He Says : His Journey !!

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An Young Man's Journey : He Says

 

I began...

 

 

 

As an ethereal idea incarnated into the now with passion.

As a shared passion and sentiment between two young people.

In moment of profound surrender between two lost as one.

In a time when certainty was a luxury unafforded to youth & love.

When promises seemed eternal, perfect, and enduring.

When the future was hopeful and the present was understandable.

With the sudden reality of my helplessness & blind faith in people.

With the joys only a child understood & woes a child overlooked.

 

I began as a bound and free, released into the world.

 

I grew...

 

In a world that was the promise of a better tomorrow but not mine

In a time when sacrifices went unseen & seemingly unappreciated

In the presence of family which even with distance feels close

To appreciate the world around me and witness its many wonders

To love the wisdom of nature, the order of the stars, the Law

To seek out Truth, Goodness, & Beauty in things seen & unseen

Into a young mind eager for secrets past, present, and future

Into a solitary youth by choice, but sociable by compulsion

Into a competitive, humble, and conflicted boy trying to be a man

 

I grew a boy forging himself & his chains, and keys in the soul.

 

I discovered...

 

That as a young man I believed no one, least of all myself

If I was wrong in so many things, the world must be erroneous

That I was meant to be unfeeling to be a man, it made no sense

If I showed my feelings I was weak, and so I chose weakness

That while I knew many things for others, I knew little for me

If focused on myself alone I would begin to feel selfish and alone

That women made little sense at all to me when I had no sense

If love was a feeling, why was I always so damn numb always

 

I discovered the true sadness of cynicism, the elation of wonder.

 

I saw...

 

Promises and oaths broken and reforged, ashes and dust

People walking lifelessly and I among them quickened by fear

Problems soaked in hate, prejudice, pride, power, and fear

Promises of a better world active in society, giving themselves

People fighting for a living, seeking peace in the shelter of love

Problems approached with reason and faith and progress made

 

I saw how much this world and its people mean to me

 

I loved...

 

The fragility and strength I can achieve alone, I love Thelema.

The effort of my family despite weakness and pride, I love Storge.

The joys my fellow man can achieve despite pain, I love Philia.

The good this Republic has done despite history, I love Patriotes.

The lessons women have given me in gain & loss, I love Eros.

The blessings and power of God " s grace in all things, I love Agape.

 

I loved seeing how Love is working quietly even now in me.

 

I became...

 

Priest, a man of faith, unafraid to show the world black & white

Poet, a man of inspiration, fearlessly bringing fire back into souls

Rebel, a man of conflict, ever eager to discover & examine reality

Lover, a man of passion, devoted to Romance, Chivalry, and Heat

Prophet, a man of vision, firm but fair in his perceptions of vanity

Doctor, a man of healing, eager to set right the desolation of Fear

Teacher, a man of counsel, humble to know when he knows not

Soldier, a man of courage, taking a stand for what is true and just

Son, a man of God and Men, flesh seeking spirit, spirit lifting flesh

King, a man of destiny and power, raised to rule himself before all.

 

I became who I was meant to be.. Me.