A dream about Sadhana

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What!? Was that only a dream? It had seemed so real! So clear! So alive!

 

Ma and I were sitting in the first line of Darshan in Kulwant Hall, and Swami came walking to us slowly and gently, in a deep orange, almost red robe. When He came to me, I caught hold of both His feet and fell on them, and didn't want to let them go. Swami bent down and slowly lifted me up, and gathered me to Himself in a long, loving embrace, and held me there for a long time. I felt His crinkly hair brush my cheek as He whispered, "You have been doing Sadhana, I know, I know".

 

It was an early morning dream and I woke up right after that. I couldn't believe that I wasn't at Prashanti Nilayam, sitting in a Darshan line, and that Swami wasn't embracing me - it had seemed so real! But then if Swami chose to come to me in a dream, it was real! His touch was real, His speech was real, His smile was real - I felt it. I was blessed with His Darshan, Sparshan and Sambhashan!

 

I was recently telling myself that whatever I do is not for want of something, or for results - my responsibility is to do my Sadhana (even that is too big a word for what I do). But whatever I do, I only do it for the love of Swami - I love spending time with Him. I try to meditate, sing Bhajans, read books, talk to Him, say prayers - whatever feels right that day. I just do it because I love doing it. But today He acknowledged me and what I do, and even gave it a name - Sadhana - it sounds so pretty. Today He acknowledged that He knows and notices. Today He gave me a reason to go on loving Him even though I thought I didn't need results. Today He showed me the love of a mother, a warm embrace, and a sweet smile, in return for the love I pour out to Him each day.

 

Om Sai Ram.