2-Mark ... Mother's passings...

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Dear Mark,

 

I just read about your mother and felt like sharing...

 

....i lost my mother when i was barely 18, though i never grew up

with her...due to family problems (and a sacrifice on her part to

ensure i have a good life and education) i was being brought up by

my maternal grandparents and uncles...

 

....she was sickly all her life with asthama and arthritis..her

husband (my father) was a gambler who used to even pawn the stuff

that she with great difficulty earnt and bought..when she died i

remember i felt a heartbreaking sadness about life and god's

ways...coz she had no happiness in life..absolutely nothing in her

life had gone well..the only fruitful thing about her life was

perhaps my own life...

 

this year on my birthday i remembered her and moped intensely for

not having been there for her eighteen years ago..and coz i

remembered her sacrifice and the selfless love i got from her in the

little time we spent together...however, in that moment of distress,

a friend said..usha, your mother doesnt want you to cry or feel

sorry for her...she wants you to be happy, doing what you want and

being happy and in peace with it...

 

....the truth of it really hit me..and ever since i've been

consciously trying to do things that could make me happy and lifting

myself out of any sadness or depression these nasty transits have

been causing through prayers and faith...and more often these days,

maybe coz am older and i understand and appreciate her more, i feel

an immense gratitude towards her..for my own life...for all her

sacrifices..and i feel she is still guiding me on towards fulfilling

my own purpose in life...

 

Don't know if it helps, but felt the need to share...

 

Love and peace,

Usha

 

 

, " Brother Francis, SP "

<cosmicsource wrote:

>

> , markkincaid@ wrote:

> >

> >

> >

> > dear mark,

> > with a heavy heart i write to you.

> > very sorry to hear about your dear mother.

> > we had discussed in our chats about how you almost lost her some

days

> > back.

> > may her soul be in eternal peace.

> > love and light to you my friend

> > rhoda

> >

> > Hi Rhoda:

> > Thank you so much for your condolances. She hasn't passed away

> > yet.

> >

> > Just big scare 1 1/2 weeks ago. We've just been

> > reflecting on the great Saturn lesson of

> > death and dieing...

> >

> > How you been?

> >

> > Survive the most recent Saturn & Sun

> > collision?

> >

> > Now, that was intense for me!

> >

> > Probably

> > because my natal Sun was at the same 18th degree of Leo, the

same very

> > day

> > that Saturn and the transiting Saturn were colliding last week at

> > that same 18th degree!

> >

> > I'd never experienced such a thing

> > before. Was probably the most intense transit I've

> > ever

> > experienced!

> >

> > No wonder Saturn has such a negative

> > connotation!

> > hehe

> >

> Hi Mark,

>

> I have a few moments in space and time to connect with my brother.

I

> hope, and I believe I know that your doing fine under these

> circumstances. I relate to you and your process, as you know, our

> journeys are similar. We are Jyotish (in the Light) people, and if

we

> are Light beings, where is the sting of death.

>

> Life is a continuum of Light without end, therefore we sing the

> praises of God in Love of His light, even when the " lightbulb "

needs

> changing. We, therefore are in the Light of Happiness and grace

> knowing that we too, recognise our own luminousity, therefore

nothing

> has changed, except our heart of joy and gladeness of life

eternal, now!

>

> I am with you ever in Love of light and wakefulness. Yes, we

graduate

> into the sign of wakefulness to a Light Body, ever glowing and new.

> Thus all things are cleared up in out minds as we awaken into a new

> thought. But, for now we meditate within the luminous sphere of

love

> and delight that nothing in life is lost, but indeed gained.

>

> My heart and love for you...

>

> Brother Edward Francis

>