Sad:No prasad for me.

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Om sai ram everyone, Last month my brother in law and his family visited Shirdi.I came to know about that while they were already at Shirdi,and somehow I managed to reach their cell ,from California.Since I last visited Shirdi in 2005,(pregnant with second child),I wanted to send Guru dakshina through someone,to Saibaba.I was very thrilled that I could talk to my brother in law and tell him to offer dakshina from my behalf (Which I would give him later).Things all done,they came back from vacation and sent us a parcel( goodies from India).I was desperately waiting for the parcel because I just wanted something from Shirdi(some udi or some prasad).I cried bitterly like a child when there was no sign of prasad,absolutely nothing that Sai baba sent for me(a small pudi of udi was all i

wanted). When my husband was upset that his brother didn't send any prasad,I somehow felt that Was baba angry with me?Why did I never receive any udi from him?Dont I have his grace over me? Since yesterday,I felt very lost,as if there was no guru overhead,and anything untoward can come my way.There was no guru to show me a path. This really disturbed me.Why dint I never receive any prasad?Baba is always in my heart every time I think of him.Where di I need to improve to have his grace?Ratna