First Meeting with Amma -Stacey

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OM NAMAH SIVAYA

 

no worries Stacey. i myself and i'm sure many others have had similar

experience of blanking out. but everything happens as it is supposed

to. and your innate feeling of the significance of a Mantra from Amma

is warranted, as a Mantra from a Sadguru is a huge blessing. my Mantra

has and continues to change my life dramatically. as someone said a

Mantra is not just the Name of God but IS God in the form of sound.

let what seems like a missed opportunity now serve to fill you with

anticipation, excitement, and readiness for the next chance. and when

that time comes and you do get a Mantra from Amma use it with full

faith and Devotion as much as possible because It is truly a mystical

blessing that words can never explain. and my experience is that

Amma's closeness to me is directly proportional to my openness to Her.

 

JAI MA

 

 

Ammachi , " Stacey Rossignol " <Chamunda77 wrote:

>

> Blessings,

>

> I've just returned from the Boston retreat with Amma. This was my very

> first time meeting Amma or attending any of her events. It was a

wonderful

> experience but I also had plenty of emotional issues come up. After my

> first darshan instead of feeling happy I found that I was filled with a

> feeling of rejection. When I awoke in the morning I was filled with

anger

> and felt as if I didn't want to be at the retreat and questioned my

coming

> there. After spending some time feeling my anger I made myself get

up and

> get involved in retreat activities. I found that the second day

with Amma

> was a wonderful experience and my second darshan was gentle and

loving. I

> noticed gradually that as I continued to receive darshan I felt more of

> Amma's loving embrace. Over all it was a great experience with painful

> moments which I do know is part of the process for me in my healing.

>

> I did have one question to post to the group. I was very much looking

> forward to Devi Bhava and receiving a mantra from her. As I got

closer to

> her my excitement grew and I was ready to ask for a mantra.

However, as

> weird as it may sound once I was in front of her my mind was blank and

> nothing came out. It was like I had no speech and so never ended up

asking

> for a mantra. As I walked away I felt angry with myself and yet

somehow I

> felt as though I wasn't ready for a mantra. Does this sound normal?

Has

> anyone else ever had this experience? I have experience working with

> mantras and have done so in the past. I did take the IAM meditation

course

> which I will definitely do daily but somehow I worry that by not

asking for

> a mantra I won't be as close to Amma and that I lost a great

opportunity.

> Does anyone have any thoughts on this? I would really appreciate your

> thoughts or feelings on what happened.

>

> In Light and Love,

> Stacey

>

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