Guest guest Posted October 11, 2006 Report Share Posted October 11, 2006 After alot of thinking the past 3 days, I've decided to leave the issue of being banned from IAM and such for next summer. As much as I'd like it resolved soon, there's too many reasons to re- schedule it: 1. Stress level and income: I have serious problems in just about every area of my life, and they normally shift into "Priority" as needed. A month and a half ago, I've had to force the issue of a Job Search into Priority, which breaks the natural flow and puts more pressure on my other problems. By going to Detroit this Fall, I'd definitely have to get a decent full-time job before or shortly after to not be paying for the excursion half-way into '07. Don't need the added pressure right now. 2. Kundalini: All the contemplation on the issues the past 3 days has jump-started my Kundalini with its usual kriyas, altered consciousness and need for extra rest. I like it's transformative effects, but it forces my attention inward when I need it outward for a job search. 3. Energy Drain: I'm still in shock from hearing about the former acquaintence that left Amma and is now in obvious pain and anger. I haven't been depressed since living in that crappy trailer park in '03, but this shock still has me numb and it's hard to concentrate. It's easy for devotees to care about card-carrying members of satsang, but who cares for these? That's why it's wrong to criticize people like Gayatri when they leave, because you don't know their despair. It also shows the need for real satsang, which might have prevented or lessened the fall. All this for a meditation class and to finally prove to the DC group and Dayamrita how wrong they are? I'm not that eager to be proven right, and time is my ally, as truth wins in the end no matter how long it takes. Being Pitta Dosha, Autumn has always been my Spring. Plus, my astrology chart shows things getting better in mid-December. tom Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 11, 2006 Report Share Posted October 11, 2006 First of All although Amma very much would like for Her children to gather for Satsangs I think in Your case if that is not possible for whatever reasons You can still find Amma in Your heart. You do not have to go to retreats etc... if financially that is not permissible . Just Meditate upon Her , find some peace and sometimes a little seclusion is good . However negative comments about anyone to anyone will create more negativity in your own life , it is best to keep silent if one wants to say unpleasant things . If you are in difficulties financially please address this issue to Amma directly , She will guide You , She has done so in my situation , Amma has helped me not only spiritualy but also financialy. You need to be direct to Amma , adress these issues to Mother . And if You will not receive your answer right away , please give yourself time most of all take it easy . No one sad spiritual path guaranties prosperity in all fields, hardships are just part of life we need to accept them and learn not to give up , weather these things are astrological magnets pulling out the impurities or karmic debts it is just part of Life . Amma always sees the bigger picture . wish you all the best . J > > After alot of thinking the past 3 days, I've decided to leave the > issue of being banned from IAM and such for next summer. As much > as I'd like it resolved soon, there's too many reasons to re- > schedule it: > > 1. Stress level and income: I have serious problems in just about > every area of my life, and they normally shift into "Priority" as > needed. A month and a half ago, I've had to force the issue of a > Job Search into Priority, which breaks the natural flow and puts > more pressure on my other problems. By going to Detroit this Fall, > I'd definitely have to get a decent full-time job before or shortly > after to not be paying for the excursion half-way into '07. Don't > need the added pressure right now. > > 2. Kundalini: All the contemplation on the issues the past 3 days > has jump-started my Kundalini with its usual kriyas, altered > consciousness and need for extra rest. I like it's transformative > effects, but it forces my attention inward when I need it outward > for a job search. > > 3. Energy Drain: I'm still in shock from hearing about the former > acquaintence that left Amma and is now in obvious pain and anger. > I haven't been depressed since living in that crappy trailer park > in '03, but this shock still has me numb and it's hard to > concentrate. It's easy for devotees to care about card-carrying > members of satsang, but who cares for these? That's why it's wrong > to criticize people like Gayatri when they leave, because you don't > know their despair. It also shows the need for real satsang, > which might have prevented or lessened the fall. > > All this for a meditation class and to finally prove to the DC > group and Dayamrita how wrong they are? I'm not that eager to be > proven right, and time is my ally, as truth wins in the end no > matter how long it takes. > > Being Pitta Dosha, Autumn has always been my Spring. Plus, my > astrology chart shows things getting better in mid-December. > > tom > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 12, 2006 Report Share Posted October 12, 2006 Namaste Dear Tom, I am glad to see that you are opening up just a bit and being at least a little more honest; by revealing some of the difficulties in your life. Basically you have told us that you are not handling your problems well at all. And so you lash out and blame everyone else; perhaps the whole world. It is so obvious what the problem is because everyone has the same problem and Amma tells us what it is : EGO ! The difference is that most of us have some control and try practicing Amma's Teachings( humility, compassion, forgiveness, acceptance, not judging, taking our problems to Amma, etc). But, your ego is so clever that it has convinced you that its antics are dharmic. Well, please read Chapter 2 of Awaken Children Vol 6 and see how others see you. I offer this advice with all best wishes for your awakening to truth and not the lies your ego is telling you. Amma tells us that mind/ego is a liar. You also tell us that you are having some intense kundalini experiences. Amma clearly says that without close guidance of a Guru, intense kundalini experiences can lead to delusion and other problems. You have been having this problem for a long time now. My 2cents: this should be your first priority; to ask Amma's help to keep you stable and humble and not deluded. Would be good for you to see Mother this November. All the Best with Amma's Blessings, amarnath -- In Ammachi, "tom" <tomgull wrote: > > After alot of thinking the past 3 days, I've decided to leave the > issue of being banned from IAM and such for next summer. As much > as I'd like it resolved soon, there's too many reasons to re- > schedule it: > > 1. Stress level and income: I have serious problems in just about > every area of my life, and they normally shift into "Priority" as > needed. A month and a half ago, I've had to force the issue of a > Job Search into Priority, which breaks the natural flow and puts > more pressure on my other problems. By going to Detroit this Fall, > I'd definitely have to get a decent full-time job before or shortly > after to not be paying for the excursion half-way into '07. Don't > need the added pressure right now. > > 2. Kundalini: All the contemplation on the issues the past 3 days > has jump-started my Kundalini with its usual kriyas, altered > consciousness and need for extra rest. I like it's transformative > effects, but it forces my attention inward when I need it outward > for a job search. > > 3. Energy Drain: I'm still in shock from hearing about the former > acquaintence that left Amma and is now in obvious pain and anger. > I haven't been depressed since living in that crappy trailer park > in '03, but this shock still has me numb and it's hard to > concentrate. It's easy for devotees to care about card-carrying > members of satsang, but who cares for these? That's why it's wrong > to criticize people like Gayatri when they leave, because you don't > know their despair. It also shows the need for real satsang, > which might have prevented or lessened the fall. > > All this for a meditation class and to finally prove to the DC > group and Dayamrita how wrong they are? I'm not that eager to be > proven right, and time is my ally, as truth wins in the end no > matter how long it takes. > > Being Pitta Dosha, Autumn has always been my Spring. Plus, my > astrology chart shows things getting better in mid-December. > > tom > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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