Seeking Direction & Hope

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My respect to tall the learned Guru jaan on this forum.

 

I am like a one, lost in dark sea seeking a Beacon of Light / Ray of Hope. I am

approaching you all with a hope that with help of this esteemed group I will be

able to set direction to my life. I am giving my details so that the learned

scholars may be able to help me with right analysis of my situation.

 

My Background –

I started my carrier at an early age of 22 (1978 – 79). Till date I have changed

almost 8-9 different occupation/business. In most of them I did very well

professionally but was never financially rewarded. To the extent I was

appreciated for my talent, work and delivering results but never had money. The

irony of the matter was that people associated or working under me took home 5 –

6 time more money that I could even plan for myself.

 

On top of all that the tragedy is that all my 8-9 occupation suddenly

disappeared one fine day without any reason or logic, even though I was doing

well in them at that time. This was the main reason for me to start FRESH every

time for 9 times and do so many businesses.

 

I belong to an upper middle class family due to which I never had to think of

one square meal at the end of the day. And I always thought if I am appreciated

for my talent, work and results I deliver, money will follow.

 

I was 42 (1999), when the joint family environment was also taken away due to

death of my mother. She was the binding factor of the family. There after I

really struggled in life. Established independent home and I did 2 more business

which again met the same end as I have described above.

 

I must confess that when an outsider see us (me & my family) they see us quite

well off. Where as the reality is, I do not have money in my wallet if I want to

buy my son a pair of shoes he wants. I do not know where the money will come

from if I have a medical emergency in the family..? My father is retired,

living with us and still supports us financially.

 

Adding fuel to the fire is my social and family status. When I seek guidance /

help from out side, people do not believe that I am in situation I have

described above. They all think I am loaded with money, have every thing going

form me and just joking with them.

 

Now I am 52, again at a cross road where I do not know what is in my fate. I

have kind of lost confidence in my future/self, I have age catching up with me,

and I do not know if I can make a fresh start again and, will I be able to

retain my occupation and a constant source of income. I have worked in almost

8-9 different type of businesses and do not have the energy to start learning

another one at this age. It's quite frustrating. I need HELP.

 

My Birth Details:

Date : 9th March 1957

Place: Delhi

Time: 05:05 Hrs as per one Horoscope &

04:52 Hrs as per one Horoscope

Both of them are quite old and were got made by my mother.

 

Important Events in My Life

Got married - 1st Dec 1980

1st Son - 29th Dec 1981

2nd Son - 14th March 1985

Lost Mother - July 1999

Moved from joint family home - Oct 1999

Moved in Own house - April 2006

 

 

My Questions is just ONE.. but parts there of are:

In future do I have an Occupation that will be a constant source of Income for

me?

What kind of work / occupation or field or work, it should be?

Will I be able to retain my social status and family respect on my own?

What I should do to improve my fate..?

 

Irrespective of response I get, I will like to thank all who took time and read

through my message of help.

 

With kind regards

 

Sunil