to Gopi about scary situation

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Dear Gopi ~ I know a bit of the fear you are experiencing because for 7

years, just ending 2 years ago, I was in a very abusive relationship. My

partner yelled and screamed at me, called me vile names, threatened to leave,

and eventually became physically abusive. It took every ounce of strength I

had to tell him to leave, and then even more to actually let go to the point

where I would not take his phone calls or have any contact with him.

 

It sounds like your husband is scary, perhaps a bit like that, too. I had

the strength to get beyond the fear, and if I can do it (since fear has been

one of my big issues this lifetime), you can make it through this and

reach your goal. Since you are a devotee of Amma, perhaps you could check out

with the M.A. Center in California and the M.A. Ashram in Santa Fe ... about

what is involved in living in those places. At the very least you have

this digest, and we all will support you and be here for you. This is a strong

satsang. Please write to us what is in your heart any time, even if you

need to write about your fear again.

 

I have only two questions. Have you seen a divorce lawyer. It concerns me

that your two older children will be with your husband, though I know that

having all 4 with you would be so very hard. Also, have you checked to see

if there is an Amma satsang group where you live. You could get a lot of

support for this there also. To find out go to Amma's website

_http://www.amma.org/_ (http://www.amma.org/) , then you click on

" Centers " in the upper bar (right side). That will take you to a page where

there

is a map, also there are words, so you can click USA on the map or click

USA from the list (left side). Then there will be another map and list,

naming areas of the country. For example, I live in Massachusetts, so when I

first got here I went through this process and clicked on " New England. " So

fortunate for me, there is a satsang here.

 

Keep Amma in the front of your mind and in your heart. Picture her in your

heart. She will not abandon you in your time of need. And remember we are

always here too.

Jai Mata Ma

~ Linda

 

Gopi wrote:

 

I am in a serious transition phase in my life and it is very painful. I

am going through divorce and have 4 children. My husband is making me split

the family - he gets the big kids and I get the 2 smaller ones. It is

very scary and painful. I know that Ammma's blessing is working in a

mysterious way or a MIRACULOUS way? Friends I need some good input on this

transition (I wont be seeing Mother till summer) and fear and doubt tear at me

and sometimes I give in, but not always and I want to move to a community of

spritual like minded people. My husband is one to put pressure on me and

make me doubht myself, but how can I knowing that I have a Satguru like

Amma. So I ask for some support and LOVE in this adventure. May I find my

place in this world and offer up what I have to offer. Much Love and Devotion