RE: To Supriti about Witnessing and Thriving (was DevoteeConflict)

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sending love to this childs beloved sisters and darlng daughters of AMMA

suprti and linda.....and ofcourse every darling child of AMMA.

 

may all beings everywhere behold HER FACE..

 

 

>nierika (AT) aol (DOT) com

>Ammachi

>Ammachi

> Re: To Supriti about Witnessing and Thriving (was

>Devotee Conflict)

>Sun, 21 May 2006 18:33:16 EDT

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>Supriti wrote:

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>...Don't  get me wrong I am not espousing being a door mat.  I am only

>saying

>that  as a human on the plane, I have responsibility for myself and my

>spiritual  growth, no one elses.  Many of my problems were because of

>trying to

>control every little thing around me to avoid pain and abuse.  It was 

>survival

>mode.  And until Amma showed me what thriving and flourishing as  a human

>spirit were all about, I continued to survive and my ego took care of 

>everything.

>I fought a lot.  I growled, I screamed, I drank till  drunk, used drugs,

>the

>whole shebang.

>

>Looking back on that life I lived, I am grateful to Amma and Amma's

>children

>-  all my brothers and sisters,  that I survived long enough to  thrive.  I

>still have ego days, and I always pray to Amma that she help  me to see the

>truth and grow from the conflicts she puts before  me.

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>Dear Supriti ~ your post touched me deeply, as well as the one before where

>you wrote to Temba about witnessing. That was a whole new perspective. I

>have

>read where Amma talks about us being the Witness ... or being in the state

>of

>  the Witness, where there is no ego and we are able to impartially see

>what

>is  going on. To think of people being Witnesses for each other is an

>incredible  idea. I grew up in an abusive home, so I very much relate to

>everything you

>have  written. My sister was the one who got into alcohol. I became a

>workaholic, and  I think that is part of the reason I am sick now. But the

>point

>about not just  surviving, but thriving, is a very important one. Thriving

>means

>we're still  growing, learning and open, regardless some of our struggles.

>Being held close  to Amma and called "daughter" meant all the world to me.

>Jai Ma

>~  Linda

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