Dear Nanba!

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Dear Nanba,

 

Iam a bit sober now after weeping my heart out.Thanks to you I

experienced some tears ago and offered it slyly at Amba's feet. For

my guru what can I offer tell me? Is my offering of love true and

pure? What can I offer tell me Rajkumar Anna!

 

What you see are just my mechanical typings on your screen but do

you see my heart crying here? Your favourite Anniyan's heart crying

here?

 

I type these words and my postings because I love people who are

trying for God in some form. And I wont yak like other people. I

will help even if I have to die for that sake.Death then becomes

meaningful an eternity. In my school choir we used to say the

St.Assisi prayer which had lines like...In dying we are born to

eternal life.

 

Die to old concepts be born anew my friend. Be dynamic and also non-

dynamic.That will complete the cycle.

 

Thiruvaasagam says

 

Ayyaainai ayyarpiranai nammai agampadunkatunkarunai kaatum!

And then he goes on to say poienna piyai meiyammaiyai bodhadi

potradithol....

 

This sounds like a eulogy on Shiva...but Manickavasagar who had a

secret guru was being invoked in these 'varigal' not even his

beautiful Shiva and then he goes on to say

 

Poienna poiyyai meiyammaiya bodhadi potradithol...it was a clever

attack on divine mother who gives maya and closes the eye...I say

clever because he praises the third eye region where Guru stays

sometimes in the Guru-shishya leela cycle which is trillions of time

more beautiful than shiva and shakthi union.These are things you

will never find in any book.

 

I used to even spit on Amba's photo saying that yuu are maya you

seperate me from my Guru.Just because my guru has aging and old

hairs he is not 'not beautiful'. Do you think Amba will be angry at

me my friend?That is the greatest maya m y friend to think that

shiva-shakthi union is the highest...it is guru-shishya union whioch

is the highest...and amba is the disciple of shiva and hence that

union is the highest! AASK ANY MODERN DAY KALIYUGA WOMAN TO HOLD HER

HUSBANDS HANDS...She will have thousand's of misgivings even if her

husband is an angel and a saint!

 

If I have hurt anyone's feeling by using the words spit please

forgive me.

MAY ESHWAREE WHOM I LOVE VERY DEARLY ALSO FORGIVE ME FOR THIS

BLASPHEMY....But still guru is sarvam for me.

 

Since you used the words 'shisyathva' when referring to Amba in your

post. I think there is a slight chance for you. But If you can get

her as your guru matha then that will mean she should come down in

physical form and teach you. I do not believe in stories like

ekalavya when it comes to spirituality!

 

I take all your spits on me for speaking like this

 

Yet Iam cleansed of my sins with your very spits!

 

Sorry for getting amotional again when talking about guru....One can

never be sober when talking about one's guru that is why i avoid

cleverly that topic and discuss about Amba.

 

After I remain your koolikaaran for Amba.,if i may say so

 

Your anniyan and emotional scoundrel again,

 

Shreeram Balijepalli