponding

mental exercises or understanding going with that.

 

as the bard said " there is more in this world, horatio, than is dreamt

of in your philosophy " --- or words to that effect, i can't remember

exactly.

 

i wish him all the best, these experiences are no doubt extremely

frightening and disconcerting --- especially if you have to undergo

them alone, in a university and a culture that is almost hostile, on

many levels, to spiritual experiences... generally regarding them as

mental aberrations to be 'cured' by Risperdal and other

anti-psychotics. what an experience - i am so very sorry for him and

hope by these many years later he is feeling well and happy.

 

all the best

elly

 

 

 

 

, " Jane MacRoss "

<highfield1 wrote:

>

> It was posted on another list and I hadn't seen it before. As I had

some similar experiences when i was much younger I was interested to

know what it was all about.........

>

> Jane

> -

> Prabha Krishnan

>

> Friday, May 18, 2007 11:11 AM

> Re: [HealthyIndia] Fw: Long - for your perusal at your

convenience

>

>

> Jane, several points. This narrative is quite old. Why are you

posting it now? I hope you or some one you know is not suffering

something like this.

>

> Also, there are things that need the guidance of a righteous guru.

>

> Too many of us think self help is everything. Yes to some extent.

It appears the writer is a child expecting things will always be on

the up and up. That's not the way the real life cookie crumbles.

>

> Also yoga practices need very strong spiritual grounding and

social service to be useful. Otherwise they become just exercises or

worse, make the person unbalanced.

>

> There are a lot of unscrupulous people who set themselves up as

gurus and their students suffer for that.

>