Newborn Devotion/Baby Feeding/Guru Purnima

[Guest guest]

Robin - your post is inspiring and encouraging and so sweet. I am saving it in my journal.

I also had an amazing experience in Iowa which words can hardly describe, but because Robin shared her experiences, I have the courage to share this with you all. It is a little bizzare, a little unusual, but I swear I experienced it nonetheless. So if you don't understand, I forgive you...

Since November I have been doing some intense therapy work to remove the effects of childhood traumas left in my body. I have intellectually processed a lot of the trauma from my mind so it no longer rules my day-to-day living and I have some measure of peace. However, the physical body itself has been suffering pains which are stored up cell memories of trauma.

Seeing Amma and being in her presence always brings up intense pain and intense joy and intense feelings. This time, in Iowa I had someone to share it with. My Newborn.

My memory of being an orphan at birth was recently changed. I now have a new story about it that includes a baby giraffe. I decided that my Newborn in my new story would be a giraffe instead of a limp, way premature infant who could not hold her head up and had no mother. A cute baby giraffe.

Later, one night at the Kroger store here in Ann Arbor, I was looking for the milk aisle and there was a display of stuffed animals. I saw two big brown eyes sitting upside down staring at me from underneath a bunch of furry cats, dogs and other animals. I grabbed the head of it and pulled out the animal with the big brown eyes, it was a baby giraffe! The very one I had pictured in my new birth story, a newborn!.

I swear it was a moment I will never forget. This Newborn had a great big head and a little body, much like I would have looked like as a premature infant (6-1/2 months birth). I was there in the Kroger store and I was cradling this incredible little infant giraffe in my arms and talking to it. Some part of me said "Wait, you can't do this in the Kroger store, people will think you are crazy!" An another part of me said "who cares, I found my Newborn!" Then I found a baby blanket for newborn and went home. I was able to feel mother love from myself for the first time!

Time went by and I really bonded with Newborn and took her to satsang with me so she could see Amma. Then later still I decided that Newborn should have darshan, her own darshan. I didn't know how that would happen and finally the time came to go to Chicago and Iowa. I was thinking that if Amma gave Newborn darshan then Newborn would be real.

In Iowa I was with my friend (who is doing the therapy work with me, my teacher) who has a daughter who really wanted my Newborn when she met her some weeks ago. At that time I went back to the display and found a unicorn baby for this little girl so she could have a Newborn without taking my Newborn. So me, the little girl and her mother and her Newborn all wanted to get darshan together. The problem was that I had already had darshan on the tour and the token people were saying that if you had darshan on the tour this summer you could not get another darshan the first day of the Iowa program. I told my friend we could not get darshan together. We were all sad and disappointed.

The evening came and I was thinking about how to get darshan. I thought, "I had darshan, but Newborn didn't, I can get a token for Newborn!" Then I was thinking about how to ask for darshan for a stuffed animal. I thought, "who will ask for her if I don't?" My brain said it would not happen, they would say I was crazy. My heart said to ask anyway and see what happens, they could only say yes or no. So I went up boldly to the token people and told the story and that I wanted a ticket for my Newborn so I could have a family darshan with my teacher and her daughter and the newborns...they said YES! Newborn got her ticket.

This was a miracle to me, it made Newborn and my story REAL. Amma gave us the most incredible darshan together, she put sandal paste on the foreheads of both of the newborns too!. It was so pleasing and shifted a lot of pain and negative energy out of me.

The other Amma story is about the feeding of the babies after Devi Bhava in Chicago. I ended up on stage for that. Sitting right by Amma's chair. I was holding the tray with the rice pudding and water that Amma uses for the feeding. Swami Ramakrishnananda was there to hold the tray for Amma and in between feedings (there were four of them to be fed I think) he would hand the tray to me to hold.

As I watched Amma feed the first baby, Amma fed the baby, washed her hand in the bowl of water and flicked the water on my face. I was startled the first time. She fed the second baby and flicked the water on me again. I was thinking why was she doing this? Then when the third baby got fed and Amma flicked more water in my face, I realized that she was feeding me too. She was rewriting my story with me. I could put a baby feeding in my story instead of remembering an orphanage and crying out for a mother that never came. Amma put herself in my story and I became the baby that was fed by Amma. By the time the fourth baby got fed, I was sure that Amma was feeding me too. It was such a sweet moment and such a wonderful gift for me and for Newborn.

Guru Purnima in Iowa was so incredible. I was able to sit right in front a few yards from Amma and sing and pray with her. I was crying so hard as Swami recited the 108 names because it was so beautiful. It was not tears of sadness it was tears of joy at the exquisite beauty of the moment.

 

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi

[Guest guest]

On 7/13/06, Omenka Supriti Nnadi <oomenka > wrote: "As I watched

Amma feed the first baby, Amma fed the baby, washed her hand in the bowl of

water and flicked the water on my face. I was startled the first time. She

fed the second baby and flicked the water on me again. I was thinking why

was she doing this? Then when the third baby got fed and Amma flicked more

water in my face, I realized that she was feeding me too. She was rewriting

my story with me. I could put a baby feeding in my story instead of

remembering an orphanage and crying out for a mother that never came. Amma

put herself in my story and I became the baby that was fed by Amma. By the

time the fourth baby got fed, I was sure that Amma was feeding me too. It

was such a sweet moment and such a wonderful gift for me and for Newborn."

 

Super-sweet!!

 

Thank you Omenka... It is a marvel to have a Mother like Mother, and this

part of your story really reminded me of that leela. lots of love,

Prashanti

[Guest guest]

Namah Sivaya Supriti

 

What wonderful stories! Thank you for sharing them with us.

 

Omenka Supriti Nnadi wrote:

>

> Robin - your post is inspiring and encouraging and so sweet. I am

> saving it in my journal.

>

 

--

"Naan Amme Snehikkunnu"

Be Love,

Nischala H.

http://www.ammasgirl.com

[Guest guest]

Dear Supriti,

 

I was imspired and moved to tears by your story. Thank you for having

the courage to share it with us. I also have wounds from infancy which

make my adult life challenging, although not nearly as intense as what

you have had to deal with. I can truly relate to your story and it is

very beautiful. Blessings on you and Newborn.

 

"Only when You hold me can I start believing pure love can never go

away." (from Open my Heart: Bhjanamritam vol. 3 p.274)

 

Love in Amma,

Amalia

Ôm Amriteswaryai Namah

[Guest guest]

Dearest Supriti....... I am honored at such a thought.

Your stories is so exquisite and unique.

I am having a bad day at work and your story has lifted my heart. Thank you kindly.

 

 

Omenka Supriti Nnadi <oomenka > wrote: Robin - your post is inspiring and encouraging and so sweet. I am saving it in my journal.

 

I also had an amazing experience in Iowa which words can hardly describe, but because Robin shared her experiences, I have the courage to share this with you all. It is a little bizzare, a little unusual, but I swear I experienced it nonetheless. So if you don't understand, I forgive you...

 

Since November I have been doing some intense therapy work to remove the effects of childhood traumas left in my body. I have intellectually processed a lot of the trauma from my mind so it no longer rules my day-to-day living and I have some measure of peace. However, the physical body itself has been suffering pains which are stored up cell memories of trauma.

 

Seeing Amma and being in her presence always brings up intense pain and intense joy and intense feelings. This time, in Iowa I had someone to share it with. My Newborn.

 

My memory of being an orphan at birth was recently changed. I now have a new story about it that includes a baby giraffe. I decided that my Newborn in my new story would be a giraffe instead of a limp, way premature infant who could not hold her head up and had no mother. A cute baby giraffe.

 

Later, one night at the Kroger store here in Ann Arbor, I was looking for the milk aisle and there was a display of stuffed animals. I saw two big brown eyes sitting upside down staring at me from underneath a bunch of furry cats, dogs and other animals. I grabbed the head of it and pulled out the animal with the big brown eyes, it was a baby giraffe! The very one I had pictured in my new birth story, a newborn!.

 

I swear it was a moment I will never forget. This Newborn had a great big head and a little body, much like I would have looked like as a premature infant (6-1/2 months birth). I was there in the Kroger store and I was cradling this incredible little infant giraffe in my arms and talking to it. Some part of me said "Wait, you can't do this in the Kroger store, people will think you are crazy!" An another part of me said "who cares, I found my Newborn!" Then I found a baby blanket for newborn and went home. I was able to feel mother love from myself for the first time!

 

Time went by and I really bonded with Newborn and took her to satsang with me so she could see Amma. Then later still I decided that Newborn should have darshan, her own darshan. I didn't know how that would happen and finally the time came to go to Chicago and Iowa. I was thinking that if Amma gave Newborn darshan then Newborn would be real.

 

In Iowa I was with my friend (who is doing the therapy work with me, my teacher) who has a daughter who really wanted my Newborn when she met her some weeks ago. At that time I went back to the display and found a unicorn baby for this little girl so she could have a Newborn without taking my Newborn. So me, the little girl and her mother and her Newborn all wanted to get darshan together. The problem was that I had already had darshan on the tour and the token people were saying that if you had darshan on the tour this summer you could not get another darshan the first day of the Iowa program. I told my friend we could not get darshan together. We were all sad and disappointed.

 

The evening came and I was thinking about how to get darshan. I thought, "I had darshan, but Newborn didn't, I can get a token for Newborn!" Then I was thinking about how to ask for darshan for a stuffed animal. I thought, "who will ask for her if I don't?" My brain said it would not happen, they would say I was crazy. My heart said to ask anyway and see what happens, they could only say yes or no. So I went up boldly to the token people and told the story and that I wanted a ticket for my Newborn so I could have a family darshan with my teacher and her daughter and the newborns...they said YES! Newborn got her ticket.

 

This was a miracle to me, it made Newborn and my story REAL. Amma gave us the most incredible darshan together, she put sandal paste on the foreheads of both of the newborns too!. It was so pleasing and shifted a lot of pain and negative energy out of me.

 

The other Amma story is about the feeding of the babies after Devi Bhava in Chicago. I ended up on stage for that. Sitting right by Amma's chair. I was holding the tray with the rice pudding and water that Amma uses for the feeding. Swami Ramakrishnananda was there to hold the tray for Amma and in between feedings (there were four of them to be fed I think) he would hand the tray to me to hold.

 

As I watched Amma feed the first baby, Amma fed the baby, washed her hand in the bowl of water and flicked the water on my face. I was startled the first time. She fed the second baby and flicked the water on me again. I was thinking why was she doing this? Then when the third baby got fed and Amma flicked more water in my face, I realized that she was feeding me too. She was rewriting my story with me. I could put a baby feeding in my story instead of remembering an orphanage and crying out for a mother that never came. Amma put herself in my story and I became the baby that was fed by Amma. By the time the fourth baby got fed, I was sure that Amma was feeding me too. It was such a sweet moment and such a wonderful gift for me and for Newborn.

 

Guru Purnima in Iowa was so incredible. I was able to sit right in front a few yards from Amma and sing and pray with her. I was crying so hard as Swami recited the 108 names because it was so beautiful. It was not tears of sadness it was tears of joy at the exquisite beauty of the moment.

 

 

 

 

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi

[Guest guest]

I have some pictures of the newborns, can anyone explain how to share with the list?

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi

[Guest guest]

Wow, this story is so full of beauty and Love. Thanks for sharing.

 

adriane

 

>

> I also had an amazing experience in Iowa which words can hardly

describe, but because Robin shared her experiences, I have the

courage to share this with you all. It is a little bizzare, a little

unusual, but I swear I experienced it nonetheless. So if you don't

understand, I forgive you...

>

> Since November I have been doing some intense therapy work to

remove the effects of childhood traumas left in my body. I have

intellectually processed a lot of the trauma from my mind so it no

longer rules my day-to-day living and I have some measure of peace.

However, the physical body itself has been suffering pains which are

stored up cell memories of trauma.

>

> Seeing Amma and being in her presence always brings up intense

pain and intense joy and intense feelings. This time, in Iowa I had

someone to share it with. My Newborn.

>

> My memory of being an orphan at birth was recently changed. I now

have a new story about it that includes a baby giraffe. I decided

that my Newborn in my new story would be a giraffe instead of a

limp, way premature infant who could not hold her head up and had no

mother. A cute baby giraffe.

>

> Later, one night at the Kroger store here in Ann Arbor, I was

looking for the milk aisle and there was a display of stuffed

animals. I saw two big brown eyes sitting upside down staring at me

from underneath a bunch of furry cats, dogs and other animals. I

grabbed the head of it and pulled out the animal with the big brown

eyes, it was a baby giraffe! The very one I had pictured in my new

birth story, a newborn!.

>

> I swear it was a moment I will never forget. This Newborn had a

great big head and a little body, much like I would have looked like

as a premature infant (6-1/2 months birth). I was there in the

Kroger store and I was cradling this incredible little infant

giraffe in my arms and talking to it. Some part of me said "Wait,

you can't do this in the Kroger store, people will think you are

crazy!" An another part of me said "who cares, I found my Newborn!"

Then I found a baby blanket for newborn and went home. I was able to

feel mother love from myself for the first time!

>

> Time went by and I really bonded with Newborn and took her to

satsang with me so she could see Amma. Then later still I decided

that Newborn should have darshan, her own darshan. I didn't know how

that would happen and finally the time came to go to Chicago and

Iowa. I was thinking that if Amma gave Newborn darshan then Newborn

would be real.

>

> In Iowa I was with my friend (who is doing the therapy work with

me, my teacher) who has a daughter who really wanted my Newborn when

she met her some weeks ago. At that time I went back to the display

and found a unicorn baby for this little girl so she could have a

Newborn without taking my Newborn. So me, the little girl and her

mother and her Newborn all wanted to get darshan together. The

problem was that I had already had darshan on the tour and the token

people were saying that if you had darshan on the tour this summer

you could not get another darshan the first day of the Iowa program.

I told my friend we could not get darshan together. We were all sad

and disappointed.

>

> The evening came and I was thinking about how to get darshan. I

thought, "I had darshan, but Newborn didn't, I can get a token for

Newborn!" Then I was thinking about how to ask for darshan for a

stuffed animal. I thought, "who will ask for her if I don't?" My

brain said it would not happen, they would say I was crazy. My heart

said to ask anyway and see what happens, they could only say yes or

no. So I went up boldly to the token people and told the story and

that I wanted a ticket for my Newborn so I could have a family

darshan with my teacher and her daughter and the newborns...they

said YES! Newborn got her ticket.

>

> This was a miracle to me, it made Newborn and my story REAL. Amma

gave us the most incredible darshan together, she put sandal paste

on the foreheads of both of the newborns too!. It was so pleasing

and shifted a lot of pain and negative energy out of me.

>

> The other Amma story is about the feeding of the babies after Devi

Bhava in Chicago. I ended up on stage for that. Sitting right by

Amma's chair. I was holding the tray with the rice pudding and water

that Amma uses for the feeding. Swami Ramakrishnananda was there to

hold the tray for Amma and in between feedings (there were four of

them to be fed I think) he would hand the tray to me to hold.

>

> As I watched Amma feed the first baby, Amma fed the baby, washed

her hand in the bowl of water and flicked the water on my face. I

was startled the first time. She fed the second baby and flicked the

water on me again. I was thinking why was she doing this? Then when

the third baby got fed and Amma flicked more water in my face, I

realized that she was feeding me too. She was rewriting my story

with me. I could put a baby feeding in my story instead of

remembering an orphanage and crying out for a mother that never

came. Amma put herself in my story and I became the baby that was

fed by Amma. By the time the fourth baby got fed, I was sure that

Amma was feeding me too. It was such a sweet moment and such a

wonderful gift for me and for Newborn.

>

> Guru Purnima in Iowa was so incredible. I was able to sit right in

front a few yards from Amma and sing and pray with her. I was crying

so hard as Swami recited the 108 names because it was so beautiful.

It was not tears of sadness it was tears of joy at the exquisite

beauty of the moment.

>

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> Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

>

> Supriti Omenka Nnadi

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