My sincere apologies

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Good evening Veena ma and ashok ji

 

This email is a personal apology to

amma if I have hurt you

or baba knowingly or unknowingly.

 

To set the context, this is regarding

the amrit vani recitation

happened in Jan-Feb at Hyderabad this year. 

 

Baba was always listening to me and

answering my questions and

concerns. I was always heard by him and helped by him

immediately.

 

When I heard that amrit vani was being

recited at Hyderabad I

was very excited and wanted to be a part of it very much

and attended the same.

 

I sincerely admit to you and SAI that

after amrit vani I was

in a confused state of mind between god and humans. It was

  no doubt a wonderful

experience but I had this haunting feeling at the back of

my mind whether to

believe or not the things that are happening in front of

me.

 

After this incident, BABA has been

very far from me and was

not responding to my prayers. When I went to shirdi I did

not see him around. I

was praying ardently but never saw any response from him.

He did not even help

me when I wanted help.

 

Yesterday, I went to temple and cried

in front of him to

show me why he is not responding. I was sincerely praying

and then this scene

of my attending amrit vani has struck my mind and my mind

suddenly came out of

the agitation I was going through. I understood that my

confusion on " doubting "

during recitation (I 'm sorry to have used this term)

is why sai has

punished me so much. To confirm whether what I understood

was correct or not, I

have asked sai that I should get his Prasad (be a rose,

peda or coconut or anything)

from the pujari in the temple when I go to take darshan. 15

mins back also I prayed

to baba that pujari should give me something if baba is

listening to me. But I did

not get anything. But this time, I prayed to baba if he is

angry for my

doubting that day, I should get some Prasad. And the pujari

has indeed given me

a coconut as Prasad.

 

This confirms that baba is very very

angry with me and I sincerely

apologize to amma by falling at her feet to please accept

my apologies and relieve

me of this pain. Baba has his own ways of teaching their

children and he kept

me away from him for 3 months to teach me this lesson.

 

Amma I whole heartedly accept that

Baba is great and you as

his follower are wonderful.

 

Please do accept my apologies and

acknowledge this mail to assure

me of your acceptance.