To Amarnath about fighting, letting go

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Dear Amarnath ~ I must've really needed this. I have held great attachment

to something that happened, or actually, is still happening. I have had

sadness, great grief, anger, etc., etc. At least I have had the good (Amma)

mind not

to put any of this outward on the person toward which I feel it. It has

become more reactivated because of the big hit my retirement account took over

the last two months. I had to step in and insist to my broker that he sell all

my investments and give me the money, so I can put it in a cd, or the bank,

or under my mattress. I was able to accomplish all that without rancor and

just gave thanks that I finally work up and took action.

 

But the other situation involves someone who used to call me her best

friend. She was desperate to save her ranch and asked me to loan her a large

sum of

money, which I did. Later, after she lost the ranch and had no place to go,

I invited her into my home. I will never know what I did to upset or make her

angry because she wasn't speaking to me before I left NM, and hasn't

answered any of the emails I've sent. The money she owes me is pretty

significant,

but I realize that it is not going to come back, just as nothing I do will

bring my friend back. I have had such a hard time letting go of this. I thought

it was because of the money, but as I write this, I realize the deeper issue

is the loss of someone who has been my friend for 30 years.

 

I am reminded of one of the songs of the NM satsang, from one of their

cds...something about " no one is your own, " and I realize this is true in every

sense. With Amma's grace, I will begin the work of facing the real issue and

let go so I can move on. Thank you ~ Linda P.S. Oh, part of the point of this

story is that I was quickly able to accept my (stock market) losses, take

action and move on, all with detachment (after the initial shock). So now I

must

apply this to she who used to be my friend.

 

 

Amarnath posted:

 

" ...In other words, love dawns only when detachment arises.

All attachments to all other things, whatever they may be, should fall

off, and the mind should become fully one-pointed. Here, love alone is

the subject and the object. Such love will not arise from attachment;

it is a product of total detachment. Therefore, when a challenge

confronts the nation you must fight for the good of the country, if it

is a good cause, but with detachment. " - Ammachi, Awaken Children,

Vol.4 p250 (0234)

 

 

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