Swami's Visit - Simona from NY City

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Sai Ram,

 

Today, I experienced the energy flow of love that works through Baba manifesting through

another physical form...I was in a state of absolute bliss! Our present situation is a test of

absolute FAITH...my mother had stroke two years ago...it happened at 11 pm...many tough

experiences with my mom but I love her unconditional... that morning( the day she had

the stroke) before I left the house to go to work, I wrote my mom a message on our daughter's

board" IF YOU DON'T STOP GOD WILL STOP YOU."

I was at the computer writing when I heard strange noise in her room...it sounded like it

was a frog( I did not see one frog in 20 years here in New York)...I got up from the chair and when

I went in my mom's room it was a horrible vision. Even she was blessed to be called to Swami

years ago and she believed in the power of the divine love, she could not grasp Baba's magnitude.

She accused me of being obsessed with Baba and she told everyone that my daughter is in danger

with such a mother...plus other family issues that tortured my husband and myself. No matter what

she did to us, we took care of her like she was our baby...she was paralyzed on the right side...today

she walks, her right hand does not move but she feels the hand when we touch her. She was a vegetable

for many months...after being so much in hospitals I got into panic attacks myself who I always worked

in the spa industry as a skin care aesthetician and I had many problems with the spa directors because

of the clients' reactions by saying that through my hands they feel flowing powerful love energy like they

never experienced before...it was the time for myself - the strong one to be tested big time! A perfect

awakening to make sure I will always remember that I am only an instrument of divine love.

Since almost two years I do not work...only my husband works and financially we struggle big time!

But many times I found unexpected money in different drawers. Still, it is hard not to worry when I know

how much we owe to the bank. For over one year I practice every single second to live in the NOW moment!

Not easy at all...it involves all Swami's teachings including no desires...no plans ...just BE PRESENT!

I spend long hours in meditation while our daughter is at school and my husband is at work.

This is the moment I'll write you about Swami's visit...today, March 4,2009...two days ago I received

a phone call from a lady who lives in Denver. She left a message on our answering machine that she found

our phone number as the number where my aunt could be found( my aunt had a very good friend who was

Swami's devotee...she merged with Swami 7 years ago) and the woman from Denver was also

a good friend of that lady who passed away 7 yrs ago. That lady who was Swami's devotee( her name was

Lori Gabrielle) gave the woman from Denver a book about Swami. Thinking of Lori who passed away, the book

got down on the floor...the first person that came into her mind in order to connect with and to talk about Lori

was my aunt but the phone number was our number. To make it short it meant to be that this lady from Denver

and I to get connected.

After we spoke on the phone and she told me about her present health situation I offered to mail her some Vibhuti

also a cd and she was so grateful. When my daughter came from school I kindly asked her to drop three

envelopes into the mail box in the corner of the street. Our daughter name is Andra...I heard her name ten years

before she was born to find out later on about Andhra Pradesh...she went and she put the envelopes into the mail box

but not too long after she came back( maybe one hour) somebody rang the bell .During that hour between the

moment Andra came back inside and the moment the bell rang, I was in deep communication with Swami.

I can feel and smell Baba also hear his voice...I even saw him one time in our bedroom and many times giving me

messages in the dream state or deep meditations...even written messages. Well, no matter how many times I asked

Baba about how can I survive in this Maya world without thinking of money...just serving God...I kept hearing on

and on" PATIENCE MY CHILD"...today, with tones of bills on my table I told Baba that I need to work. I heard

" NOT YET"...between my husband being over stressed at work ( half of his department was fired because of

the economy and myself without job all I have is Mother Sai and mother says" NOT YET"...So, while this mental

conversation with Swami took place the bell rang...I went on the window and I saw a stranger showing me a letter.

First, I did not get it but suddenly I recognized as the letter containing Vibhuti, Baba's picture and the cd for the

woman who lives in Denver. I could not believe it my eyes...Andra lost the letter on her way to the mail box and she

she did not even realized it. But that man could easily drop the letter in the mail box, he did not have to look for

the address and bring it back to us. Then. I thought he might expect me to give him something. Andra went

downstairs to take the letter and I told him not to leave until I give him something...I remember he had a very

unusual pendant on his neck...powerful energy...I even told him, you must be an angel! The minute I made a short

move from the window asking Swami what should I give him, I just looked back on the street to make sure he will not

live until I come back from our bedroom with whatever I'll be guided to give him. So, I wanted to tell him again

not to go...it was a matter of a few seconds...when I looked on the street to tell him to wait for me, he vanished

like he was never there. At that moment I knew that Swami visited myself manifesting through another human form.

It was a powerful sign that Baba knows even if an envelope gets lost so why do I worry for worldly situations when

I have the most pure love ever incarnated on this planet and beyond that humans know as Sathya Sai Baba.

I helped so may people and so many stabbed me from behind...hurt left and right...no wonder I got into panic

attacks. But I leaned that suffering is a blessing in disguise and in the meantime I got connected with loving,

generous and kind human beings that we still never met physically only in spirit. All the connections were made

by Swami's grace here in USA, in India and from other parts of the world through the internet.

All I know is that I live the NOW! I have no idea how we'll get out from this situation! If Baba took us

into this challenging situation I believe he will take us through as well. For sure not in our time but God's time!

May this message help all of those who struggle, who are in horrible pain, who are broken-hearted...in one word

all of those who feel that God does not care about them! Be also aware that there are many people claiming to

be Swami's devotee and also serving love who can hurt you big time. I was blessed to experience that part too!

But Baba also says to take bad as a blessing in disguise that helps us raising beyond human limited mind!

Thank God that I am able to open my heart and that very moment when someone does anything that hurts my

feelings I am able to send them unconditional love energy that GOD SIMPLY IS!

 

In Sai Love Service, Simona