How Swami changed my life

September 15, 2009

I have only read about Swami's leela's in others' lives, never thought it will happen to me. In the last 4 years, I have always promised myself that if my life got better with Swami's blessings, I will share my experience with other devotees. It is my turn now.

For nearly 4 years, right from the time we got married, my husband was cheating on me with his ex-wife. That was when I had started praying to Baba. Innumerable nights and days passed through with tears flowing incessantly and a heavy heart. Parents, friends and my daughter were my pillars of strength and ever increasing faith in Baba, until that Friday evening when I heard Him. Such a powerful incident, my faith in Him can never be reversed now.

It was end July, after spending a happy week with us, my husband returned to UK on a Sunday, where he was living then, only to call me on Friday to say he had to go to Turkey with his ex-wife and son to complete some legal work. I knew then that he was lying and they were going there to celebrate her birthday. I wept like I have never done in my life. I pleaded to him not to go, and that it would bring our relationship to an end if he did. He went nevertheless. I was shattered.

I prayed with all my heart and wrote a letter to his ex-wife stating the facts about my marriage and my doubts about my husband two timing us. The post office where I posted the letter had 2 big pictures of Swami.

That evening, I went home, looked at Baba's photo and cried heart wrenchingly like a child. I felt so lonely, alone and cheated for no fault of mine. Just then I happen to switch the TV on and Shirdi Baba's serial had started and Baba was crying about one of his female devotee - how the men take the women for granted and how they hurt them so cruelly for no fault of theirs except for placing their trust in them. He spoke the exact very same words I had just spoken and he too was crying for the plight of that one woman devotee of His.

That moment, is one I will never forget. There was only Sai Baba and me in my house, Baba was talking to me to confirm that He had heard me and he too was crying.

My husband made one more call to me at that very moment to say goodbye from the airport. I told him that he had made this decision consciously and that he has shattered me, but I will be alright as my Swami was with me. He laughed while I cried.

His ex-wife called 2 weeks later when they had come back from their holiday, in receipt of my letter, to confirm that they had been living together and she had no idea we were married. This was a typical case of NRI having one family in India and one abroad and my husband managed to get away with this for 4 years.

I was broken, but atleast I knew the truth. So I let them be, never answered his call or kept in touch for 2 months. I started doing Satcharita parayan, blessed with a visit to Shirdi. My life has never been the same.

2 months later, because of my in-laws, I took my husband's call and he apologized and made amendments. It has been exactly 1 year now. Today, he has relocated to India and works here. In the last 1 year, he has been through such a tough life, that he has humbled almost completely. He has developed very strong faith in Baba. He is a changed man.

My schedule is busy nowadays and I do not have a lot of time to sit and read or do 20 puja like I used to, but not a single moment goes by when I am not thinking about Swami or chanting His name.

My life is a true example of Baba's mantras - Shraddha and Saburi. Hold unto Him and I can assure you with my life, that He will never let you down.

Om Sri Sai Ram!