Another angle on Stacee's story

[Guest guest]

With Stacee's permission, I'm reposting an email that gives her story in

a more concise fashion, more direct and honest yet more details. I

felt that her previous posting may have come across preachy and

over-the-top as many stories seem when they come from so-called

anti-Amma people. Because of blatantly false stories, and poorly vetted

stories by people that met Amma only once, it can make people jaded and

incredulous to the stories that do come out from actual former long-time

devotees.

 

As a former devotee who still gives service to devotees, someone who was

heavily involved at one time, I ask that you at least give Stacee's

story another read below, especially the second paragraph. She is

another former devotee who's been on this list long enough for me to

remember her. It's not some made up ex-amma BS, this is real and it

happened and deserves your respect, not a brush-off or sermon.

 

I have been reading the examma list. It is now very heavily moderated,

and one must stick to the point. But there are at least 10 people who

were renunciates who spent a lot of time at Amritapuri or close devotees

who experienced Ammachi saying bad words about people, fighting and

hypocrisy at Amritapuri, Ammachi treating the rich better than anyone

else in her ashram, strange apocalyptic teachings, militant behavior in

the ashram in general about following ashram rules. Many people acting

very mentally ill in the ashram and Ammachi playing very weird mind

games with people, let alone the lying about how much is really going to

charity out of the billions of dollars she has. I guess I needed more

proof of the bad there. Some people are still angry when they tell their

stories and some perfectly fine but very clear that they felt a lack of

love and much anger between Ammachi and her inner circle.

 

I can attest to that as the man I was involved with was in the inner

circle and he was constantly in fear when I saw him in the US. In the

end the swami's persuaded him to leave me and stay in his elaborate life

touring the world. The worst in this situation as well is that he

actually has a wife that is a Bramacharini, that he may be married to as

he told me they were divorced, but when I saw him again after a year of

being very sick, they were standing near one another and he said

something to the effect as though they are still married. So Ammachi

encouraged this relationship with both of us knowing that he may have

potentially still been married. These two Bramachari's are very well

known throughout the ashram. I knew nothing and was not even sure that

much about the life of a Bramachari. I kept asking Ammachi if it was OK

to pursue the relationship and she kept bringing us physically closer

togeter. The man will not respond to my emails, as he asked me to marry

him many times and will not allow any discussion around the whole thing.

Ammachi promoted him to a professor and director for two programs at

Amrita School of Engineering even though he was not faithful to his

celibacy for over a year and hurt his wife and myself.