Guest guest Posted November 13, 2008 Report Share Posted November 13, 2008 Dear All, Last night was spent in some deep meditation.The wind was blowing a bit heavily here in Canada.The clime was cold outside, the water heater in my room was fighting a desperate battle to keep me warm. The warmth nevertheless was coming from within.Things can be shared too.That is why this is being shared with people who want to listen.Listening is different from plain hearing.The former happens with a heart. I had a question for my meditation--Why do I contradict myself? Am I a contradiction? I like both rigidity and non-rigidity in the search of Truth/God? I know the above is a combination of questions and not a single one.Yet the essence of questioning was just one. Brain is limited and life is terribly limted.Are my visions a mere projection of my inner self?The meditation went on for hours.My baby daughters were now snoring blissfully. There came a vacuum and I could not hear the water heaters little murmur anymore, my black formal coat which I wore to the office, neatly dry-washed and hanging in the unclosed closet, seemed to move.My eyes were closed, yet the vacuum made me feel all this. The vacuum slowly gave way to another bigger vacuum and after that I did not know what happened. Maybe that was the real vacuum! I slowly woke up and my wife said to me shyly that I had been in the padmasana position on my bed for hours and she gently tapped me to sleep and unfolded my legs.She was a bit frightened yet it was not uncommon for her. The morning passed by today fast and there seemed to be a message from Mother, the eternal feminity of God, that one must be private and yet open. Maybe this email was my first step. I did my meditation and meditative ritual before the Srichakra in the other room carefully locked it lest my baby daughter's play with it as another toy! A smile stole my lips as I typed these last lines.Is meditation a surreal experience of life or life a surreal meditation? Shreeram Balijepalli Shreeram Balijepalli Hreem Rajarajeshwari Paradevatha! Purity, Powers, Parabrahmam... Click to join Rajarajeshwari_Kalpataru Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 13, 2008 Report Share Posted November 13, 2008 Jaya Guru DattaDear Annayya,Thank you for the wonderful mail. I didnot understand the meaning of the message, and its significance. an you elaborate on that?I can appreciate that one has to be very watchful in the path of sadhana, the same mind which gave me the conviction that i can proceed in a particular direction later tells me that i chose the wrong direction. The context I hope becomes obvious to you. Thanks for sharing the mail, at a time when i too am seeing a contradiction in my mind. Today, while doing the gayatri japam i asked mother "Why mother! did i do anything wrong? that you are making me traverse through this. Am i a fraud, in that i am attributing everything to you? Shoudl i not think about the oneness of truth, you are the one who says everything is one, but why this contradiction. If it is a lesson so be it. Please teach me, i give up, i give up, i give up the fact that i have a brilliant mind, that i am intelligent, because the same intelligence is ffailing sometimes. Who am i , who doesnot have control on his thoughts, i will not again say that i am intellient. Thank you mother, for you made me humble. You made me test it and taste it. Now, i want you i wnt you, please make me do sahasra gayatri in december, show me a way, let me focus only on the problem at thand, i want to do a phd, let me focus on that. I shall never again contradict what has been told by my mother, what has been told by my father, i shall be normal and simple, its your grace that brought me this direction, so be it. It will be you who will guide me from here on."I finished my japam, i smiled within myself as i was smearing sandal paste to guru padukas. I remebered my guru, i felt happy for his affection towards me, in guiding me. Thank you annayya for being a supportive element in my life.SincerelyTammudu.I would like to know the basics of sadhan from you. I donot know how much i can submit myself, but to the possible degree of humlity that i can show, i am requesting you to share that which would be relevant to me. It is left to your inspiration that you get from mother. It is the same mother which you and i worship, you and i have guru, but you are closer to mother, higher in consciousness, so please ask that unifying principle about her message for me.I hope i am not bothering you.SincerelyPada anajaliTammuduGroup Owner <para_anulomadatta-yoga Sent: Thursday, 13 November, 2008 1:04:22 PM[Datta-Yoga] Message Dear All, Last night was spent in some deep meditation.The wind was blowing a bit heavily here in Canada.The clime was cold outside, the water heater in my room was fighting a desperate battle to keep me warm. The warmth nevertheless was coming from within.Things can be shared too.That is why this is being shared with people who want to listen.Listening is different from plain hearing.The former happens with a heart. I had a question for my meditation-- Why do I contradict myself? Am I a contradiction? I like both rigidity and non-rigidity in the search of Truth/God? I know the above is a combination of questions and not a single one.Yet the essence of questioning was just one. Brain is limited and life is terribly limted.Are my visions a mere projection of my inner self?The meditation went on for hours.My baby daughters were now snoring blissfully. There came a vacuum and I could not hear the water heaters little murmur anymore, my black formal coat which I wore to the office, neatly dry-washed and hanging in the unclosed closet, seemed to move.My eyes were closed, yet the vacuum made me feel all this. The vacuum slowly gave way to another bigger vacuum and after that I did not know what happened. Maybe that was the real vacuum! I slowly woke up and my wife said to me shyly that I had been in the padmasana position on my bed for hours and she gently tapped me to sleep and unfolded my legs.She was a bit frightened yet it was not uncommon for her. The morning passed by today fast and there seemed to be a message from Mother, the eternal feminity of God, that one must be private and yet open. Maybe this email was my first step. I did my meditation and meditative ritual before the Srichakra in the other room carefully locked it lest my baby daughter's play with it as another toy! A smile stole my lips as I typed these last lines.Is meditation a surreal experience of life or life a surreal meditation? Shreeram Balijepalli Shreeram Balijepalli Hreem Rajarajeshwari Paradevatha! Purity, Powers, Parabrahmam... Click to join Rajarajeshwari_ Kalpataru Be the first one to try the new Messenger 9 Beta! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 13, 2008 Report Share Posted November 13, 2008 Dear Tammudu, There wa snothing to understand perse in my email.Just an experience told and done with.I have forgotten about it in minutae. The more one seeks to elaborate on any experience the more one clings to it. Contradiction is not inherently 'wrong' or 'right'. It is a state of observance which is to be sought here.Observing the contradiction and the elimination happens automatically for a mature mind. The contradiction talked about was that of a fundamental thing nothing to do with any darshan of any deity or a want in future or a present dilemma or happening.Contradiction is inherent in human nature.The more one fights it and seeks the morality or confines of a secluded path, the more one fails. It is to this primal contradiction that my email was typed.Maybe that was a spiritual moment then to share and this is in no way an explantion to that but another spiritual moment, thanks to you. Shreeram Balijepalli Datta-Yoga , ramakrishna venkata <sripadavallabha wrote: > > Jaya Guru Datta > > Dear Annayya, > > Thank you for the wonderful mail. I didnot understand the meaning of the message, and its significance. an you elaborate on that? > > I can appreciate that one has to be very watchful in the path of sadhana, the same mind which gave me the conviction that i can proceed in a particular direction later tells me that i chose the wrong direction. The context I hope becomes obvious to you. Thanks for sharing the mail, at a time when i too am seeing a contradiction in my mind. Today, while doing the gayatri japam i asked mother " Why mother! did i do anything wrong? that you are making me traverse through this. Am i a fraud, in that i am attributing everything to you? Shoudl i not think about the oneness of truth, you are the one who says everything is one, but why this contradiction. If it is a lesson so be it. Please teach me, i give up, i give up, i give up the fact that i have a brilliant mind, that i am intelligent, because the same intelligence is ffailing sometimes. Who am i , who doesnot have control on his thoughts, i will not again say that i am intellient. Thank you mother, for you > made me humble. You made me test it and taste it. Now, i want you i wnt you, please make me do sahasra gayatri in december, show me a way, let me focus only on the problem at thand, i want to do a phd, let me focus on that. I shall never again contradict what has been told by my mother, what has been told by my father, i shall be normal and simple, its your grace that brought me this direction, so be it. It will be you who will guide me from here on. " > > I finished my japam, i smiled within myself as i was smearing sandal paste to guru padukas. I remebered my guru, i felt happy for his affection towards me, in guiding me. Thank you annayya for being a supportive element in my life. > > Sincerely > > Tammudu. > > I would like to know the basics of sadhan from you. I donot know how much i can submit myself, but to the possible degree of humlity that i can show, i am requesting you to share that which would be relevant to me. It is left to your inspiration that you get from mother. It is the same mother which you and i worship, you and i have guru, but you are closer to mother, higher in consciousness, so please ask that unifying principle about her message for me. > > > I hope i am not bothering you. > > Sincerely > > Pada anajali > > Tammudu > > ________________________________ > Group Owner para_anuloma > datta-yoga > Thursday, 13 November, 2008 1:04:22 PM > [Datta-Yoga] Message > > > Dear All, > > Last night was spent in some deep meditation.The wind was blowing a bit heavily here in Canada.The clime was cold outside, the water heater in my room was fighting a desperate battle to keep me warm. > > The warmth nevertheless was coming from within.Things can be shared too.That is why this is being shared with people who want to listen.Listening is different from plain hearing.The former happens with a heart. > > I had a question for my meditation-- Why do I contradict myself? Am I a contradiction? I like both rigidity and non-rigidity in the search of Truth/God? > > I know the above is a combination of questions and not a single one.Yet the essence of questioning was just one. > > Brain is limited and life is terribly limted.Are my visions a mere projection of my inner self?The meditation went on for hours.My baby daughters were now snoring blissfully. > > There came a vacuum and I could not hear the water heaters little murmur anymore, my black formal coat which I wore to the office, neatly dry-washed and hanging in the unclosed closet, seemed to move.My eyes were closed, yet the vacuum made me feel all this. > > The vacuum slowly gave way to another bigger vacuum and after that I did not know what happened. Maybe that was the real vacuum! > > I slowly woke up and my wife said to me shyly that I had been in the padmasana position on my bed for hours and she gently tapped me to sleep and unfolded my legs.She was a bit frightened yet it was not uncommon for her. > > The morning passed by today fast and there seemed to be a message from Mother, the eternal feminity of God, that one must be private and yet open. > > Maybe this email was my first step. I did my meditation and meditative ritual before the Srichakra in the other room carefully locked it lest my baby daughter's play with it as another toy! > > A smile stole my lips as I typed these last lines.Is meditation a surreal experience of life or life a surreal meditation? > > Shreeram Balijepalli > > > > > > Shreeram Balijepalli > Hreem Rajarajeshwari Paradevatha! > Purity, Powers, Parabrahmam... > > > Click to join Rajarajeshwari_ Kalpataru > > > > > > Add more friends to your messenger and enjoy! Go to http://messenger./invite/ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You are posting as a guest. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.