ek mukh rudraksha

February 23, 2008

I am curious to know the effects that the one Mukhi's have produced for those of you who have the genuine beads.

If the true judge of a bead is the effects it produces, then let those be the true judge indeed. I have a one mukhi that now seems like a crippled 3-4 mukhi after all I read here, yet I can vouch for the physical, psychological effect it brought in me after I acquired it. I didnt acquire wealth by truck loads, but I did attain a steady state and good progress too. I experienced expansion of consciousness, yet it also made me realise the material aspect of life to be as divine as the spiritual aspect. All my prior illusions shattered in a matter of months. Yet they caused no pain, though vestige of desire still holds me back to my past life and its pain.

Considering that I have 1-14 mukhi's with me, assuming all that I experienced is because of the other 13 beads and not the 1 mukhi as such. We have to ask further questions.

Ultimately, we have to also reflect back and understand what we are trying to do here when we buy rurdakshas. Are we expecting to get the benefits like remission from Brahma Hatya/gain of wealth etc as mentioned in scriptures? In which case we are simply coveting god without a larger significance. This in itself is not wrong, but is only a lesser of the bigger quests.

I believe in Shiva, he has been my main obsession in life, even though I still have to perfect this art of loving him with the true disciplin of loving. I realise there cant be love without disciplin applied through volition. discipline is not the love but the symptom of love. One more important aspect of this love is acceptance after inital courtship and judgement have subsided. If I consider shiva to be the supreme prime mover of the universe, what is the money I spend in my quest to attaining him through rudraksha? Shouldnt I surrender to his will of what I lose and what I acquire? If karma is cosmic balance, every act we do is simply another act of balancing isnt it?

One more affect that I experience after I got this rudraksha is sustained love for all things material as much as things spiritual, I have fundamentally lost the distinction of where god begins or where he ends. I still have not grown to the level of lets say a avadhuta or a aghori and retain biases of my senses. But fundamentally, the object is always Shiva, if it means losing illusions or gaining them so be it.

I suggest, everyone on the group do what seems fit to them. Dont get relapsed into analysis of loss or gain, the primary object of life is you and only you, and through it and only it can you attain god in all existence. This can be done either by being a atheist or a theist in their total essence. This cannot be done sitting on the wall between being an atheist or a theist.

A friend I hold in esteem taught me, that only when the sense of wanting and not wanting subside, the two conflicting needs, does the true being begin to manifest. Because then we begin to discard the core of what keeps us entangled in illusions. This is a very beautiful notion if you understand its deeper implications.

Ask yourselves this: what is the object of my quest? Why am I on the quest? Is it rudraksha or is it shiva? these will invariably lead to further question: Who am I - in essence, ego and self esteem? When you reach this, perhaps your need for rudraksha is over, lets not lose the focus of the ends entangled too much in the means.

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