RAMAKATHA RASAVAHINI – PART –7

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Om Sri Sai Ram

 

RAMAKATHA RASAVAHINI – PART –7

The Rama Story, Stream of Sacred Sweetness

As told by the Divine Lord Himself in the present Avatar as Bhagawan

Sri Sathya Sai Baba

 

The Two Boons

 

The cruel bolts that rained on him crushed the Emperor. Was it a

dream! Could it be true! Was it Kaikeyi who asked for these boons?

Or, was it a bloodthirsty monster? Could it be a terrible

hallucination of his? Was it a vile trick played by some horrid

illness? He could not gauge! So, he cried, " Kaika! Is it you, there?

Or is it some ogress who has assumed your form? Tell me first who you

are " . Like a person who has lost control of his limbs, he tottered

unable to mouth the words he wished to speak. He rolled listlessly

from side to side like mad, his eyes looking wildly all around.

Suddenly, sparks flew from his eyes as he gazed at Kaikeyi. He

exclaimed in terrible anger, " Vile woman! What exactly is your aim?

Is it to uproot the entire royal line? What injury has my dear son

Rama done to you? He loves you even more than he does his own mother.

How could your heart agree to send my Rama into thick dark jungle? It

took you so long to be a Princess; now, I find you are a venomous

cobra; I allowed you to infest my home, out of sheer ignorance. How

could such a sinful idea enter your head, when Rama, the very breath

of my life, is being acclaimed by every being that breathes? If

imperative, I am prepared to give up the empire or even my life; but,

I cannot give up Rama; no. You crave that your son be hailed as

Emperor. Well; have him so. I shall go to the forest, with Kausalya,

Sumithra and others, taking my Rama with me. But, I can never send

Rama alone into the jungle. That is impossible. Give up this

atrociously sinful desire. Give up the hatred of Rama that you have

cultivated. Kaika! Tell me frankly do you really desire that these

things take place? Or, is all this merely a stratagem to find out

whether I have affection towards your son, Bharata? If so, you can

ask that Bharata be crowned Yuvaraja; but there is no meaning in

asking that Rama be exiled into the forest. Such a desire should not

be entertained or expressed lightly. Kaika! Rama is the first-born

son. He is the repository of all virtues. The years of his reign will

be most glorious; you have told me often that you are looking forward

to the time when such golden dreams will come true. And, now you want

that this self-same Rama should be sent into the forest! What is the

deeper meaning of this request? Are you joking with me? If it is all

a joke, why this scene in the Hall of Anger? Why this rolling on the

hard stone floor? Jokes too have limits beyond which they become

pitifully cruel. I cannot entertain the idea, even as a joke. No. I

can never be separated from Rama. Kaika! You have been behaving like

an intelligent woman all these years. But now, your intelligence has

become crooked and wicked. Such perversions are always harbingers of

self-destruction. It is a heinous sin to injure the good. Of course,

these tactics will not affect the good; the stratagems of the wicked

will only promote the fame and glory of the good. They might appear

hard to bear, only for some little time " .

 

" Your wicked plans appear to me to be fraught with disaster to the

Ikshwaku dynasty itself. For, until this moment, you have never

spoken an unpleasant word or thought of an inauspicious act. I find

it impossible to believe that it is the same one who is asking me

such things today! Kaika! You were all along afraid of transgressing

the Codes of moral law; you were anxious to win the Grace of God by

means of each little thought, word and deed. Where has that fear of

unrighteousness gone now? What have you done with that devotion to

God that kept you on the path of righteousness? "

 

" What is the gain you look for when you want Rama to be sent to the

forest for fourteen years? His body is soft and tender, like the

petal of a freshly blossomed flower; he is most charming to behold.

Rama is so enticingly beautiful. Of what profit is it for you if he

suffers unbearable pangs of pain in the forest? In this palace, there

are many thousand attendants and maids. Can any one of them point a

finger at him and say, that he is faulty in any respect? Well. Leave

alone our palace. Can you bring from the capital city any single

person; can you name anyone who blames Rama? He has discovered many

in misery and relieved them with gifts and riches; he has shown great

consideration for them. He has noticed many those are homeless and

provided them with houses. By his love and care, he has won the

affection of all people. That you should harbor hate against such a

lovable son strikes me dumb; I cannot find words to describe your

devilish cruelty. "

 

" There are many who exploit their own subjects, and act only to

foster their own selfish interests; such demons are appearing in good

numbers today. But, in your eyes, due perhaps to the age, or your own

past sins, persons who assuage the wrongs done to the poor and the

distressed and foster their advancement, those who directly inquire

into their difficulties and problems and afford relief, such good men

appear bad, deserving exile and punishment! "

 

" Every one in this empire relishes listening to the virtues of Rama

and takes great delight in recounting his goodness. While they feel

exhausted in the fields, farmers and laborers sing songs on Rama and

his charms, to make their tasks lighter; when I came to know of this,

I was filled with joy. How can your heart agree to inflict on such a

compassionate soul this excruciating sentence? This very evening,

when I placed before a gathering of sages, elders, ministers, leading

citizens, scholars and many experts in statecraft, the proposal for

the Coronation of Rama, no one raised a note of dissatisfaction or

dissent. On the other hand, they praised Rama in countless ways, and

declared that it was the fruit of the merit that they had accumulated

in many past lives that they could now secure as Heir-apparent and

lord a spiritual hero who had mastered his senses, an embodiment of

selfless activity, intelligent detachment and unflinching loyalty to

Truth; they indicated their joy by continuous Jay Jays. Is this

treasure of my love, this favorite of my people, whom you seek to

send into the forest? Whatever you may say, this is certain. I will

not send my Rama into the forest. And listen to this also. The

coronation of Rama shall take place tomorrow; it cannot be

cancelled " . Dasaratha announced this, in an outburst of pride and

courage.

 

At this, Kaikeyi assumed a terrific mien and retorted: " Maharaja!

Remember, a few moments ago, you vowed under many oaths that you

would grant me the boons I ask. And, now you are going back on your

word. Now, who is dragging the glory of the Ikshwaku Line in the

dust, you or me? Ponder over this. It is the pride of the Ikshwaku

Line that no one of that dynasty shall go back on his word once it is

given. You are now soiling that fair fame. Without weighing the pros

and cons, you promised to grant without fail the boons I wanted. The

mistake, if any, is yours, not mine. You gave me the boons; then, you

promised to grant them today. You are the very person who gave your

word twice. Consider your honour, your status, your dignity, when you

deny the very words you spoke then and now. "

 

" It may be common usage for rulers to injure and insult the weak, and

act contrary to promises solemnly made. But, it cannot promote self-

respect. Those who break their promises and cheat women are savages,

not sovereigns. When rulers slide into this savagery, the subjects

will naturally resent and revolt; the kingdom will fast become demon

Dom! "

 

" All these years, you have striven to acquire honour and renown; and

you have won them to a large extent. Now the infamy of breaking the

plighted word is on your head, not on mine. Recollect the careers of

the kings of old. Take good care that you do not act counter to your

vows and oaths. Ponder well. You are proceeding along a path that is

atrociously bad! Beware! You are moving against the dictates of

Dharma. Well. Were you as intelligent as you are reputed to be, you

should have first ascertained fully the nature of the boons I wanted

before you gave the promise. You did not look before and after; you

were enchanted by my words and you gave word that they shall be

granted. And now, you blame me when I ask you to fulfill that

promise! Consider how seriously you are mistaken in this! How foolish

you proclaim yourself to be! You accuse me for having given up my

fear of the unrighteous act, my devotion to the Divine, and my

courting this reprehensible cruelty. But, what about you? You are

acclaimed as Dharmavratha (a strict adherent of the vow to be

righteous in word, thought and deed), and Daiva-samaana (equal to a

God); what name can you claim now when you are going back on your

oath? Pronounce judgment on yourself. The cleverness that dives and

discovers the faults of those before you isn't commendable; if one

dives into one's own faults and failings and is vigilant that they do

not lead him astray into wrong and sin, that way of using of

intelligence is commendable. Kings and rulers are highly intelligent;

they are taken to be all knowing. If such as you do not benefit by

self-examination, but are concerned only with selfish interests, what

right have you to blame us as selfish and narrow-minded? You granted

the boons; it is a fact. You took an oath; it is a fact. You broke

the oath; you went back on the given word, it is a fact. Reflect

within yourself whether these three are true or not. You are deluded

by attachment to the son; you were enslaved by fondness for the wife.

So, you dump your promise into the waters! I am not the culprit; it

is you who have done wrong. For, it is natural for a mother to be

attached to her son. Every woman who is a mother will yearn that her

son must rise to a position of the highest authority, that of the

Monarch of the Realm. It is the prompting of Nature. It is her

bounden duty to see that her plan is unassailed by others; it is only

natural that she plans in advance to counteract all possible

assailments. I am only carrying out my natural duties and

responsibilities, remember; there is nothing unnatural or wrong in my

conduct. "

 

" When Rama is crowned as Heir-Apparent, his mother Kausalya will

become the Rajamatha, the Queen-Mother. My son will stand with folded

arms, awaiting the command of Rama, ready to run errands for him. He

will fall at the feet of Rama, while reporting to him about the task

he has accomplished for him; maybe, he will be reprimanded. No; I

cannot be a witness to such scenes; I will be so humiliated that I

cannot live a day longer. Better far to drink poison now and die than

look on at the shameful condition of my son. I am declaring this, as

a solemn oath, taken in the name of my son Bharatha, whom I value as

much as my breath. I shall not be satisfied with anything less than

exiling Rama to the forest. "

 

With these agonizingly harsh words, Kaikeyi fell on the floor, and

started sobbing and groaning in a fit of heartrending sorrow.

 

Dasaratha beat his head in despair. He said, " Kaika! Has anyone

advised you that this calamity will benefit you? Or, has some evil

spirit possessed you, and forced you to utter these desires? What is

this absurdity, this ridiculous madness, sending Rama into the forest

and crowning Bharatha? Why not wish well for your husband, for

Bharatha your son, this Kingdom of Ayodhya, and me? Give up this

desire fraught with certain calamity. Think deeply over the

consequences. Or else, you and I, and your son, all three, will

become targets for the direst infamy. It will not end with that. The

entire kingdom will be ruined, and many more tragedies are bound to

take place. Mean, degraded woman! Can we ever believe that Bharatha

will agree to get himself crowned, even if I now accept your request

and promise to do so? Bharatha is a true adherent of Dharma; he is

intelligent and a model of rectitude. He will not agree either to

exiling Rama into the forest or to himself becoming the Heir-

Apparent. Not he alone, but, the Ministers, the Courtiers, the

Vassals, the Allies, the Sages, the Commons, the Citizens - every one

will oppose your desire. How can you be happy when so many are

unhappy? "

 

" Consider the situation you are responsible for! The elders and sages

endorsed it; they were all of one mind. This evening, at the Grand

Assembly of Citizens, I announced that I shall celebrate the

Coronation of Rama. If I act counter to that Announcement, I will be

counted as a coward who runs back from the battlefield at the sight

of the enemy. All arrangements have been completed for the

Coronation. All have been informed about the Festival. The people

have started preparing the City for the Celebration; the streets are

already packed with happy throngs, with faces shining in expectant

joy. At this moment, if I send Rama into the forest, will not the

people laugh at me, saying, 'What! This man has finished three

chapters - the Coronation, the Rulership of the Realm and the Exile -

all in one single night!' In what manner can I explain my action to

them, after what I had publicly declared in the midst of the mammoth

gathering of the populace? How harshly the people will blame me,

feeling that their king is such a big fool. I ruled over them all

these long years and won their applause as a consistent adherent of

Dharma, as an embodiment of high virtues and as a redoubtable hero,

brave and full of courage. But now, how can I bear the dishonour of

being talked about as a fool, who plunged into this low level of

conduct? "

 

Dasaratha spoke in this strain, reminding her of the hard blow that

his fair name and unblemished fame will receive if he acts according

to her desire. Nevertheless, Kaikeyi transformed herself into a

Demoness of Destruction, and brushed aside Dasaratha's importunities,

as if they were empty words and she did not attach any value to them.

She refused to yield or loosen her hold. On the other hand, her grip

became tighter every moment, her greed more deep-rooted. She spoke

quite contrary to the appeals of the Maharaja and insisted on

reminding him only of the promise from which he threatened to resile.

So, Dasaratha said, " Kaika! If it happens that Rama goes to the

forest, I will not be able to live a moment longer. And, I need not

tell you what will happen to Kausalya. She will draw her last breath

that very moment. And, Sita? She will be mortally shocked; she cannot

live even for a second away from Rama. Will the people look upon all

this with equanimity? When the great hero, the paragon of wisdom,

Rama, is being sent as an exile into the forest, can Lakshmana keep

quiet? Why detail a thousand things? The very next moment, Lakshmana

will cast off his body. This is the bare truth. Thus, our Kingdom

will have to suffer all these catastrophes and calamities. You too

are aware of this string of tragedies; but I cannot understand why

you are attempting, with eyes open, to win a widow's role? O, wicked,

vile soul! I was deceived by your charms; it was like cutting one's

own throat while charmed by a sword of gold. I drank the cup of milk,

unaware that it had poison in it. You cheated me, with many a winsome

trick. At last, you have planned to consign to the dust my dynasty

itself. Shame on me! What a fool I am! I secured this son, after

performing a scriptural Yaga (Sacrifice); Divine Grace gave Him unto

me. Am I to barter away his fortune and his future for the paltry

pleasure a woman gave me? Is this worthy of His Majesty Emperor

Dasaratha? Will not the meanest being in my kingdom hurl stones at

me, in derision? Alas! Is this to be the fate of Dasaratha in his

last days? I clasped a thing round my own neck, not realizing that it

was a rope that strangles. I never knew that it was the Deity of

Death with whom I dallied and diverted myself so long. Alas! I

flirted with Death and fondled it on my breast. I treated her as my

favorite, comrade and companion. It is surely the weight of my sins

recoiling on me now. Or else, was there anywhere, at any time, a

father, who, for the sake of a woman's bed drives his son into the

fearful forest, as an exile? "

 

" Ah! What strange behaviour is this, of a human being! I am unable to

believe this, in spite of everything. Kaika! Change your foolish

thought. Rama will not go against any word of mine. The mere report

of these happenings is enough. He will prepare himself to move into

the forest! He will not even ask the question, why are you anxious to

send me into the jungle! He is of such sterling virtue. Why mention

only Rama! No one of my sons will disobey any of my commands. "

 

" Bharatha will be disgusted when he hears of your plan. He may even

ignore the fact that you are his mother and behave quite

inexplicably. He may be ready for any dire step. Rama is his very

life, his vital breaths, all the five put together. He may do

something to defeat your pet desire. That is to say, he may exile

himself into the forest and ask that Rama be crowned. He is of that

stamp of goodness and rectitude. I am wondering at your crooked

intellect, which cannot grasp the workings of Bharatha's mind. Kaika!

Wicked designs are precursors of self-destruction, as the saying

goes. This design has entered your head; presaging your ruination,

remember. You are bringing on the fair name of the Ikshwaku Royal

family an indelible blot; you are plunging so many into fathomless

depths of grief; you are bringing about their end. Can so many lives

be hurt for the sake of this fell desire? What happiness do you hope

to have, after perpetrating all this? "

 

" Even if you do achieve your goal, will that be Ananda? Can you call

it so? O Shame! Those who exult over the sorrows of others are in

truth sinners of the darkest hue, of demonic brood. Those who strive

to cause joy to others, those who yearn that others be happy, they

are the holy ones. You are a Queen; you are a Princess, of Royalty

born; yet, you are not conscious of this elementary truth. You are a

disgrace to royal blood. One final word! Rama is my very life.

Without him, I cannot hold on to life. No! I cannot continue to live.

He will not disappoint you; so, though I may not order him by word of

my own mouth to go into the forest, he may, on hearing of my oath and

your desire, himself proceed thereto, in order to make my word valid;

he will brook no delay or debate. As soon as I hear news of that

event, know that I draw my last breath. Lakshmana, Sita, and Kausalya

may, in all likelihood, follow Rama. Kausalya cannot exist alive,

apart from Rama. Sita will not stay away from Rama. Lakshmana cannot

walk except along the footsteps of Rama. Urmila too may proceed along

with Lakshmana into exile. There will be none here then, to perform

the funeral rites of this body, and days will elapse to get Bharatha

and Satrughna from the Kekaya Kingdom. Till then, this will have to

lie without the ceremonial. Perhaps, the people will rise against me

for having descended to this low level of wickedness and condemn my

body to be thrown as carrion for crows and vultures, since it does

not deserve decent disposal. Perhaps, no; for, my subjects will wait

until Bharatha arrives, embalming the corpse by some means or other.

Bharatha will never agree to accept the throne and be King. Under

such circumstances, he is not entitled to touch the body or perform

the funeral rites. Come! At least, promise me that you will have my

funeral rites performed by him " , he pleaded. He said, " Of course, I

am sure you are ready to promise me so; for, you are after the Ananda

you hope to derive from a widow's life. What is it that you hope for,

tell me, O vile viper! You have turned into a demon, at last! Are you

undermining and laying under the earth, the Raghu Clan, this Royal

Line? Is this the upsurge of your basic nature? Or, is it some

mysterious Divine fate that dogs your thought and forces you to act

against your will in this strange way? I find it beyond me to gauge

the secret. "

 

While Dasaratha was being tortured in mind like this, the night

rolled on into its third quarter. He groaned like a man in great pain

afflicted with some mortal illness. He was caught in the coils of

agony.

 

Dasaratha tried his best, now, to win the affections of Kaikeyi and

persuade her to accept the Coronation of Rama; he began to flatter

her, in honeyed words. " O, Queen! You are the very embodiment of

auspiciousness and prosperity. I treated you so long as my very

breath. You too fostered and guarded me as if I was your very heart.

Come, let us spend the remaining years without giving room for

scandals about differences between us; let us be peaceful and happy

during the rest of our allotted lives. O, Charming Princess! I will

not live many years more. Throughout my life, I was famed as a steady

adherent of Truth, and all men honoured me on that account. I have

sworn at the public gathering that Rama will be crowned tomorrow as

Heir-apparent. Consider how my subjects will despise me, if the

function does not take place! Consider how they will cast insults at

me! You saved me that day, during the battle between the Gods and the

Demons. Are you giving me up now, when something worse is threatening

me? This is not just or proper. Well, I shall endow on you this

entire kingdom as dowry. Crown Rama, yourself, tomorrow. Bharatha too

will be very happy if you do this. Not merely he; ministers, sages,

elders, scholars, common citizens, the entire populace will

appreciate and thank you for this. Your fame will last eternally on

this earth. Instead, if you create obstacles in the way of Rama's

Coronation, the whole world will castigate and condemn you. Even your

son will find fault with you and fall foul of you. Your cruel fancy

will bring ruin on you; besides, it will cover this royal line with

shame. You will become the target of the 'Fie' that the smallest of

the land will fling at you. Reflect over these possibilities! Earn

eternal renown; stop the stratagem to prevent the coronation. Crown

Rama with your own hands, tomorrow! "

 

Dasaratha described the joy she could derive from this generous act

in sweet enticing words, artfully put together. He hoped to enrapture

her at the prospect of herself crowning the Heir-apparent; but

Kaikeyi interrupted him, and said, " King Your words strike me as

strange and meaningless. You are trying to slide back from the

promise made on oath; to cover up your sin, you are spinning

fascinating yarns! No. A thousand such tricks will not induce me to

change my stand. You said, on your own, 'Ask the boons you desire; I

shall grant them', and, now instead of acting on that promise, you

exhibit a fine bunch of sighs and groans. This does not become you.

You are, by your own conduct, undermining your reputation and honour.

I am not in the least responsible for this distress of yours.

Recollect the pronouncements of those who are masters of Dharma, that

Sathya (Truth) is the Parama (Highest) Dharma (Principle of

Righteousness). I, too, have based my request for the promised boons

on the same principle of Dharma. And as befits a follower of Dharma,

you, too, agreed and said, 'Right! They shall be granted'.

Nevertheless, you have started imputing motives to me, that I am

thrusting you into unrighteousness, that I am set upon committing an

unpardonable sin that I am attempting to bring lasting infamy on your

name! This is most improper; it is thoroughly unjustifiable. "

 

" I am absolutely innocent of any wrong, in this affair. You made the

solemn promise without a thought on the past or the future, and, when

that promise had to be put into action, you suddenly become confused

and desperate. The fault is yours, not mine. Those who promise and

are not willing to act accordingly are sinners of great magnitude.

Act as the promise directs you to; then, the Truth you have

maintained will itself wash off any related sin. Don't you remember?

In the past, Emperor Sibi sliced flesh from his own body as food for

an eagle pursuing a dove for prey! So too, Emperor Alarka had pledged

his word that he would give whatever was asked from him; he was a

king of unique splendor. And to keep up his promise, he plucked and

gave a Brahmin his own two eyes! Look at the Ocean. It is the Lord of

all the Rivers; yet, bound by Its Vow, It limits Itself between the

shores, instead of transgressing them. Why repeat a thousand

examples? For all things, for all men, Truth is the highest

authority; the highest ideal. Truth is Brahman. Truth is the Primeval

Sound. It is Dharma. Truth alone undergoes no change or diminution.

Royal Majesties like you should not give up the Imperishable for the

sake of the perishable. Hold fast to the promise you made, and ensure

lasting fame and glory for yourself. That is the right thing to do.

Do not yield to delusive attachments to the son, deceptive sympathy

for women; do not over-rule the dictates of political idealism and

royal obligation. Do not tarnish the Ikshwaku Dynasty with

irredeemable dishonour! "

 

" Don't play otherwise; call Rama to your side and tell him to get

ready to proceed to the forest, and set on foot preparations to call

Bharatha from where he is now to this City. Instruct the Minister

concerned to attend to these matters without delay. See! The eastern

sky is getting bright. These two boons must be realized before dawn.

However long you argue, I will be content with no less. If, on the

other hand, you are adamant and you consummate the Coronation of

Rama, I am determined to end my life in full view of the thickly

packed Assembly. This is my vow; this shall happen. "

 

Dasaratha watched Kaikeyi raging and swearing, angry and fearful; he

could neither demonstrate the rage that was surging within him, nor

could he suppress it. He was like Emperor Bali who promised three

feet of land to God (in the form of Vamana) but, discovered that he

could not fulfill that promise, for Vamana measured the entire earth

with one foot, the entire sky with another foot, and stood asking for

the third foot of land, that had been gifted to Him! Dasaratha

dreaded the curse that awaited him, for breaking the rules of Dharma.

His eyes were dimmed with doubt and despair. His head became heavy on

the shoulders. He fell on the floor, were he stood. At last,

mustering up some courage, he shouted, " O Sinful Woman! If the

Coronation of Rama is cancelled, my death is a certainty. After that,

you can rule over this kingdom, as a widow, as freely as you wish " .

Giving vent to his anger in this strain, Dasaratha cried out, " Alas!

Rama! Has it come to this that I have to send you, with my own

consent, into the forest? No, I will not send you. I will rather give

up my life; I cannot keep alive a moment, apart from you. O, vicious

demon! How could your heart entertain the plan of sending my lovely

and tender Rama into the thick dark wild jungle? Horrid Fury! What a

Monster have you become! " And, with that, Dasaratha swooned, and soon

lost consciousness.

 

Night was melting before the brightening dawn. The Nine Instruments

of Music at the palace gate heralded the Day of Joy. The roads

started getting the showers of rosewater. The air was thick with

fragrance and festive noise. The sky was charged with hope and

excitement. The constellation Pushya rose as the Star of the day. The

sage Vasishta proceeded with his group of disciples to the Sarayu

River for the ceremonial bath, and returned from there, with the

Consecrated Water necessary for the Coronation Ablutions. He passed

along the Royal road where the citizens had gathered to witness the

sacred articles; the palace-guards cleared the way for the holy

group. At last, they entered the Royal Palace through the richly

decorated Main Gate.

 

Even at that early hour, the open spaces inside the palace were

filled with priests, vassal rulers, representatives of the people of

the Realm, and elders. They occupied the seats allotted to them. The

rhythm of Vedic Hymns recited by scholars along the streets echoed

from the skies. Meanwhile, Vasishtha beckoned Sumanthra, the

Minister, and said, " Go; the auspicious hour fixed for the rite of

Coronation is approaching; many preliminary rituals have to be

attended to; go and inform the Maharaja that his presence is urgently

needed. Convey the message that Vasishtha is waiting for his arrival. "

 

Sumanthra being an old faithful had the freedom to enter any of the

inner apartments of the palace; so, he hurried into the chambers of

Queen Kaikeyi, in search of the Emperor. Entering the Hall, where the

Royal beds were, Sumanthra was shocked out of his wits. He was aghast

at the sight of the Emperor fallen on the floor! Are my eyes seeing

aright, he wondered; he lost his moorings. He went near the King, and

said, " King! This morning must find you like the sea at moonrise,

heaving with ecstasy. I cannot understand why you are lying prostrate

on the ground. The auspicious hour is approaching. The great sages,

learned in Vedic Lore, are ready in their roles, awaiting your

arrival at the Hall of Ceremonies. Rise and wear royal robes and

jewels, and come into the Hall, accompanied by the Queens, in

lustrous imperial splendor. The sage Vasishtha bade me hither and

bring you into the holy precincts of the Throne. "

 

Listening to his importunities, Dasaratha could not restrain the

outbursts of his grief. He wept aloud, and spoke to the Minister

between sobs thus: " Sumanthra! Your adulation pierces my heart. "

Sumanthra could not take a step forward, nor could he move a step

backward. He stood transfixed, where he was. He prayed with folded

palms, " Maharaja! why this turn of events? At a time when you have to

be immersed in Ananda, why this grief, this piteous weeping? What is

the reason behind all this? It is beyond my understanding. "

 

When Sumanthra stood hopeless, sunk in sorrow, Kaikeyi intervened and

said. " O Best of Ministers! The Emperor spent the entire night

without sleep, in anxiety about Rama. If you can go immediately and

bring Rama with you here, the mystery will be unraveled. I am telling

you this; do not misunderstand me but bring Rama here quickly. "

 

Sumanthra took her instructions as the commands of the Sovereign; he

hastened to the Residence of Rama. At the entrance of that palace, he

saw on both sides long lines of attendants and maids, carrying huge

plates containing gifts of silk, brocade, jewels and gems, garlands

and bouquets, scents and sweets. It was a delight for the eye, but

Sumanthra did not stop to cast a look at them. When he hurried into

the palace, he felt something precious lacking in all this festivity;

he was overwhelmed and nonplussed. The joy that he had felt earlier

had turned into sorrow.

 

Riding in his chariot towards Rama's Palace he had noticed how the

hundreds of thousands of loyal subjects who filled the streets talked

among themselves that he was on his way to bring Rama into the

Coronation Hall, for the ceremony. He saw their faces blooming in

joyous expectation; they scarce winked their eyes, lest they miss

some incident or facet of joy. At last, Sumanthra stepped into the

Palace of the Prince. He could walk straight, without any question

asked, into all sections of that seven-storied mansion. As a fish

dives noiselessly through the depths of a flooded river, Sumanthra

glided through the corridors and halls of that Palace!

 

Chapter 11(a)

Lakshmana - Too

 

Within the Palace, the companions of Rama, elated and happy, ready

with their bright countenances and splendid robes were waiting to

accompany him to the Festival Hall. Sumanthra went into the

apartments that lay still deeper Inside the Palace. There he saw

Rama, seated on a golden cot, scattering Divine Light around him, and

Sita standing by his side, gently fanning him. He shone like the Moon

with the star, Chitra.

 

Sumanthra was in a hurry; he could not brook delay. He said, " Rama!

Mother Kaikeyi and your Father have both asked me to bring you

quickly to the Palace of that Queen; they have sent me on that

mission here; I have hurried hither for that same purpose " . As soon

as he heard those words, Rama turned towards Sita and said, " Sita!

This is a sign of some obstacle, and not of anything else. I am not

unaware of this; but I kept silent and said, 'Yes' for everything, so

that Father might be kept happy. Father's orders are to be honoured,

lest he be pained. " While Rama was talking in this strain, the heart

of Sumanthra was pounding fast inside him. He was trying to interpret

Rama's words and the picture of Dasaratha lying wailing on the floor.

He was now convinced that the obstacle Rama spoke of was genuine.

 

But, Sita interrupted Rama; she said " Lord! What are you talking

about? On this auspicious occasion you should not speak thus.

Whatever the obstacle, father-in-law's words must be honoured. If he

is content, we are content. For his sake, we must renounce whatever

has to be. Do not hesitate even a little; go immediately. Whether the

Coronation takes place or not, we shall be equally happy. Mother

Kaikeyi has inordinate affection towards you; any- thing that she

directs us to do, any order that she gives us, will be for our good

beyond doubt. There is no one here on earth that is as solicitous for

our welfare as Mother Kaikeyi. When Father and such a Mother send

word that you should hasten towards them, how happy we should be! "

Saying this, Sita followed Rama to the main door of the Hall and

wished him well.

 

Rama told her, " Sita! Don't I know all this? For me, the days that

are past, the days that are around us and the days yet to come are

all the same. I welcome each day with full joy. To uphold the

reputation of Father, I am prepared to do anything; I am prepared to

go anywhere. I am indeed immensely happy that you share my feeling

and second my resolve. " Rama moved out, accompanied by Sumanthra.

When they ascended the chariot waiting on the road in front of the

Palace, people raised shouts of 'Jai, Jai Ramachandra Prabhu ki Jai.'

The acclamation shook the skies.

 

Sumanthra announced to the populace, " Now the chariot is not taking

Rama to the Coronation Hall. It is taking him to where the Emperor

is. So, allow the chariot to go as fast as it should. Rama will

return in a few moments; so wait here itself. " Sumanthra explained

the reason for the hurry, and drove in hot haste. When Rama was

proceeding thus along the city streets to the Palace of Kaikeyi, in

his divine chariot, as soon as he was sighted, heroes cheered like

lions. Minstrels and courtiers started paeans of praise. The strains

of many instruments of music filled the sky. Acclamation

of " Jai " , " Jai " rose from the thick masses of people on both sides of

the road. Women in their best clothes, bedecked with jewels, thronged

the terraces of the house and filled the windows, eager to wave lamps

when Rama passed by.

 

When he approached the Palace, they showered floral petals and waved

sacred lamps. People gazed upon the Prince until he passed beyond

reach of the eye; then, they relished with joy the picture of " Rama

in the chariot " they had imprinted on their hearts, and, stood

without stirring wherever they were, like idols of themselves, lost

in contemplation of the Bliss that filled them.

 

The chariot rode into the precincts of the Palace of Dasaratha named

Vardhamana, as imposing as Mount Kailas itself. It passed through the

three quadrangles guarded by vigilant bowmen.

 

Then, Rama alighted from the vehicle. Thereafter, he moved through

two more quadrangles on foot. While walking across, he told his

companions and even Lakshmana to stay back. For, Rama knew what was

about to happen soon. In spite of this, he was acting like a mortal,

as naturally as any would under the circumstances! Finally, Rama

entered the apartments of the Queens and the place where Dasaratha

had fallen on the bed. His hair was disheveled; he was wearing the

clothes of 'yesterday'. He was lying on the bed without any regard to

propriety. Rama was astonished at the spectacle. Kaikeyi was standing

by the side of the bed.

 

Dasaratha's face had lost all trace of brightness; he was lamenting

and wailing. He raised his head; his eyes fell upon Rama. His tongue

failed to spell out what he longed to say. Tears streamed from his

eyes. Though he tried to speak, no sound came. Rama had never before

seen or experienced such a fearsome scene. He was filled with

anxiety; he hastened to the presence of his father, and held both his

feet in his hands. " Tell me, father, why you lament so? What is the

cause? I shall try to confer joy on you, in the best manner possible.

I shall dedicate my very life for the sake of restoring your Ananda.

Tell me what has caused this grief; do not weep " , he pleaded.

 

At this Dasaratha exclaimed, 'Rama! " and broke into tears again,

unable to continue. He lost consciousness. Rama tried to revive him

and console him; but, he fell deeper into grief and could not be

pacified. Then, Rama mustered courage and took his father to

task, " Father! what is all this? You have to instill courage into

young persons like me; on the other hand, you are weeping and wailing

and filling us with fear! No. This is not right. This is the occasion

to be happy; but, is it Dharma, is it proper, for you to sink into

grief? Till this day, whenever you were angry or worried, my coming

to you used to remove in a trice all signs of those troubles, and to

make you beam with Ananda. You used to gain peace again when you drew

me near, didn't you? How is it then that the longer you took at me

the more you suffer from sorrow? This makes my grief too more

painful. Can you not mention the reason for this strange behaviour

and bring solace to me? Won't you tell me? Has any wrong been

committed by me? Or, if there is anything I have to do, tell me, I

shall do it without fail. I shall correct myself, if you tell me my

faults. Do not grieve; do not doubt or hesitate; tell me with the

authority of affection what I have to do, and I shall bow to the

order. Father! Your being plunged in grief is not good augury for

you, for me as well as for the Empire " .

 

Praying thus, Rama turned towards Kaikeyi. With folded palms, he

asked her, " Mother! Have I committed any wrong? Tell me who that

execrable sinner is who caused such grief to father! The moment

father saw me, he used to beckon me lovingly, draw me close to him,

and fondle me caressingly! Now, he does not even look at my face; why

is it so? He does not utter one word; he keeps his face turned away

from me! If, however, the fault, the crime is mine, I am ready to

suffer any punishment to atone for it. It is enough for me if father

is happy. Or, is he suffering from any illness or disease? Else, have

my brothers, Bharatha and Satrughna sent any bad news? They are well,

aren't they? Mother Kausalya and Sumithra are well, I hope! I am

overcome with grief, since I am unable to understand the reason for

father's agony! I shall do whatever is needed to bring joy back to

him, however hard it may be. His command, however painful, I shall

discharge to the full, most loyally, with bowed head. Whoever is

born, the father is the cause of his birth. Therefore, the father is

everyone's visible God. I seek nothing higher than his happiness.

Have compassion on me; tell me what has taken place. Mother! Was your

self-respect hurt by any incident, resulting in your speaking some

harsh words against father? Or, did my mother act against his will

and hurt his feelings? Mother Kausalya will never behave like that.

And, Sumithra? I am more certain about her. She will not at all act

so. And father will certainly not lament so distressingly, even if

either of them acted so foolishly. There must be some very serious

reason for his plight. When father is reluctant to tell me what that

is, at least you can tell me about it and console my grief " .

 

Looking at Rama who was so pathetically praying to her, Kaikeyi gave

up all sense of mercy and moderation, all consideration for the

husband who might be plunged in deeper misery when he hears her words

spoken in utter disregard of the calamities they were sure to usher

in. She did not stop to inquire whether the words could be uttered or

whether they were better left unspoken. She did not discriminate

between the fleeting present and the oncoming future. She brushed

aside the claims of love, and cast off her own innate dignity and

motherly status.

 

She said, " Rama! Listen! Years ago, during the battle between the

Devas and the Asuras (Gods and Demons), your father was wounded by

dire demonic arrows and he suffered unbearable pain. I nursed him

back to health and happiness. He appreciated my sacrifice and service

and told me to name two boons promising to grant them to me. At that

time, I felt that the only thing I craved for was his recovery and

victory; so I replied: `I do not desire any boon now; I shall ask you

for the promised boons when I feel the urge later'. Your father

said, 'Right! Whenever you like, ask me whichever two boons you wish

for; I shall certainly grant them and fulfill your desire. These

boons have no limit of time and are bound by no condition. Whenever

you ask, whatever the boons, I shall give them', he vowed.

 

" You know that scions of the Ikshwaku line never break their promised

word. Putting faith in that well known fact, I asked now for those

two boons: one, that my son Bharatha should be crowned Emperor and

two, that you should be sent into the Dandaka Forest for a period of

fourteen years. As a result, your father is creating this hubbub! Why

elaborate further? I shall not modify or withdraw my demands. If your

father is as adherent of Truth, and if you desire to prove that you

too are an adherent of Truth, you have to go this very moment to the

Dandaka Forest, wearing deerskin and matted hair. You have to reside

there for fourteen years.

 

" Since you are his very life-breath, he does not like to send you

into exile; he is reluctant to ask you to go. He apprehends you may

take it amiss; that is the reason for this grief. Rama! No other

calamity or deluge has happened here. It is meaningless to exaggerate

this minor matter and make out that a mountainous catastrophe has

landed on us. Rama! The father can be saved from the sin of breaking

his word only when his very image, the son, resolves to fulfill the

vow he fails to fulfill. Else, if he who vowed and he who is the son

of the person who vowed, both neglect it, then the father has to meet

the doom of eternal downfall. You are not unaware of this " .

 

Rama was not affected in the least, while listening to these words

uttered with such deliberate hard-heartedness. With a smile playing

on his lips, he replied, " For this reason, it is not proper that

father should lament " . He nodded his head as if to signify his

approval of the proposals made by Kaikeyi. But, when this

conversation fell on his ears, Dasaratha felt as if his heart was

being sawn within. He rolled and groaned in extreme agony. Rama

turned towards Kaikeyi and said, " Mother! It will happen as you have

contemplated! I am reverentially placing on my head the promise made

by my father. It is enough if father draws me near him as he so

lovingly used to do until now and speaks to me affectionately, and

blesses me. Well, if I am at least told that I don't deserve these,

that I have not earned that merit, I will accept it without demur and

with equal joy and satisfaction. For, father always wishes the best

for me. He blesses me always and desires that I progress ever. He is

a great seer; he is for me not only the father, but the preceptor who

teaches the highest path. What responsibility and duty have I than

conferring joy on him, who is both father and teacher? This is my

dearest duty, my Dharma. I will derive immense Ananda in the forest

for fourteen years. Not merely fourteen, if father's wish is such. I

am prepared to live all my life in the forest itself! But, why is it

that father is hesitating to tell me about these two boons? This is

what pains me. Will I ever say no to what he says? Rama is the

servant and support of the parental word, not its opponent. Is there

any act of gratitude nobler than dedicating this body, which was

received from the father, to his service alone? I shall offer it with

Ananda; I am not one who waits to be told to do so.

 

" Mother why did you not mention to me that Bharatha is the person to

be crowned? I and my brother - there is no difference between us; why

then did you entertain any difference between us? We know no

distinction among ourselves. Also, why is it that you say, `This is

your father's command'? Do I ever disobey your commands? No I never

do so. Whether you say it or my father says it I un-hesitatingly

carry it out. I am leaving Ayodhya this very day, and proceeding to

the forest. Mother! Send proper messengers charged with the task of

bringing Bharatha from the grandfather's place. It is best to get him

quickly. If my moving into the forest and the coronation of Bharatha

happen at the same time, father will be saved from physical strain,

mental anxiety and the sense of void. And you too can be fully

content! Who can say how events will shape themselves? "

 

When Kaikeyi heard these words from Rama, she was filled with Ananda

and apprehension. She feared what might happen if Bharatha arrived

while Rama was still present in the city; she concluded that it was

best to insist on Rama leaving for the forest that very day itself.

She replied, " Rama! It is possible to make arrangements to get

Bharatha from where he is to Ayodhya; but, there is no need why you

should continue here until he reaches this City. Since you have

decided to start the hermit life, why should you delay your

departure? For, the longer the start is delayed, the day of your

return too will be advanced! It is advisable that you get ready to

leave even now. " Your father is eager to tell you this himself, but,

he is unwilling to express his command directly. Though his heart

insists that he should say it, he is bothered by a sense of shame,

for he loves you much. He is reluctant to inform you of his promise

to me; that is the reason for his distress. He has no other grief.

The quicker you depart from Ayodhya, the sooner he will recover from

agony. Until you leave Ayodhya, I am afraid, he will not take food or

bathe. Therefore, if you yearn to restore him to happiness, the

sooner you depart the better " .

 

Dasaratha lying prostrate on the bed heard these heart-piercing words

of Kaikeyi; he could not contain his anger and sorrow. He burst into

indistinct fury, " Fie on you, traitorous demon! " and turning to Rama,

he cried, " Rama " twice, before he fainted again. Rama sat on the bed,

with the head of his father on his lap; he stroked the forehead and

consoled and comforted him with sweet lovingness. He also spoke to

Kaikeyi, " Mother! I am not a covetous fellow, poisoned by worldly

ambition. I have no desire to win over the people and establish my

rule over the kingdom. I wish to live like a hermit; I yearn to

foster and maintain righteousness (Dharma) that is all. I have only

one more resolve: to confer joy on my most revered father. To realize

these three objectives, I am prepared to undertake any task. A son

has no greater duty, no higher good, than serving the father. Mother!

Though father has not directly spoken to me, you are telling me what

his command is, aren't you? That is quite enough. Besides, you are

speaking in his very presence, and despite his hearing what you say,

he is unable to alter or deny anything. Therefore, I infer that your

words are virtually his. So, I bow to the order, and shall leave as

directed.

 

" Mother! I have one little wish, which I hope you will fulfill. When

Bharatha is ruling the empire, see that he obeys in every way the

orders of Father and that he contributes to the joy and satisfaction

of Father by his acts. For me, for Bharatha; indeed, for every son,

there is nothing more holy and more fruitful than the vow of filling

the heart of the father with contentment and happiness. Service of

the father is the Sanathana Dharma, the eternal duty, of the son " .

 

With these words, Rama fell prostrate on the ground and touched the

feet of Mother Kaikeyi. Dasaratha, who heard his Son, writhed as if

the Dharma that Rama expounded and the equanimity, which he revealed,

aroused his love even more and thus aggravated his sorrow beyond

control. Knowing that Rama will not stay in Ayodhya any longer, he

lost all sense of propriety and status. He shouted, " Rama! " , and

slumped on the hard floor of the room. Women in the zenana heard the

thump, and were stunned into grief and wonder. They lamented loudly

among themselves at the turn of events. Rama realized that it was not

advisable to delay any longer. He prostrated before his father and

touched his feet. Then, he walked out of the apartment.

 

Lakshmana was standing at the door and listening to the words spoken

inside the room. He was in tears; he was furious against Kaikeyi and

angry against father. He found it impossible to give expression to

his feelings; so, he followed the footsteps of Rama with arms folded,

eyes on the ground, head bent low. Though he had lost a kingdom, and

had to exile himself into the forest, Rama's face shone like the moon

behind thick dark clouds, unaffected by the black veil. The splendor

of his countenance was unaffected; for, he faced honour and dishonour

with equal serenity. He behaved like a veteran Yogi, with no trace of

agitation in thought, word and deed; he walked as if nothing had

happened to cause him worry. However, Sumanthra guessed that some

transformation had happened inside the palace. The guess soon grew

into certainty. When his eyes fell on Lakshmana, his heart suffered a

shock. To add to his fears, Rama brushed aside the White Umbrella

that was held over him by the attendant. He ordered that the

ceremonial whisks be not used for him. He declared that he did not

deserve any more the silver chariot. On hearing this, Sumanthra lost

strength of body and will. He was confirmed in his worst fears.

 

Rama did not speak a word to those around him or to the citizens he

met; not that he was sad, no, he knew that others would be hurt if

they heard the news. For, if he spoke, he would have to speak out the

truth; and he would be spreading sadness through his own words. In

spite of this, his style of walking back to the palace announced the

sad news to all onlookers.

 

Rama did not proceed direct to the apartments of Sita. He chose to

walk to the palace of Kausalya. The palace was resplendent with flags

and festoons and other external marks of jubilation. The women and

other attendants of the palace got intimation of the approach of Rama

and Lakshmana to the mansion and they got ready lamps on plates, and

ranged themselves in rows to welcome them. Old and trusted guards at

the main entrance rose sharply when they espied the Brothers, and

exclaimed, " Victory! Victory " " May it be victory to you " ! They bowed

low and offered homage. When Rama entered the second square inside,

Brahmins who had gathered there showered their blessings on him. On

entering the third square, the young maids in attendance on the queen

rushed in, carrying the happy tidings that Rama and his younger

brother were arriving, to offer reverence to the mother. They were

themselves delighted at the sight of the princes. From the outer door

right up to the room where the Mother was, maidens standing on both

sides of the long passage waved ceremonial lamps as sign of welcome,

to ward off evil and welcome joy and prosperity.

 

Queen Kausalya had observed vigil all night, in preparation for the

holy day that had dawned. She was engaged since dawn in worshipful

rites. Aged Brahmin priests were propitiating the God of Fire with

Vedic hymns, when Rama was announced. The mother was overwhelmed with

joy, since she could witness with her own eyes the Coronation of her

son. She celebrated her joy by means of several rites; she gave away

plentiful gifts. She fasted and kept vigil; Ananda was enough food

for her, the Ananda she shared with all. She ran forward to clasp

Rama in her arms; she caressed the curls on his head; she led him by

the hand into the shrine room where she was spending the morning. She

had no knowledge of the somersault events had taken. Innocent and

simple-hearted that she was, she wore the white sari of purity and

with the sacred silk cord tied round her wrist, she was gratefully

engaged in the worship of the Gods. Looking at the face of Rama, she

noticed an added splendor illumining it. So she could not contain

within herself her Ananda. " Son! " she said, " Your forefathers were

all Royal Sages, Rajarshis. They were strong upholders of Right. They

were super-souls, Mahatmas, each one. You shall be as long-lived as

they, as renowned as they; your glory must reach the ends of all the

quarters as their glory did. Son! Follow the ideals of Righteousness,

which were held high by this dynasty; do not neglect them, even in a

fit of absence of mind. Hold on to them, without wavering in the

least. " With these words, she placed a few grains of rice on his

head, in token of her blessing on the auspicious day. She placed a

golden seat near hers, saying, " Son! You observed the ceremonial

vigil last night, didn't you? And, you fasted yesterday, according to

rule. You must be exhausted. Sit here for a while, and eat a few

fruits. " So saying, she held forth a gold plate of fruits which she

had made ready for him.

 

The Ananda of the mother and the love she showered on him thrilled

Rama. He wondered how he could communicate to her the turn of events;

he was unwilling to destroy the atmosphere of joy. For the sake of

giving her satisfaction, he sat on the golden chair, fingered the

contents of the plate and said, " Mother! From this moment, I should

not touch gold. I should not sit on golden chairs. I am awaiting your

blessing, for, I have to proceed as an exile to the Dandaka Forest. I

came to you for taking leave " . Kausalya could not understand a word

of what he said. She could only say, " Son! Within a few minutes, you

are to be crowned King, and you talk of the Dandaka Forest! I am at a

loss to make out the sense of what you say " . She thought her son was

teasing her with a joke. She said, " Son! In this auspicious hour, you

should not, even in fun, talk of things of bad omen. Give it up, my

lovely gem! " She scooped with her fingers a little from a plate of

rice, boiled in milk and with sugar, and placed it on Rama's tongue!

Observing her love and her Ananda, the eyes of Lakshmana were

spontaneously filled with tears.

 

Kausalya noted it; she turned to him, and inquired, " Lakshmana! Why

are you so sad? " She hurried towards him and tried to caress him, but

Lakshmana could not suppress his grief any longer. He wept aloud and

sobbed. The queen stood aghast; she did not know why he sobbed.

Rama's words and Lakshmana's grief confused her much. Meanwhile Rama

interceded: " Mother! if you promise not to grieve, I shall tell you

one thing " and he held her hands in his, very firmly. " This is

something that will endow me and you, and our entire family and

dynasty with imperishable glory. So, don't give room for any anxiety,

doubt or distress. Agree to it with alacrity and affection. Does it

not give you great joy that I obey father's command? He has resolved

to crown my brother, Bharatha! He has resolved to send me, in the

habiliments of a hermit, into the Dandaka forest for a period of

fourteen years. I have bowed to his command and come here to take

leave of you. " At this, Kausalya shrieked " Rama " , and fell on the

floor. " What a turn of events is this? Is the tender child of mine to

be sent into the dark jungle? What crime has my Rama done to deserve

this? Can this be true? Or, is it meaningless jabber coming out of my

own brain, since I had no sleep and no food? "

 

While she was thus trying to explain to herself and consoling

herself, the happenings at Kaikeyi's palace had spread throughout the

zenana and the noise of wailing and lamentation rose from maids and

attendants everywhere. All faces streamed with tears in great sorrow.

Cries of " Rama! Do not leave us " , were heard on all sides. Grief-

stricken groups hurried to the palace of Kausalya, who was

overwhelmed with astonishment, sorrow and fear. She could not unravel

the mystery of it all. She could not rise from the floor, for she was

weighed down with anxiety and despair. Nevertheless, she was longing

to understand what had really happened to cause this universal agony.

She drew Rama on to her lap, and caressing his curly hair she

asked, " Son! What is this I hear? This news? Tell me clearly what

took place. I cannot bear this suspense any longer " . Rama told

her, " Honoring the two boons that father had promised Kaikeyi once

upon a time, father granted her these two wishes " . Rama told Kausalya

that the first boon she was granted was, " Bharatha is to be crowned "

and the second was, I should be sent to the Forest for fourteen

years " .

 

When Rama related these facts and confirmed their truth, Kausalya

exclaimed, " Rama! Did Kaikeyi really demand such boons? Kaikeyi had

unbounded love and affection towards you. She would not have wished

for these things any day. Let that rest. Even if she has, I am sure

it must be only to test the king! For this simple thing, why should

there be so much confusion and anxiety? Or, assuming that she asked

for the boons; will your father ever agree to grant them? I refuse to

believe this. Will your father, who cannot tolerate your absence from

his presence for a single moment, send you away into the forest for

fourteen years? This is plunging me into more confusion. "

 

Seeing his mother doubting the truth of the incidents that actually

took place, Rama again held both her hands in his and

pleaded, " Mother! Believe my words! Father had already promised to

grant her whichever two boons she desired; afterwards, when she asked

for these two, he had no inclination to break his plighted word, to

take back the promise he had solemnly granted. Nor could his mind

agree to order me into the forest and be without me. So, he is

suffering great mental distress. I cannot bear the sight of his

affliction. I have just now returned from that palace. He is stricken

unconscious: he is in terrible anguish. This is the truth. I am not

so cruel as to cause such anxiety in you over a light laughable

matter, believe me. I have accepted father's order; I have come to

you for your permission. "

 

With these words, Rama fell at the feet of his mother. Kausalya

lifted him up tenderly. She said, " Rama! What strange behaviour is

this? However barbarian a person may be, will he demand these

horrible boons? Can ever any human being think of sending you, who is

to be crowned in a few minutes, into the forest and for fourteen

years? Am I to suffer throughout my life? I got a son, after

observing many a vow and ritual. Looking on your lovely face, I

overcame the pangs of those years of sorrow. I have no other desire;

I ask for no other boon; enough for me if my son is with me, near me.

Have I become unfit for this little gift? Did I deliver a child only

to throw it into the forest? Will any mother agree to send her son

into the jungle? Alas, what sin have I committed in the past? In

which of my previous lives have I kept apart a mother from her son?

Since the day when you were initiated into Vedic studies, I was

deriving happiness every moment from the thought that the day of your

Coronation was drawing near. Have those sweet dreams of mine come to

naught? Have all my hopes been dashed to the ground and broken to

pieces? Have all the vows, vigils, rites and rituals I so

scrupulously observed and performed for ensuring your joy and

happiness been in vain? 0! What a big sinner am I? Why has my heart

not broken on hearing this news? Perhaps, I have to hear and bear

many more heart-breaking news! Death does not help me! My heart still

beats, in spite of this shock. Alas, even death awaits the allotted

moment. He comes; but on seeing my plight leaves me alive, postponing

the moment of my release. Yama too has no mercy towards me, I am

pronounced undeserving of even the realm of Death. O Rama! That this

calamity should happen to us! " She lamented and fell on the floor in

a faint. Coming to, she rolled on the floor, pressing her heart with

the palm of her hand. Rama could not quietly look on the scene. The

wailing of the maids, who gathered around blasted his ears like

thunderbolts.

 

TO BE CONTINUED