An apology to BABA Contributed by Anita, Bahrain

July 13, 2008

An apology to BABA

Dear BABA,

'I' have prayed a lot and 'I' believed that when I prayed, all my problems would

be solved. I kept many fasts. Yet my problems always remained. I was told not to

lose trust in you so I persisted in my prayers. I continued my prayers and my

wish list kept on increasing.

I thought I would be safe if I pray to you, but what is this BABA? I am get

hurt, meet with accidents, fall sick. This is not why I pray to you. I ask you

to take care of 'MY' family but we have some problem or the other with matters

of health, money and studies. But 'WHY' is it so, have 'I' not prayed to you

enough? 'I' keep looking for a decent job and kept 'MY' requests at your feet;

instead I end up doing casual work. Now I am angry with you because YOU do not

answer my prayers. I need to pray to ANOTHER God who listens to me and fulfills

my prayers. The others who NEVER pray to you are always happy, I Pray, yet you

allow me to be miserable?

Are you talking to me? I hear words in the wind, is that you BABA? Ok now that I

said I will stop praying to you and look for comfort elsewhere you have decided

to talk to me? I am listening

Oh! I am so ashamed of my behavior BABA. I have been so selfish all these days.

I prayed to you with a selfish intention, yet you held me close to your heart. I

asked for things, which were small, yet I did not see beyond my wishes. You gave

me better things in life yet I held a grudge for little things and did not

appreciate the bigger things.

You never let me starve and always gave me a job either casual or otherwise yet

I have been ungrateful to you. When I fell down and had the accident you rescued

me and bore the pain of the impact otherwise I would have been crippled for

life. I escaped with a bruise and worked out my karma.

When things were not going the way I wanted them to, I did not realise you had

better plans for me. I only kept the negatives in my heart and forgot to thank

you. I did not realise that what I wanted and you did not give it to me is what

I did not need.

You always took care of my family and protected and guided them. Hence, they

were able to overcome their weaknesses and be stronger and successful in every

venture. The failures you gave me BABA, I now realize, are stepping stones to

make me resilient, strong and capable to survive in this harsh competitive

world. When I did casual jobs you wanted to break my ego and respect every work.

Yet I did not know your intentions.

When I hurled abuses at you for not listening to MY prayers and not being

sensitive to MY needs you still kept holding me and consoled me during times of

disappointment by giving little surprises which I took for granted.

BABA, today I realised how selfish I am. This note is to apologise to you for my

selfishness, for my narrow minded views, for not taking everything in my life as

your wish, as you wanted me to be better person. From now on I will not wail,

let your will prevail. After all I am your child and you are my parent, how can

you see me suffer? I will do my duty. I leave the result in your hands. I accept

your judgment and gratefully accept your decisions. I will be disappointed for

sure when I do not get what I aim for, but I ask you to give me the strength to

get over my disappointments and never give up perseverance. Thank you for every

meal, thank you for every failure. Thank you for NOT fulfilling all my wishes

for I know you have a bigger plan for my future.

Humble pranams

Your daughter

Anita

Bahrain

July 18, 2008

Tht's so nice of u anitha,u taught me how to apologize to baba--- On Sun, 7/13/08, swamy mahadevan <mahadevanvnswamy wrote:

swamy mahadevan <mahadevanvnswamy An apology to BABA Contributed by Anita, Bahrain"" Sunday, July 13, 2008, 9:55 AM

An apology to BABADear BABA,'I' have prayed a lot and 'I' believed that when I prayed, all my problems would be solved. I kept many fasts. Yet my problems always remained. I was told not to lose trust in you so I persisted in my prayers. I continued my prayers and my wish list kept on increasing. I thought I would be safe if I pray to you, but what is this BABA? I am get hurt, meet with accidents, fall sick. This is not why I pray to you. I ask you to take care of 'MY' family but we have some problem or the other with matters of health, money and studies. But 'WHY' is it so, have 'I' not prayed to you enough? 'I' keep looking for a decent job and kept 'MY' requests at your feet; instead I end up doing casual work. Now I am angry with you because YOU do not answer my prayers. I need to pray to ANOTHER God who listens to me and fulfills my prayers. The others who NEVER pray to you are always happy, I Pray, yet you allow me to

be miserable?Are you talking to me? I hear words in the wind, is that you BABA? Ok now that I said I will stop praying to you and look for comfort elsewhere you have decided to talk to me? I am listeningOh! I am so ashamed of my behavior BABA. I have been so selfish all these days. I prayed to you with a selfish intention, yet you held me close to your heart. I asked for things, which were small, yet I did not see beyond my wishes. You gave me better things in life yet I held a grudge for little things and did not appreciate the bigger things. You never let me starve and always gave me a job either casual or otherwise yet I have been ungrateful to you. When I fell down and had the accident you rescued me and bore the pain of the impact otherwise I would have been crippled for life. I escaped with a bruise and worked out my karma. When things were not going the way I wanted them to, I did not realise you had better plans

for me. I only kept the negatives in my heart and forgot to thank you. I did not realise that what I wanted and you did not give it to me is what I did not need. You always took care of my family and protected and guided them. Hence, they were able to overcome their weaknesses and be stronger and successful in every venture. The failures you gave me BABA, I now realize, are stepping stones to make me resilient, strong and capable to survive in this harsh competitive world. When I did casual jobs you wanted to break my ego and respect every work. Yet I did not know your intentions. When I hurled abuses at you for not listening to MY prayers and not being sensitive to MY needs you still kept holding me and consoled me during times of disappointment by giving little surprises which I took for granted.BABA, today I realised how selfish I am. This note is to apologise to you for my selfishness, for my narrow minded views, for not

taking everything in my life as your wish, as you wanted me to be better person. From now on I will not wail, let your will prevail. After all I am your child and you are my parent, how can you see me suffer? I will do my duty. I leave the result in your hands. I accept your judgment and gratefully accept your decisions. I will be disappointed for sure when I do not get what I aim for, but I ask you to give me the strength to get over my disappointments and never give up perseverance. Thank you for every meal, thank you for every failure. Thank you for NOT fulfilling all my wishes for I know you have a bigger plan for my future. Humble pranamsYour daughter AnitaBahrain

July 21, 2008

A very well true apology... reading till the end of the apology letter, had a tear in my eye... such a pure apology... and made me realize that probably at in numerous times i must have also forgotten to thank BABA and for those harsh words that came out of me due to my impatience...

Sorry BABA and Thank You BABA for being there for me, my family and for all of us in this day in age where divinity is most wanted... BABA kiminaOn Fri, Jul 18, 2008 at 10:25 AM, sai bhavani <bhavanikiran234 wrote:

Tht's so nice of u anitha,u taught me how to apologize to baba--- On Sun, 7/13/08, swamy mahadevan <mahadevanvnswamy wrote:

swamy mahadevan <mahadevanvnswamy An apology to BABA Contributed by Anita, Bahrain

" " Sunday, July 13, 2008, 9:55 AM

An apology to BABADear BABA,'I' have prayed a lot and 'I' believed that when I prayed, all my problems would be solved. I kept many fasts. Yet my problems always remained. I was told not to lose trust in you so I persisted in my prayers. I continued my prayers and my wish list kept on increasing.

I thought I would be safe if I pray to you, but what is this BABA? I am get hurt, meet with accidents, fall sick. This is not why I pray to you. I ask you to take care of 'MY' family but we have some problem or the other with matters of health, money and studies. But 'WHY' is it so, have 'I' not prayed to you enough? 'I' keep looking for a decent job and kept 'MY' requests at your feet; instead I end up doing casual work. Now I am angry with you because YOU do not answer my prayers. I need to pray to ANOTHER God who listens to me and fulfills my prayers. The others who NEVER pray to you are always happy, I Pray, yet you allow me to

be miserable?Are you talking to me? I hear words in the wind, is that you BABA? Ok now that I said I will stop praying to you and look for comfort elsewhere you have decided to talk to me? I am listening

Oh! I am so ashamed of my behavior BABA. I have been so selfish all these days. I prayed to you with a selfish intention, yet you held me close to your heart. I asked for things, which were small, yet I did not see beyond my wishes. You gave me better things in life yet I held a grudge for little things and did not appreciate the bigger things.

You never let me starve and always gave me a job either casual or otherwise yet I have been ungrateful to you. When I fell down and had the accident you rescued me and bore the pain of the impact otherwise I would have been crippled for life. I escaped with a bruise and worked out my karma.

When things were not going the way I wanted them to, I did not realise you had better plans

for me. I only kept the negatives in my heart and forgot to thank you. I did not realise that what I wanted and you did not give it to me is what I did not need. You always took care of my family and protected and guided them. Hence, they were able to overcome their weaknesses and be stronger and successful in every venture. The failures you gave me BABA, I now realize, are stepping stones to make me resilient, strong and capable to survive in this harsh competitive world. When I did casual jobs you wanted to break my ego and respect every work. Yet I did not know your intentions.

When I hurled abuses at you for not listening to MY prayers and not being sensitive to MY needs you still kept holding me and consoled me during times of disappointment by giving little surprises which I took for granted.

BABA, today I realised how selfish I am. This note is to apologise to you for my selfishness, for my narrow minded views, for not

taking everything in my life as your wish, as you wanted me to be better person. From now on I will not wail, let your will prevail. After all I am your child and you are my parent, how can you see me suffer? I will do my duty. I leave the result in your hands. I accept your judgment and gratefully accept your decisions. I will be disappointed for sure when I do not get what I aim for, but I ask you to give me the strength to get over my disappointments and never give up perseverance. Thank you for every meal, thank you for every failure. Thank you for NOT fulfilling all my wishes for I know you have a bigger plan for my future.

Humble pranamsYour daughter AnitaBahrain