Thanks for all

[Guest guest]

Om Namah Shivaya!

 

Brothers and Sisters,

 

Thanks for all you who gave answers for my question to recommend

a psychic.

 

It is true that I do meditate everyday and I chant Lalitha

Sahasranama also. I live in Massachusetts. When Amma was in MA, I had

a good time with Her and I could do lot of sevas during the retreat.

 

These days Amma gives me answers to my problems through my

feelings and this time also She gave me insight on why I am left

single. I still feel the vasana within me to get married is strong.

Amma has told me that I won't be left single.

 

Since the death of my wife in July 2004, for sometime I went

through two phases alternately. For sometime, I feel I am connected

to Amma and my energy level is high. At othertimes, I feel depressed

and clueless, my energy level becomes very low that I could

concentrate on nothing and do nothing. At the sametime, since July

2004 I spend more time with Amma.

 

This Jan. I married again but my wife stayed with me for only

five days and divorced me. I am always in touch with the Amma

devotees in Boston and they did Satsang at my home in March 2006.

Since then, I felt much better and could concentrate on whatever I

had to do. But since last Thursday, I feel completely depressed,

dejected and clueless.

 

I understand what this condition means. Amma is healing me in a

deeper level. Also if I don't feel any pain, there is no problem and

there would be no growth. I am sure Amma is preparing me to

experience a much beautiful life removing the negatives within me. It

is again not known, how much I could absorb the good things the

psychic tells me. There also only Amma's grace helps me and I am sure

Amma takes me to that position.

 

Cheers to all,

 

Mahadevan Venkitaraman

[Guest guest]

Dear Mahadevan,

 

This is true. Maybe most of us feel this way. It is

hard to describe the feeling other than a constant

tugging and pulling to let go. And when we cling to

old habits, emotions and thoughts, we tend to block

Amma's Love from coming through us.

 

Plus the intensity of the chaos in the world these

days is hard to overlook. The natural disasters...all

of this will have a tendency to effect us.

 

These are the times that it is important to go deeper

into ones Sadhana, and even bring in new practices or

more seva. This is what my intuition is guiding me to

do.

 

Going to anyone outside our Self and God, invites

anothers opinions and energy into our emotional and

mental environment.

 

My feeling is that part of the road to

Self-Realization is complete willingness to trust God

to lead us to where we need to go and to share with us

all that it is we need to know.

 

Psychic ability is a siddhi that each of us will open

up to as we begin to open up to God.

 

It is the arena of the mind...and ego and you know

what Amma has to say about those things.

 

It can get us into trouble as well.

 

It is hard to be patient and not know what it is that

will happen to us in our lives. I am sure that each of

us are facing tremendous challenges in our personal

lives on one level or the other and this seems to be

the teaching ground of the Divine Mother...to have

complete Faith and Trust in Her.

 

As she will walk us to the other side.

 

It is hard and I sympathize with you and walk beside

you in this.

 

Amma is pressing down on us...and if you take a moment

to stop what you are doing when the waves of doubt and

depression set in....you will feel her raw Shakti

there...so close to you.....

 

It is easy to feel abandoned when not in Her presence

and her Love....but that is what we are feeling when

these fears, doubts and lack of patience set in, this

absence of Love, which is not true, the Love is still

there at all times.

 

 

Keep the Faith.......

 

Love and Peace,

S

>

> I understand what this condition means. Amma is

> healing me in a

> deeper level. Also if I don't feel any pain, there

> is no problem and

> there would be no growth. I am sure Amma is

> preparing me to

> experience a much beautiful life removing the

> negatives within me. It

> is again not known, how much I could absorb the good

> things the

> psychic tells me. There also only Amma's grace helps

> me and I am sure

> Amma takes me to that position.

>

> Cheers to all,

>

> Mahadevan Venkitaraman

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