About Our Weekly Prayer List -Prajna

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it's nice to here that things are working out. i find your story such

a great example. through your faith and awareness, you have taken

what could have been perceived as a hugely negative circumstance, and

used it in a way that actually served to further your faith and

awareness. this type of ability and understanding i would imagine is

very inspiring and of great benefit to your yoga students. JAI MA!

 

Ammachi, "Prajna" <prajnaji wrote:

>

> Dear Sanatani and group,

>

> Thank you for the reminder about the prayer list. I wanted to make a

> prayer request and also to give an update.

>

> First, thank you again to everyone who supported me through the car

> accident experience. As I and many of you suspected, it was indeed a

> blessing in disguise. To bring you all up to speed, I was in

> excrutiating back pain when Mother came here to San Ramon (herniated

> disk). On tuesday night, I was blessed to be able to ask Amma a

> question I've always wanted to ask about being alone with Amma on the

> inside. Her answer actually gave me a great insight into my own self,

> and was unbelievably personal, in a way that I think only I

> understood, yet was still beneficial for everyone else. Only Amma can

> do this. The way she looked at me that night... so much depth and

> understanding. I went for darshan later that night and she held me

> for such a long time, and was not chatting with other people as she

> usually does. She just pressed her cheek to mine and gave a long

> sigh, slowly rubbing my spine, neck to tailbone, up and down, over

> and over. I really had the experience that in all of creation there

> was only the lover and the beloved, as the sufis say. I was alone

> with Amma, but in such a way that I was also happy to share her with

> everyone, because there was only lover and beloved anyway. This was

> the essence of her answer to me, that if you hold water in your

> cupped hands, it will stay, but if you close your fists around it, it

> runs through your fingers. Wow! That applies to me on so many levels.

> I've NEVER been so touched by Amma, and that teaching is working

> through every aspect of my life.

>

> The next morning we flew to Seattle to spend thanksgiving with my

> family. Although I was in a lot of pain on the way up, by thursday,

> somehow the pain was gone. I didn't take any pain medication that day

> and have only taken it a few times since. We came back in time for

> Devi Bhava, at the end of which I had a tremendous emotional release.

> Amma gave my hand a little squeeze on her way out.

>

> I started up a very gentle, cautious hatha yoga practice, which I

> have done every day for over a week, and have used this healing

> process as an opportunity to learn more about healing. It's

> interesting, because as a yoga teacher, Im accustomed to my

> body "performing" at a certain "level." But that's not what yoga is

> about, it's about here and now, and bringing the same loving

> attention and acceptance to your practice in a way that is right for

> your body, with the understanding that our bodies fluctuate just as

> our minds do. Hmm. Food for thought. My old teacher used to joke that

> modern living was about keeping the body stationary while the mind

> goes in a thousand directions... hatha yoga is about a still mind

> with a body going in a thousand directions!

>

> But I needed a car. Without divulging too many personal details about

> my husbands ex-wife and her family, let me just say that the need to

> take custody of Sammy has become an issue of unspeakable proportions.

> Recent events and circumstances have left no other option than to get

> a car quickly so we can get Sammy into a safe and stable home, and

> still have a way to get her to and from school.

>

> Well, just in the nick of time, I have found a good little car (a 98

> Corolla with 70,000 miles) that I can afford with finacing, and am

> able to put a humble down payment on this weekend. We will have full

> temporary custody of Sammy by monday. Next month we have an

> overwhelmingly good chance of getting custody of her more

> permanantly. Our prayer is that we will get full physical custody,

> with visitation for her mom, until her mom gets a full time job and

> her own place to live, at which time we wish to have 50% joint

> custody. This is the best possible situation for Sammy, and also for

> her family. I wish I could share more of the specifics, as they are

> relevent to Amma's miraculous ways, but it wouldn't be apporpriate to

> share the details.

>

> I am going to test drive the car today, and will keep you all posted.

> I am really feeling so much better, and can only say that, in a way

> that I wish I could explain further, the car accident is the reason

> that we are able to give Sammy a safe and loving home for Christmas.

>

> Love to all of you, and thanks again for your powerful love and

> prayer. We just can't underestimate the value of sincere, collective,

> loving intention.

>

> love,

> Prajna

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