is suicide the only path left for me?????

[Guest guest]

I AM A PERSON WHO HAS LOST ALL HIS HOPES IN LIFE. FROM CHILDHOOD, IN EVERY

FIELD

OF MY LIFE, I FACED STRUGGLE TO THE UTMOST EXTENT. FOR THAT, NOT ONLY I

SUFFERED, BUT MY PARENTS SUFFERED THE MOST, BOTH MENTALLY ,PHYSICALLY AND

ECONOMICALLY. SOME SAY THAT I AM BRILLIANT IN STUDIES. I THINK THIS ASPECT OF

MINE IS THE GREATEST CURSE THE GOD HAS GIVEN TO ME. I BECAME AN ENGINEER ON

INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY. BUT I DID'NT GET A JOB ON CAMPUS INTERVIEWS OR ON

OFF-CAMPUS INTERVIEWS WHERE I FOUND MYSELF VERY UNLUCKY, GOING OUT OF THE

INTERVIEW IN THE LAST ROUND. THEN I THOUGHT TO DO MY MBA. I DID IT WITH GOOD

MARKS. BUT THEN ALSO THE SAME THING STARTED HAPPENING TO ME i.e. NOT GETTING A

JOB. BUT IN THIS PROCESS OF BECOMING AN MBA, I TOOK A LOAN OF HEFTY SUM OF LOAN

WHICH I AM UNABLE TO REPAY IN MY PRESENT ECONOMIC STATE. MY PARENTS ALWAYS

GIVE ME SUPPORT MENTALLY BUT I KNOW THAT THEY ARE RUINED AND I AM THE CAUSE

OF IT. TO ADD SALT TO THE INJURY, RELATIVES ASK THEM ABOUT ME. THEY DONT

UNDERSTAND THE REASON(WHICH I ALSO DONT UNDERSTAND) FOR WHICH I AM NOT

GETTING A JOB WHERE OTHER PERSONS WHO ARE LESS QUALIFIED ARE GETTING GOOD

JOBS.

 

NOW I AM SO MENTALLY DRAINED THAT I SOMETIMES THINK OF DOING SUICIDE AND

MAKING THE END OF THIS CURSED LIFE.

 

WHAT SHALL I DO???

 

 

MY DOB:- 4TH AUGUST, 1981

TIME:- 9:21 PM

PLACE:- CALCUTTA, INDIA