My journal: I'll never let go of His feet again!

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Ours was the first class to go to the 12th grade in Swami’s Primary School. Up until then, it had only gone up to the 10th. Munni Aunty [the Principal] asked Swami if He would give us all an interview before the board exams, to bless us, before we all found our ways into the outside world, and He agreed. We were ecstatic.

 

He kept His word, and called us in. We all piled in, a mass of white, into the little interview room. Swami barely had room to walk to his chair, because we had crowded around it so tightly. I don’t remember most of what He said, but He asked a few questions, and responded to some of the questions some of the girls asked. The only thing I remember Him saying was that once we passed out of the school, we’d all go out into the world and forget Swami. We all were shocked to hear Him say that, and said ‘No way Swami, we’ll never forget you’. He said ‘You’ll see’, and at the end of the interview He gave us all padnamaskars and packets of vibhuti to take back with us.

 

All the girls did well in the exams, and passed out successfully. Some of them went on to the Anantapur College, and some like me went to other schools and colleges. But after we all got our degrees and moved on with our lives, it turned out just like He said – I forgot Him. Well, not exactly forget, but other priorities took precedence. Families, kids, jobs, careers, problems, ambitions, they all took precedence. So much so that I drowned in them. For a long while, I was drowning, barely afloat, so intent on keeping afloat that I forgot Swami, or to pray. How foolish!

 

The only way to keep afloat on the ocean of Samsara is by hanging on to His feet. It took me 15 years to even open my eyes, to look around me, and find His feet again! But now that I’ve found them, I’ll never let go of them. Now that I found them again, I know that’s all that matters – the jobs, the careers, the ambitions, the problems, the families – none of those matter. Those are all ruses to pass time, give the mind something to hang on to. The only thing that mattered ever, and matters forever, is the soul, and its connection to God. Now that I’ve re-found that bond, my only goal in life is to make it stronger and tighter, until no space exists.

 

Iha Samsare Bahu Dustaare

Kripaya paare Paahi Muraare

 

Bhaja Govindam, Bhaja Govindam

Govindam Bhaja Moodhamate

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Sairam,

It was such a co-incidenc I was also thinking about the same...This is very true...

Sairam

On Thu, Mar 5, 2009 at 7:10 PM, <SaiSravanthi> wrote:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ours was the first class to go to the 12th grade in Swami’s Primary School. Up until then, it had only gone up to the 10th. Munni Aunty [the Principal] asked Swami if He would give us all an interview before the board exams, to bless us, before we all found our ways into the outside world, and He agreed. We were ecstatic.

 

He kept His word, and called us in. We all piled in, a mass of white, into the little interview room. Swami barely had room to walk to his chair, because we had crowded around it so tightly. I don’t remember most of what He said, but He asked a few questions, and responded to some of the questions some of the girls asked. The only thing I remember Him saying was that once we passed out of the school, we’d all go out into the world and forget Swami. We all were shocked to hear Him say that, and said ‘No way Swami, we’ll never forget you’. He said ‘You’ll see’, and at the end of the interview He gave us all padnamaskars and packets of vibhuti to take back with us.

 

All the girls did well in the exams, and passed out successfully. Some of them went on to the Anantapur College, and some like me went to other schools and colleges. But after we all got our degrees and moved on with our lives, it turned out just like He said – I forgot Him. Well, not exactly forget, but other priorities took precedence. Families, kids, jobs, careers, problems, ambitions, they all took precedence. So much so that I drowned in them. For a long while, I was drowning, barely afloat, so intent on keeping afloat that I forgot Swami, or to pray. How foolish!

 

The only way to keep afloat on the ocean of Samsara is by hanging on to His feet. It took me 15 years to even open my eyes, to look around me, and find His feet again! But now that I’ve found them, I’ll never let go of them. Now that I found them again, I know that’s all that matters – the jobs, the careers, the ambitions, the problems, the families – none of those matter. Those are all ruses to pass time, give the mind something to hang on to. The only thing that mattered ever, and matters forever, is the soul, and its connection to God. Now that I’ve re-found that bond, my only goal in life is to make it stronger and tighter, until no space exists.

 

Iha Samsare Bahu Dustaare

Kripaya paare Paahi Muraare

 

Bhaja Govindam, Bhaja Govindam

Govindam Bhaja Moodhamate