Seeing Amma last month in San Ramon

[Guest guest]

My first darshan with Amma in San Ramon last month in not seeing her

for a year was very special. (Last June 2005 was my first time

seeing Amma.) Amma had proved to me that she is always with me, does

listen to me always and answers my special desires. Over a month

ago, I had told Amma telepathically that I wanted her to hold me and

sing into my ear. It had nothing to do with my seeing her for

darshan. I was just only saying it without attachment to the

outcome. I thought maybe she would do it to me in like a dream or

something like that.

 

About two weeks before her first day in San Ramon, I really liked

this one song that she sang, it was one of the samples online. I had

never heard her sing in person before. This song I liked was Gopala

Krishna. I loved listening to it and would play it over and over on

my computer. I could sort of make out some of the words as I had the

Bhajanamritam book with the words to it. I am deaf and hear with my

hearing aids. It's hard for me to follow along with the bhajans when

I go to satsang at the MA Center. But this song was clear enough for

me to make out some of the lyrics and was enjoyable to listen to.

 

Then when I went to go have darshan with Amma on June 6th. This was

a very special day for me because those last three months previously

have been a pretty intense spiritual awakening period with so many

Amma dreams and a lot of telepathic communication with her.

 

When Amma held me, she started singing Gopala Krishna into my hear.

I totally did not expect that! It was a nice surprise! I was so

happy and so touched when she did that! It was her way of telling

me "Stacy I am always with you and do hear you when you speak to

me!" I sat next to her chair after my darshan for an hour crying. I

felt so blessed and touched by her. It was a gift, and it meant so

much to me when she did that. I had never ever seen Amma sing in

anybody's ear before. I'm not saying that she does not, but how

often does she do that? This was one of those moments when I had

experienced Amma's true Omnipresence.

 

The second time that I saw her at the first Devi Bhava (San Ramon

had two Devi Bhava's last month), Amma blessed me with a second

gift. While she was holding me, she sort of held me too tightly that

I could not breathe. My nose was right on top of her rose garland

that I could not help but really notice the smell of roses while my

face was in her bossom. She did not let go right away, she seemed to

be holding me a bit longer than normal.

 

Then when I left after my darshan that night, as I am driving on the

highway heading home, I started smelling roses filling up in my car

so strongly! It lasted for about 10 or so minutes. I was just

smiling and so happy for that gift. I thanked Amma for blessing me

again! That was so cool to experience because it made me feel like

that no matter where she is, she is always with me.

 

I write about my spiritual experiences with Amma nearly daily on my

blog http://360./stacysgarage

 

Jai Amma!

Stacy Moskus

[Guest guest]

Stacy,

 

Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful Amma

experiences.

 

It put me in a place of remembering all of the special

things that have happened as well this summer.

 

My being has been so streched by this tour, and then

right back into life again, until the next meeting

with her in Boston.

 

It is hard to bring the mind together enough to recap

all of these amazing experiences with Amma, but it is

apparent to me that I am somehow in the flow of the

tour in general.

 

A small story: I work at a University supporting an

education, training and research grant for graduate

level nurses.

 

I have a small altar in the back of my office with

pictures of Ammachi, Yogananda, Haidakhan Babaji and

others. Well, my door was wide open yesterday...as I

was in a mad sweep of working on various projects and

making adjustments to this next trip to see Amma, and

a woman stuck her head in the doorway and said, I see

you have a picture of Ammachi, were you on the San

Ramon Retreat this summer? Yes, I said. Apparently,she

has just graduated from this two year nursing program,

this is the first time that we have seen each other.

She had received a month long grant to work at AIMS

last December, and stay at Amritapuri. She said she

found herself wanting to be with Amma, more than

anything else while she was there. Before she left our

chat, she said Namah Shivaya, and in the midst of this

world I am in at work, I was gently pulled back to the

magic of being around Ammachi and all of the beautiful

people who surround her.

 

Ahhhhhhhhhh Wishing Life....was always this

wayyyyyyyyyyyyy and all we needed to do was gaze at

our beloved Amma, sing Bhajans, do Seva and just enjoy

the ride........

 

S

 

--- Stacy <stacysgarage > wrote:

 

> My first darshan with Amma in San Ramon last month

> in not seeing her

> for a year was very special. (Last June 2005 was my

> first time

> seeing Amma.) Amma had proved to me that she is

> always with me, does

> listen to me always and answers my special desires.

>