Lesson 330 from ACIM offred at Amma's Lotus Feet

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"I will not hurt myself again today."

I attack myself when I refuse to accept my true Identity. I attack

myself when I refuse to accept that God's Will for me is my will. When

I cut myself off from my Source in order to have the impression that I

am separate and alone, I am attacking myself. I would not hurt myself

again today.

 

Today I would take one more step toward letting go of the false ideas

of limitation and lack. Refusing to accept my own Identity is painful.

It creates anxiety and the feeling of lack and loss. Forgiveness is my

function here. Today I would practice choosing forgiveness, or letting

go of false perceptions, every time I am tempted to teach myself the

ego's lessons in limitation and lack.

 

Holy Spirit, today I would practice opening my mind to You all through

the day. Today I would practice following Your lead. I have followed

the wrong teacher and have been sorely mistaken. I have lost the

awareness of my true Identity and I now know that You will help me

return to the truth that I have never left. Today I am willing to

practice accepting God's gifts. Today I am willing to practice opening

my mind to Your healing perceptions. "I will not hurt myself again today."

 

My natural state, the only real state, is oneness with Love, my

Creator. To not experience that unity and all the gifts that come with

it, I must actively choose against it. I would only choose against it

if I believed that this choice would give me something of greater value.

 

The ego is the idea that it is possible to have something of greater

value than all of God's Love, all of His peace and all of His joy,

eternally. Only insanity would believe this and thus this world is an

insane world. Insanity means being unaware of reality. To believe in

this world we must be unaware of reality. The ego offers us

specialness, telling us that specialness -- uniqueness and

independence -- is worth more than all of God's Love.

 

Every time we choose specialness over God's Love we are hurting

ourselves. We are choosing to be cut off from our source of strength

and power and peace and joy. It is not our Creator that cuts us off.

It is our own denial of our Source and our Self that gives us the

experience of being separate and alone. The ego teaches us that this

is a good thing. It teaches us that this gives us autonomy,

independence and control. It does not tell us that this control is

control of nothing and that to be independent we must give up our

strength, our safety and our peace.

 

Gratefully because we cannot change Reality, we have the freedom in

every moment to stop choosing against Reality and accept our Self as

Love created It. The decision to choose insanity is not irreversible.

The moment we made that choice, God placed in our minds His Answer to

lead us back to our Home in Him. God (Love) knows us as Its own,

changeless and unchangeable. He has left the light on for us to

welcome us Home. And even more: He has given us a Guide to show us the

way back to the Light.

 

Today I will practice remembering that I remain as God created me. I

am not a body. I am free to Love without limit and accept Love without

limit. Thus will I open my heart and my mind to the experience of my

wholeness in Love. "I will not hurt myself again today."

 

I hurt myself when I forget who I am. If I perceive myself as

suffering, I have made a choice to do so. It is within me to choose

again, to draw from His power and His love and remember that He shares

that power and love with me and therefore cannot suffer. I also have

to be patient with myself and remember that this is a process. This is

very important because, too often, I get frustrated and it is only in

fear that I begin to question the process. But today I can let the

process flow and step back, ask for guidance, and say to myself over

and over, "I will not hurt myself again today." Thank you, Father,

thank you Holy Spirit.

 

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