Truth and Lies

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Dear Narasimha,

 

I was trying to forget but here it is.

 

You know when I ever have any kind of 'touch' of something higher,

it

is always sweet, sooo loving, and unconditional, so wide, nothing

like

has been described. Pure love and beauty.

 

And then come all kinds of religions saying no no, even if you could

find some completeness, some rest you would be damned to live over.

You have to know Krishna as always being seperate from you and come

to

him. All this Brahman awareness will get you into trouble. And

then

we have the muslims with their Jihad etc. I guess it goes back to

the

Christian damnation suffered at school and is confusing and

frightning.

Its like you can never be sure and never be right. And what I know

to

be true doesn't like it.

 

But through all the different ways I have sought, the touch has

always

been, well divine. When I do my mantras I dont experience any

hardness, just gentleness. I go to Kali temple, Krshna temple,

different tastes and flavours, and I say you show me, theres no

problem. So why would God be throwing anyone around?

 

When I practice Jyotish, usually alone it seems to me that

everything

is perfect, so wonderful and I think Yes this is it, this is

wonderful, its okay.

 

While writing this the phone rang and rang off, and I accidently

sent

off 3 empty mails. So this is Budha sending it away. I have to not

be swayed by different conflicting religous views that scare.

Anyway

in Christianity I dont think you can merge, but there is only one

life, you better get it right though as its heaven or hell forever

after!

 

I would like really to know ultimately what is THE FINAL TRUTH. But

check this. One of my Tachers was Papaji a disciple of Ramana

Maharshi. He chanted Krishna mantras until his Guru freed him.

There

are different stories of his awakening. One is that Papaji was

acting

strange, and Ramana asked him 'what are you doing', to which he

replied 'playing with Krishna', Ramana responded 'you own self is

Krishna', at which point he woke up. Now Papaji expounded an

Advaitic

path, yet even he would taunt us with this 'can you tell me the

secret

AFTER enlightenment'. He said this enlightenment is just the

begining. The closest I cam to intellectually understanding all

this

was through AGHORA II, where Vimalananda spoke about higher lokas of

Krishna, as well as awakening and even Rishis, Siddhas and Munis

etc.

And the shock of the level of knowledge in that book took me one

year

to intergrate. The second time I read it, the synapses were

prepared,

and it was a little easier.

So I dont know.

 

Sincerely,

Paul