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so i was a very bad girlfriend over 2 1/2 years ago. now i'm confused

and lost and very unhappy. so here's what happened i started seeing

one of my best guy friends when i was in high school. we were

together though a lot. his brother passed away and i was there for

him every day, all day. i basically lived at his house. durning this

time i expected some kind of a change from him. but what i didn't

know was that his attitude toward me would change sooo much. so i got

caught up in the here and now and i left him for his best friend. so

not only did he lose a brother, he lost two best friends. now i'm

still with his best friend but something inside me wants him back soo

badly. i mean like crazy, i keep having this dream over and over

again! in the dream i go to his house and he is there with his

girlfriend. his mom awnsers the door and welcomes me in. little did i

know it was thanksgiving and he and his girlfriend were fighting. she

wanted to go home, espically cause i just walked in the door. he

refuses to give her a ride anywhere and breaks up with her. so i just

standing there watching this and she runs out there door, but i hear

these words from her mouth, "he never loved me anyway, it is u he

loves." now i know this is just a dream but i have no idea the

meaning of dreams are and i am so wrapped up in this dream because i

wish it were true. so i send him messages every once in a

while...don't you miss our friendship? he said he does! now every

time i send him messages i cry... why is that? when we broke up he

asked for the jewerly back that he had given me. he said he would

give it back to me when i had "earned" his friendship back. but that

time i sent him a message he said that we can't talk a lot becuase he

doesn't want his girlfriend to see us talking! and in that same day

he said that he would try to find my necklace and give it back to

me... my question is am i thinking to much into this. or is it

possible that someday we could be together again? please comment on

this and get back to me, i really need some advice! thank you.