What to offer?

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Jai Guru Datta

 

I try to hug His feet and there rises a desire to offer some flowers. I cup my

both hands and wish for something, and in those hands I get some Jasmine like

flowers, but tinged with a little pink and gold, the scent surpassing divinity.

That I pour onto my Lord's feet.

 

What do I pour? How those flowers materialized? If it is given by my Lord, what

can I say/ How can I say that, I am 'offering' something there? It was created

by Him and it was His, Right?

 

If I say that, it was my love, which transformed into flowers, it makes sense.

So, it was the Love from the depth of my heart that I offered.

 

Now, who created that Love? It is none other than the Lord.

 

So, What am 'I' to offer? Who am 'I' to 'offer' what was created by Him in the

first place? What am I doing? What am I thinking that this 'I' is doing?

 

Tears swell and pour down. Oh, can I offer this tears?

 

Who created those tears? Again it is Him. How can someone  'offer' something

that already belongs to that person? And think and think, can't find anythng

that is NOT created or owned by my Lord.

 

Nowadays, He does not create the desire in me to offer Him anything.

 

The song comes melodiously... " Jyothi velangaidi... (something) Sathguru, Jyothi

Velangadi... " (Is that velangaidi something? whatever!)

 

Ohm Aiym Hreem Shthreem Shivaraama Anagha Dattaaaya Namaha!