Guest guest Posted January 24, 2007 Report Share Posted January 24, 2007 I was standing on the stage-like I usually do at the end of Devi Bhava. I like being where the "action" is. However, my back was flaring up in acute, sharp pain. I tried to ignore it, but the more I tried, the more it hurt. I was stubborn though-I had a "good spot" where I could see Amma...others were wanting in..I relented. My back was killing me! AS I stepped down from the stage, my unfinished seva greeted me. The flowers were being prepared for Devi Bhava and I asked if they need help. A resounding "YES!!" was issued and I set to work. One of the Swamis also sat with us-a blessing to me-and helped for a bit. It was interesting to me that after the whole retreat of doing no seva, that Amma gave me something to do at the end. Once we completed the flowers, we enjoyed the shower of petals from Amma. Usually I remain in the crush within the hall, gazing at Amma but this time, I felt differently. I did not feel I really needed to do this. I love being around Amma but just knew she was with me anyway. I walked out and found myself by the elevator where she was coming. Again, I did not feel I needed to be there. I just felt Amma was walking with me already. I have no regrets over this either. In fact, the relief of feeling her presence as I prepared to head home rather than the grief of separation-was a welcome respite. Carrying my Amma doll and suitcase in hand, I climbed into the taxi and headed to the airport. Amma filled me with peace. I wish I could always remember this peacefulness. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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