Please - Help needed

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To the Vaidyas,

 

I am going through some very heavy times, the dark time of the soul.

7 months ago I developed some acute asthma attacks. I consulted an

ayurvedic doctor who diagnosed me with kapha-pitta disturbances in

my lungs/bronchia and I was put on a a vegan anti-kapha/pitta

reducing diet with a herbal compund to clean out ama from lungs and

some other stuff like Triphala, as there was no chance of pancha

karma therapy, I couldnt afford it due to high price here in the

west. The mucus was slowly cleaned out and I became better. Then 2

months ago I started having heat flashes and pulsing in the body as

if I had hypertension. Normal medical tests showed nothing wrong, I

was tested in different ways, blodd samples for thyroid, kidneys,

etc etc. I went to my ayurvedic doctor and she diagnosed me through

the pulse with excessive pitta in all organs. she also

mentioned, "vata is pushing pitta..." She said a lot of heat had

built up during the summer because i had been eating less pitta

reducing foods (which was true) and I had been extremely stressed

because of my work and not getting enough exercise, and so she told

me to go on a strict anti-pitta diet for 2 months. So I started with

the diet and after 1-2 weeks the heat flashes went away, but the

pulsing continued and I went on with the diet. Then after 1.5 weeks

I suddenly had an anxiety attack on the street and couldnt breath, i

thought I was going to die. Just before I left my apartment, I had

drunk some warm soyamilk with carob powder and some cane suger,

first I experienced that the pulsing went up radically and then i

had craving for salt. i thought that I had some allergeic reaction

to carob, but I always had no problem with it. Then i took some salt

and the pulsing went away and after some time a felt a relaxiation

effect and felt okay, nicely relaxed. Then I went on the walk and on

the way i had the attack. i barely made it home and was in a state

of death panick and called 911. then my girlfriend came home and

said that it was a panic attack. I started to wind down slowly but

was so scared as I never experienced anything like it, i could not

breathe, the whole stomach area and chest was locked. prior to this

happening, i had EKG and other heart tests and was fully normal. I

remained in after state chock and felt weird. It took me several

days to wind down. Then I had some more anxiety attacks (no

breathing problems) and then I realized that i probably had severe

vata disturbance. i went on a grounding diet and slowly the worst

symptoms went away. i could feel how the apana vayu was constricted

(no constipation through )due to emotional factors related anxiety

and supressed anger with shallow breathing and how it was affecting

prana vata and other sub vatas. I started doing deep breathing

exercises into the stomach and was able to bring it down with the

diet slowly. I started sweating a lot after eating. Because of some

unresolved emotional factors that I need to resolve, my anxiety had

continued and I also had different phobias. i contacted my ayurvedic

doctor but she did not respond back, so i dumped her and will make a

complaint to the authorities for her advice. She should have called

me back and she never mentioned about a vata disturbance and I

should monitor this, only that I should relax and do lunar

pranayama. She is a student of Dr. Lad. A friend who is a very

qualified vedic astrologer went over my chart and found I am in ketu

dasha and when the first attack happened, on the exact day after, a

retrograde transit of jupiter (pure vata) started affecting my Sun

boosted by my Ketu dasha. Astrologically, this would explain some of

the karma behind what is happening. I am wearing rudraksha beads

some days after the first attack which seems to be helping. Last

friday, I suddenly started experiencing insomnia and have slept an

average of 3-4 hours a day, sometimes I went for more than 30 hours

with being able to sleep and slept 6 hours at the most. I am really

at my wits end now and my doctor has just prescribed an

antidepressive called Remeron against the anxiety and insomnia which

I am supposed to start taking tomorrow. I was taking a 5mg valium

yesterday and today which has helped me to relax and I also got 4

hours of sleep last night, which I thought would never happen. I am

afraid of going to bed because I think i cant fall asleep, as soon

as I get drowsy, I get a fearbased sensation of, oh no, I dont want

to sleep, I dont want to become unconscious and then I have a solar

plexus reaction and I become awake and then i lie and struggle and

struggle and cannot fall asleep. Although my anxiety is now dimished

greatly because of the valium, I dont like the feeling of being

drugged, that thamasic feeling. But it seems there is no other

alternative. But i am really worried that this other medication will

screw me up further. Can anyone give me any advice on what I should

do, either yoga asanas, pranayam etc, I dont know so much about

these things. I am taking Bach remedies which has helped alot, but I

keep going up and down, also because of my social situation. I am

going in therapy asap for my emotional problems, long standing

suupressed things, family background and current relationship with

my girlfriend who is not being emotionally supportive, which is

killing me while I am going through this crisis and she is not

really there for me, she doesnt accept my crisis, she tolerates it.

I feel this is a major reason for why I am not recuperating as I

should, as I dont have any family left and no close friends to

socialize with while I am here at her place, so I have been

practically isolated and that is also causing my depression and

phobias, which could be the most causative in my case. But I have to

much fear to go back to my own place as it is far away. But the

influence of the planets according to my karma, is there for some

time yet, although it should get a little better in one week. I

tried aswagandha to relax but it is not really helping so much, i

took a little tulasi to try and get the cortisol stress hormone

down. Maybe it helped a little. Otherwise I am taking vitamins an

minerals and EFA's. I didnt take any polyherbal supplements for the

last month, like Chyawan Prash right now. I am wondering what I

should do. If anyone has any input, I would be so grateful.

Thank you very much,

Satyadharma