Re-Sanctifying Rudraksha mala....???

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Namaste,

 

I have ruminated and meditated after posting my last reply to your recent response; and while I am still interested in your feedback and commentary or any helpful interjections...I have something more definitive to share.

 

Do you recall when I told you that I gifted this same person with something magnificent, even being fully aware of her envy, and deplorable actions...and I'd asked for a 'message' to let me know how God felt about this, and subsequently encountered the wondrous blessing and darshan of a puja to Shiva on Monday at the lake, and etc? I knew the Shiva was dispelling my ingorance, and among the myriad messages for me was that my gift, given in pure faith and love, not conditional upon human ideations or limitations of the recipient 'deserving or being reciprocal in nature or deed' was accepted by God in the form of Shiva telling granting me great darshan, etc and that the true recipient of my gift was God. My extension was like a pebble cast into the sea of Spirit,and it came back to me on the other shore in the form of the puja and darshan.

 

So...even in human perception alone, is not there a dimunition of the gift when we sense it is given with some resentment or whatever attached to the action? In Divine terms, once I extend something, a material gift, in unconditional love, I do not wish for payment or return from that person...hence the term " unconditional".

Therefore I feel it behooves me to return this Siddha mala bracelet and such, not wishing to have any item back with negative feelings involved.

And my real 'blessing' or return payment of reciprocity comes from God/dess...perhaps not the same person, but someone else if in material form, or the BEST of ALL.....in the formless-form of spiritual blessings bestowed to help my spirit evolve and grow.

I know this may not make sense in human terms, but this is my ultimate feeling.

I, too, know that we all have erred -even unwittingly- and not made gestures to the person we hurt. How can I justify keeping these items, returned with some level of resentment that I can detect, by telling myself that at least I have something back.

No, I cannot and remain true to my Highest self....as Mahatma Gandhi said, " I cannot possibley change my convictions to accomodate the circumstances"...!!!!

 

And yesterday, what did I receive airmail but gifts from a dear and beloved friend who obtained them from Hardiwar Baba ( his affectionate term for the Swami): all very old Rudrakshas....one 6 mm punch-mukhi mala; one Eh-Mukhi half moon, and a 12-Mukhi. Plus a pair of ancient Tibetan/Napelaese ancient etched longevity beads of carnelian paired with 2 ancient red coral beads.

Ah....such love and generosity to me, how could I then be greedy and self-righteous? Nope, cannot.

 

I lament the loss of the sacred items taken from me in envy....and the disrespect shown to the items I gave freely...and perhaps I cannot afford to replace my beloved Siddha bracelet in gold...but if God/dess wishes to bless me with such things I am sure it will happen.

So now I can only return the re-energized beads, and attach my own intentions and prayers that they bless indeed for the mind/body/spirit of this person.

Which does not mean, however, that I need continue permitting this person the opportunity to do such things again.

 

Let me tell you.....while I am not a greedy, materialisitc person, and do not collect 'things' merely for the sake of having things, it hurt to be denied things I revered as sacred items, and some of those being blessing given to me also. It hurt because I was deprived of the joy of giving them in love, if asked. ( Do you know, I had already shared the same items, if I had two of something, I gave one to her). But......beyond my ego, what is the Highest and most pure, noble within each of us must be honored if we wish to honor God/dess, I think.

 

So please do offer me your feedback, and sorry this issue has taken so much of your time.

No one can take the light of the love and peace I am blest with, no object can contain it.....with all the power of my love and will I extend to you gratitude and joy for the assistance on my journey! Most of all I pranam at the Lotus Feet of God/dess in humble awe.....

Om Namah Shivaya!

 

Gina