anxiety problem!!!!

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m a patient of anxiety and depression..i was 14yrs old when my

grandmother died..i was very close to her..the night when we buried

her i just came to the room n slept..in the middle of the night i

just woke up suddenly and saw the bed where her dead body was laid

in the morning and a red bulb was swithched on in that room..i just

got scared and got my first panic attack..i felt as if im also going

to die now..this feeling has made me very insecure and disturbed...i

get these panic attacks very often....first they used to be like 10-

15 a day now they have reduced..i used to feel whenever i got the

attack that i cant breathe properly,a racing

heartbeat,lightheadedness,fear of dying,cramps etc..symptoms

vary...i was put under medication and the doctor gave me xanax 1mg

5tablets a day..then he reduced it to 2...i consulted another doctor

and he said just cutt off the intake of xanax..its not good..now its

been 3 months that i left the medicine but im not recovering

well...im very depressed..cant explain what happens to me..im afraid

of going out in public,i just want to stay at home.this is now

disturbing my studies and other social activities...(i took xanax

for 5 yrs)..maybe its because of this..im not sure..i always feel

that im bout to die...though my medical reports are very clear and

they done have any such doubt..they declare me as physically

fit...im 24 now but cant handle this situation..i become weak when i

have to fight with this illness.sometimes i feel that it has become

a habit of mine...plzz help me out!!!!