ANS: # No. 2771: jean_rosa79@y... : I've had a very sad life!!!! -- .

[Guest guest]

Dear Rosa,

We(lalkitab group) are definetly with you, but you do not

mention your birth details.

Plz mention your birth details, As Date of birth, Time of birth,

Place of birth or Lati. & Long. of birth place, Country.

Thanks

May God bless you

Umesh Sharma

 

-- In lalkitab , " jean_rosa79 "

<jean_rosa79> wrote:

> I am sorry for prying into your business and reading a post

> that was not intended for me. When I read the heading on your post

I

> said to myself, this person can't possibly have things as ruff as I

> do, and oddly enough you do, plus our lives seem almost similiar.

> I am a 26 year old with a 9 year old daughter, we both live

in

> a shelter. My parents have abused me mentally all of my life and

> sometimes I wish the abuse was physical, because atleast if they

only

> beat me the pain would be gone by now, but words hurt more than any

> pain I know of. I have to struggle everyday just to figure out how

I

> am going to feed my little girl, my daughters father doesn't want

> anything to do with his daughter because he can't have me, he

hasn't

> seen his little girl in seven years. I had my little one when I was

> only 16, and the money my mother collected from welfare for me and

my

> child, I didn't get one dime from her. I had to resort to

> prostitution for about four years. I am trying my best not to go

back

> to doing that because I have been raped a total of five times

already

> and a couple of times I was almost killed. The only person I really

> had in my life was my little brother, he was my best friend --- he

> was also murdered at 16. I have a boy friend at the moment but at

> times mentally he can be just as bad as my parents were. Every

> relationship I was in was shit as well, and oddly every time I fall

> in love I become a slave for that person because I am so desperate

> for someone to love me.

> I would love to be able to give up and just commit suicide

so

> that the pain would die right along with me, sometimes I fantasize

> about being murdered myself, the only thing that keeps me strong is

> the fact that I know if I have no-one now, then who will my

daughter

> have if I am gone???. I guess what I am trying to say is that we

all

> go through our own personal demons, and it is up to us if we are

> going to be strong enough to deal with them and fight them off. One

> of my little brother's has herpes and I know it can be incredibly

> painful, sometimes he can't walk. I know he uses alot of

medications

> like Bacitration, Hydrocortisone and any kind of cream to clear the

> out break up faster.There is a medicine that you can buy in the

> pharmacy section of any discount store and I forget the name but it

> comes in regular and extra strength and it is made for relieving

the

> pain of yeast infections, and trust me it will numb your whole

> genital area so good, you will feel like you are in heaven-- (I

will

> try to find out the name if your interested, and it cost's like

$4.00

> the most.) Also you should try to fill out for a medicaid card

> because Valtrex-(which is a pill), can clear up out breaks as well

as

> stop them from coming, my brother has not had an out break in over

a

> year.

> I don't fully know your situation and all of the things

> that might be bothering you but I hope this has helped ease your

mind

> a bit. Also remember that the more stressed out you are the more

out-

> breaks you are going to get. Just you writing to this message board

> seeking some-one's help that you don't even know, show's that some-

> where deep inside of you, you want to live, and you want to be

happy

> and trying to find help is a good start towards helping your self!

> You should be proud of your self that you love your self enough to

> not be suicidal even though you have been through so much. --(I

wish

> I could say the same.) I have to go now, I spent so much time

already

> on this letter, but know that you are not alone and someone does

> care. If you ever feel the need to talk, I need friends and you can

> feel free to e-mail me. I pray that things get better for you, shit

> they say that if you truly love your self then it should be no

> problem finding someone to love you, and I know some where in your

> heart you do love your self, I wish I could say the same about

myself.

> No matter if you want to e-mail me back or not, I hope the best out

> come for you, and I hope Lakitbastrology can help you.

>

> Thanks for taking time out to read this and God Bless,

> Jeannette Rosa -- <jean_rosa79>