Guity or not guilty?

[Guest guest]

Hello everyone,

 

Thank you for welcoming me as a new member of the group. I see that

many people find answers to questions, old and new, and help each

other. Hoping to find an answer to such a question of my own, I post

here my little story.

 

We were three room mates in one bedroom apartment in Anaheim,

California, US. In January, 2005, the other two room mates fought

with each other with a knife. One was injured with blood wounds in

his palm and wrists. I was totally terrified. All three of us worked

for the same company. I couldn't go to work, I couldn't continue to

live with them, I was just totally shocked by the incident. I was

advised not to speak to anyone in the office about it. Unable to bear

the shock, I moved out, and later I revealed what happened and I

resigned. I have been looking for job since then. After three

months, I got a job with a farmaceutical company, and I was terminated

the third day at work. Now I am again jobless. I am getting

frustrated. There is total chaos and confusion in my job search. My

mind is flickering from one thing to another. Against my wishes, no

matter how much I try, I am ending up upsetting a lot of my well

wishers. I have lost many friends and earned new enemies.

 

Now I feel that God and the forces of nature are punishing me for

resigning from the job and letting others know what happened. How can

I perform prayashchit if I am guilty. Does Lal Kitab has anything

pertaining to performing prayashchit. If I am not guilty, then what

upay will help me put my life back on track. I am convinced that my

problem is something more than just unemployment. Hope some body out

there in this world will help me help myself.

 

Dhanyavad,

 

Indudhar

Date of Birth: July 21, 1976

Time of Birth: 8:59 pm / 20:59

Place of Birth: Bangalore, Karnataka, India